(Rose)
The past few days now just feel like a distant dream. I'm alive, I can walk. I feel normal. As if nothing was real.
R - Except for that part, where I'm now talking to myself like that. It still feels odd.
B - I'm not you though.
Small flowers protrude from the middle of my chest, along with stems, leaves and even thorns. She's there. And she speaks to me as if it was the most normal thing nowadays.
R - You're a part of me now... oddly, curiously, I... Despite how strange it should be; I feel rather happy about it.
Seeing these flowers growing out of my wounds, out of me, like a foreign parasite; I can't help but be surprised at how easily it became normal to me.
It's a mystery even to me. I think a lot about it. And it's a mystery to her as well it seems.
B - Why was it so easy for you to accept me?
R - Perhaps because you love me... And I've liked your honesty.
I can feel it shivering at the sound of the world love. She's feeling a little shy.
R - The crow, Ann, loved me as well, in her own way... A very different way. Oddly enough, I feel more at ease with yours than hers.
I don't feel proud about that. I didn't like to dance with Eros and Thanatos. But still I rejected someone mostly human, to embrace a demon... Nonetheless, I'm feeling quite fine right now.
B - My wish was to walk alongside to you. Beyond the consequences that brought... I can't help right now but being happy being attached to you as we are today.
R - Hm... In a way, that may not be much different to what she wanted... But it's now in our past. For you as you now are, I'm fine with it. As long as you don't endanger my own health of course.
I know she saved me from a fatal wound. And I know that despite her current body as a parasite, she is a conscious and intelligent being. An emotional one even.
Despite her nature currently growing from my flesh, I truly believe she has no intention to harm me.
B - You know, you're in command. I've given you power over my existence as it now is. It's true.
R - Don't be so melodramatic. I don't see any reason to kill you now. At all.
Make her pay for the horror of the first days... What would be the point? I'm not that petty...
R - From what I understand, and feel, your body and mine are alive in a situation of symbiosis now. Alright, you're technically a huge parasite that grows out of me, you can speak despite being clearly not human in any way or form, and that still disturbs me a little; but in the end, you're only a good part of me.
She doesn't reply immediately.
B - I still wish things happened differently...
R - ... Me too you know. Are you still feeling sorry for all the people who died gruesomely because of you? And I remember you laughing and singing before.
B - It was fun to me at the time. I had no control of myself or anything. Now that I truly can, I feel sorry over what I've done.
It sounds like an easy excuse after all the blood that was spilled. As if she had simply been drunk. I don't know what to think. Still...
R - Because you're feeling weak and dependant now... It probably helped you get humble and realise the cost of your actions. Back then, you seemed simply drunk with your own power in your playfield... In a way, you simply matured.
Facing the powerlessness to save my life, and now to live at my mercy. The first time she truly felt fear and anxiety was when I lied dead from the wounds Ann inflicted to me.
A major part of her personality grew from that trauma of losing the thing she cared about. And she threw everything she had and was to save it.
B - Matured? What do you mean?
R - I mean that it seems you acted in a cruel childish manner precisely because you were a kid. A powerful dangerous child, left on his own. What did you know of pain, suffering and morality?
B - These concepts carried little to no meaning to me. I feel bad for what I've done now.
R - That remorse, it means you've grown, more human and respectful. Remember that feeling well please. It's a part of your atonement, and growth. But please don't go drowning in it.
B - The inherent value of life is still somewhat unclear to me. But what I've done, and what we've become, it has increased its meaning to me. Now I have a growing concern for the consequences of my actions over time. Because so many things completely escaped my control... I realise things like that now.
R - You learnt your power had limits. You learnt to be aware of your actions. You're still learning what it means to worry about your place in the world... Still...
I'm touching the pale flower on my chest.
R - Still, you managed against all odds to fulfil your wish. That's something. And I... I accepted you. Goodness, it still feels strange admitting that... Hey, are you laughing?
B - I am being amused. You seem to be one of a kind as they say. There are still so many things I have yet to fully understand... But I think you were right about me.
R - About your growth?
B - Also yes. I was oblivious, and I don't have such desires anymore. I want to be considerate and aware of my influence. But I was thinking about something else you said. You're right, I do love you.
I'm feeling slightly embarrassed now.
R - I... When I was still asleep, I heard your feelings very well. They reached me while you were healing me. Still, now hearing it while I'm awake it's...
B - Overwhelming?
R - A little I guess... It feels warm, and awakens a part of my timidity inside that I thought was gone...
B - I love you.
R - Oh... Please stop that. I'm embarrassed. Of course it's nice to hear it, but... I'm feeling overwhelmed yes. Please let me breathe as I walk alright? It feels to warm to walk with such feelings along right now...
B - You're not making any sense.
I sigh, embarrassed. That thing is right. I'm feeling stupid. I mean, I'm feeling completely stupid since I realised how she felt for me...
I don't recall being ever like that before. It's awful....
R - I, I know that. Just, don't tease me too much, okay? I won't be able to walk otherwise.
B - Alright. I will ask you to tell me more about what you feel a little later however. I want to learn, and I think I'm beginning to enjoy what it brings. And I. Love. You.
I'm coughing vainly in embarrassment. That warmth is itchy all over my face and ears. I hate and love this kind of personality she's showing. I breathe in deeply.
I went to meet my daiûa to learn things beyond this world... But it doesn't know that much, and I end up teaching it about our emotions instead. Oh, woe is me...
Still. The air is calm. The landscape is open.
B - Where shall we go?
R - I have one or two ideas. But seeing there are no horses around anymore, it will be a very long journey by foot.
B - I'm fine with that.
I feel my mind going a little blank for a second. The wind feels nice. I begin walking on that dry path.
R - Let us go then.
I never expected that...
A story where you, love me.
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