Okay, so you know how life can just throw a curveball when you least expect it? Yeah... that's exactly what happened to me.
It all started after that movie night with Min-jun. I swear, he looked so cute laughing at that cheesy rom-com. His eyes crinkled at the corners, and his smile... UGH. Why is he so perfect? And don't even get me started on the way he held my hand during the scary parts. Not that I was scared or anything... I just... needed some extra warmth!
After the movie, we went back to our shared dorm room. We were lying on my bed, staring up at the glow-in-the-dark stars he helped me stick to the ceiling. It felt so magical, almost like we were floating in space together. We started talking about our future, our dreams, and all the things we wanted to do.
Then, Min-jun looked at me, his eyes softer than I'd ever seen before, and whispered, "I love you, Eun-ji."
My heart did that weird fluttery thing again. "I love you too, Min-jun," I whispered back, my cheeks burning.
He leaned in, and our lips touched. It started as a gentle kiss, but then it grew deeper, more intense. My heart was racing, my entire body tingling as his arms wrapped around me, pulling me closer.
I felt safe. I felt loved. And in that moment, nothing else mattered. We kept kissing, our hands exploring each other, our breaths becoming heavier.
We talked about it before... about waiting until we were ready. But that night, we were both so caught up in the moment, so wrapped up in each other, that we decided to take that step together.
We had sex.
It was my first time. His too. It was sweet and awkward and perfect all at once. We were nervous, and we didn't really know what we were doing, but we figured it out together. We trusted each other completely.
Afterward, we just lay there, tangled up in each other's arms, feeling closer than ever before. I felt so happy, so complete. We whispered sweet things to each other, talking about our future, our dreams, and how we would always be there for each other.
I didn't think about what could happen. It just felt so right. In that moment, it was just me and him, completely wrapped up in each other.
But life has a funny way of surprising you.
Fast forward a few weeks, and I started feeling... weird. I was tired all the time, my stomach felt queasy, and I couldn't even stand the smell of my favorite kimchi. At first, I thought I was just stressed from school or maybe catching a cold. But then... I missed my period.
I tried to convince myself that it was nothing, that it was just late because of all the stress. But deep down, I knew something was off. I finally worked up the courage to buy a pregnancy test. It felt like everyone in the convenience store was staring at me as I grabbed the test off the shelf. My heart was pounding the entire walk back to the dorm.
Min-jun wasn't around, thank goodness. I locked myself in the bathroom, my hands shaking as I took the test. Those three minutes felt like the longest of my life. I tried to distract myself by counting the tiles on the floor, but my mind was spinning.
When I finally looked at the result... two lines. Two pink lines.
Positive.
My head started spinning. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't think. I just... sat there on the bathroom floor, staring at the test, trying to process what it meant. I was pregnant. Min-jun's baby... my baby. Our baby.
I don't know how long I sat there, but eventually, I heard Min-jun's voice calling my name. I quickly hid the test, splashed some water on my face, and opened the door, forcing a smile.
But he knew something was wrong. "Eun-ji, are you okay?" he asked, his eyes full of concern. I wanted to tell him right then and there, but the words just wouldn't come out.
I needed time. Time to figure out how to say it, how to explain what this meant for us. How would he react? Would he be happy? Angry? Scared? I didn't even know how I felt, let alone how he would feel.
I spent the rest of the evening pretending everything was normal, laughing at his jokes and pretending to focus on my homework. But all I could think about was that tiny pink test hidden under my bed.
I was going to be a mom. And nothing would ever be the same again.