A Mother's touch"
"Yes, oh yes worship me!
she said through her moans.
I continued licking her as she locked her legs around my head pulling on my hair, pressing her pussy against my face as her juices poured on my face.
She stared down at me panting softly with a smile..
"From today hence forth you shall call me Mistress...
"My cute little slave.
I stared at her as she raised her feet moving her toes to my lips, she moved her hands to cover her privates.
"From now hence forth you shall call me Mistress"
I stayed still as my mind went blank, I replied calmly:
"Yes mistress...
"Good boy, now lick my feet like a good little dog you are..
I did as she commanded and began licking her feet. She burst out into laughter staring down at me with satisfaction in her eyes.
"Enough, now get out!
She said and I replied bowing my head at her.
"Yes mistress...
My mind was still blank, I didn't feel anything, I couldn't feel anything. Pain, humiliation, hatred, suffering nothing came to mind for some reason.
I reached for my clothes and got dressed walking out of her room.
My face remained straight and emotionless as I got to my cell.
I opened my door and saw father(Priest), sitting on my bed.
"Your finally here, where were you?
He said as I stood still silent.
"You kept me waiting boy..
He got up from the bed as he raised his hand and struck me.
I felt to the floor as he yelled.
"When I talk you respond, boy!!!!
He yelled as he pulled out his belt and began beating me mercilessly.
I couldn't cry, or scream I mean what's even the point.
I just laid on the floor as lashed me with his belt till he had his fill.
He reached out to me grabbing and pinned me against the walls as his hands reached for my pants pulling them down.
I stood still and letting him have his way.
He slides his hard hog, into my behind enjoying himself.
"This is my life now, a common thing to the used and tossed around, like a dirty old rag.
I stayed still as father violated me once more.
After he was done he freed me as , I fell on the bed, covered in bruises.
He reached for his pants getting dressed as he walked out of my cell.
"I stared at the ceiling, my vision fading from my own eyes I muttering softly.
"Some one, Anyone please kill me...
I said before falling unconscious.
Thursday
9:30
I woke up staring at the ceiling and my mind still felt blank, my entire body in pain from last night.
My eyes were dark and bore no emotion
of any kind.
I reached for my clothes getting dressed as I walked out to the dining table for breakfast.
I saw the nun's of the Monnestary all seated at the tables having breakfast so I just I went to the kitchen and got myself a plate when a voice called me from behind.
I turned and saw Ezma and Malena sitting at a table.
I walked over to them holding my tray of food.
"Good morning Mistress..
I said as Ezma smiled at me.
"Good morning, how did you sleep?
She asked as I kept silent.
"Ugh it stinks, like a dog!
Malena said staring at me making a weird face.
"Ezma, come on Malena that's not very nice...
Ezma replied with a giggle.
"What ever, it better not eat at this table am irritated by his presence...
Malena said again as she continue her meal.
Ezma turned to me as she pointed to the floor.
"Sit..
I obeyed and took a seat on the floor.
She reached for my bowl, as she grabbed it pointing at the floor she turned my plate upside down pouring my food on the floor taking the attention of everyone at the dining room while I watched as she poured the food.
"Oops... I guess you will have to eat from the floor then my little puppy..
Ezma said and honestly I didn't care I just wanna die and be don with this miserable life of mine.
"Now eat...
Emma said pointing the spilled portage on the floor as I leaned into it like a good little dog and began eating.
The rest of nun's watched in disgust as Malena ignored me turning to Ezma she spoke.
"Can we get back to our topic...
Ezma turned her attention away from me and replied.
"So are preparations for tonight set?
"Yes, honestly am sick of that old cow it's time she's been taken care off....
Malena said reaching for a cup of water.
"I agree, What's the point of being reverend mother if all you do is lick the father's ass and disrespect this great Monnestary..
Ezma replied then turned to me.
"It's time the young generation have absolute control of the Monnestary...
She said as she raised her legs stomping on my head, pressing my face against the spilled food on the floor.
I didn't even bother struggling, I just sat still with my Head pressed against the floor.
"Don't you think that's enough Ezma?
A sudden gentle voice asked as I rolled my eyes.
it's was a nun, standing a
beside the table.
She was was average in height with short silver hair, a bursty shape, and striking resemblance to Malena.
She had a black cloth wrapped around her eyes and by her side was my ex Abigail holding her hand.
"Well he's my Toy, and I think it would be best if you buzzed off, Monna!
The nun turned her head to Malena.
"You approve of this big sister?
the nun spoke as Malena exhaled.
"Let him go Ezma.... there are more important things we need to attend to.
Malena said as Ezma exhaled deeply in disappointment getting up she kicked me in the groan, and I fell flat in the ground groaning in pain.
"Whatever...
Ezma spoke as they both walked away.
I got up holding my gut as I stared at the nun, she was as beautiful as she was grateful just like her big sister.
I noticed she had a cloth wrapped around her eyes I don't think she could see, maybe she's blind.
I said to my self.
"T-Thank you...
I said as Abigail took a couple step closer.
"Are you okay?
She asked as I replied.
"Am fine..
I walked away heading back to my cell.
I stared at the ceiling fan lay on my bed for he rest of the afternoon, my face emotion less, my lips drooling with saliva there was only one thought that came to mind.
"Kill your self..!
"Kill your self..!!
"Kill your self..!!!
"Kill your self..!!!! and as the sun set I came to decision.
For some reason, I stopped feeling sorry for my pathetic life and the the thought of ending all this pain was all that lingered on my mind.
I got up and reached for my bed sheets twisting in length I dragged my bed to the center of the room, and got on it.
I reached the ceiling fan and tied the sheets on it.
"That's right Kill your self..!!!
The voices came to my thought again and for some Fucked up reason I felt some kind of excitement.
It felt like I couldn't wait to end my own life.
I moved the bed back to it's normal position and grabbed a stool.
I got on it and wrapped the sheets around my throat.
I stared at the window watching the sun set as I smiled.
"God forgive my soul ...
I said as I kicked the stool aside.
I didn't bother struggling for air, I hung still chocking to death.
A knock suddenly came to the door which I ignored as I chocked.
The door suddenly burst open with Iris walking in.
"Oh my God!!!
Seeing me in that state she rushed over as she grabbed my legs pulling me up ward.
"David, what the hell!!!
I said nothing wishing upon nothing but death.
Her hands reached for the sheets around my neck as she managed to loosen it.
I fell right down on the floor coughing and gasping for air
"You Almost killed your self, why!
She said staring down at me, she had nothing but fear and concern in her eyes.
"Your asking me why?
I said raising my head as she froze silent, knowing all that has happened to me.
"What's this noise about?
Mother's voice (Reverend mother) came from outside my room as she walked in seeing me on the floor and my bed sheets tied to the ceiling fan, she quickly got hint on what was already going on.
"David what in God's name were you trying to do?
"Ending my life!
I quickly replied as mother raised her hand and slapped me.
"Ending your life, do you want to go hell? is that where you want to spend your eternity?
she said as I raised my head.
"At least hell would treat me better than this shit hole.
she raised her hand at me once more as I yelled at her.
"Go ahead, hit me! That's all you've ever done! I can't live like this anymore! It's only been days and am already loosing my mind.
Violated by the priest, hated and tormented by the nun's.
This isn't the life you promised me. I trusted you as my mother, and you sit by and watch as they do this to the child you raised from birth.
This past few days all I've ever felt was hatred for THE CHURCH!, HATRED FOR THE MONASTERY AND YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE MORE ???
I asked having nothing but anger and hatred deep inside of me.
"David, stop!
Iris called out to me but I didn't even listen.
YOU!!! MOTHER, I wish you never came to my life, I wish you let me to die on the streets as an orphan and I hope never never live to see tomorrow.
And when you die I hope you burn in hell for the rest of the fucking eternity!!!
I said raising my voice as she stepped back frightened at my outburst.
"GET OUT! Get the fuck out of my cell!!!!
I said getting up standing my ground.
Mother had nothing but fright in her eyes as she walked out of my cell.
I turned to Iris, as she took a couple steps back afraid.
"Leave...
I said as she walked out of my room.
I burst out into rage turning my room upside down smashing everything.
I turned to the wall as I began hitting it repeatedly in anger.
"Damnit!
"Damnit!
"DAMNIT!!!
I yelled as I kicked the wall pulling back panting heavily.
I sat back on my bed panting heavily.
For some reason in that moment I burst out into laughter, laughing uncontrollably.
"It's barely, been a week, and I've already lost my mind, I've already become a mad broken man.
my laughter echoed through the halls of the Monnestary drawing the attention of everyone. I laughed for minutes uncontrollably and that's when she walked in into room.
It was the woman from earlier, Malena's little sister Monna! The one with with the cloth wrapped around her eyes.
Honestly I didn't even bother, I just kept laughing.
She sat beside me as she pulled me into her arms hugging me closely.
I couldn't stop my self from laughing and before I knew it tears began flowing down my eyes.
"There there Child, am here now...
She muttered softly as she began rubbing my hair.
My loud laughter slowly turned into an outburst of tears as I began sobbing in her arms.
She held me close as I felt her warmth laying in her arms. The sweet warmth of a loving mother.
It felt safe, warm and cozy and I never wanted to leave.
"It's okay child, I hate the Monnestary as much as you do..
She muttered softly as she held me close and before I knew it I drifted off to sleep
Friday
10:13
I woke up to and empty bed, feeling relaxed and refreshed and I was back to the same old me.
I sat up and looked around and noticed my room was messy, I honestly can't believe I did all this and almost killed my self.
"what was I thinking?
I asked my self as I sat up.
I sniffed and noticed I smell really bad, haven't showered in two days.
I walked up to my door as I opened it up.
I saw a bunch of men oddly dressed carrying some one covered in white sheets down the hall as the nun's of the Monnestary followed behind.
Some broke out in tears, and I knew something was wrong.
"Wait did someone one die?
I asked a bit confused.
As the men carried the body passed my room I reached out to the sheets and opened it up. To my surprise I saw mother (Reverend mother) laying lifeless..
I stepped back in shock as my heart skipped a beat.
"What the hell is going on?
mother is dead????