I have been in this black void for god knows how long .After I was sentenced to eternal eternity in this void that the god of death placed on me I have been alone with my thoughts thinking about multiple things actually, first I thought of how stupid I was reincarnation as if that existed I should have known but then again the memories that were implanted in me prevented me from noticing that I was just a toy for the god of death , something so insignificant that he discarded me here.
Sometimes I wonder what came to be of my big sister Mira did she die when acnologia arrived or did mavis save her ?well I wouldn't know, I just hope she is safe ,after staying here for a lot of time I realized that this place is just pure torture ,torture I wouldn't wish upon my greatest enemies ,is this how the people I killed feel when they died?that's also something I wouldn't know.
You know being here made me realize a certain perspective on my life .I was just an a whiny brat I placed all my troubles and pain on the fact that life had been really unfair to me ,that the pain I experienced is on of a kind ,that I was some sort of protagonist in a big Novel of some sort .I thought that if I had killed enough people and blamed everyone for the pain I was given , that I would somehow have a normal life again that I could reunite with my siblings and live a happy ever after but life doesn't go the way anyone exceptes it to go.
If I think carefully I think one of the things that prepared my downfall was my inability to understand that I could redeem myself through normal means.like I could have easily just knocked out juvia instead of killing her just to save meredy ,if I had done that Erza wouldn't necessarily have come after me or refused to cooperate with me to save Elfman .The irony of it all it turns out I had killed Elfman indirectly even though I didn't mean to ,but I did kill nonetheless if I just didn't kill juvia ,killing sprung a chain reaction that killed Elfman so it means I killed him ,iam so sorry Elfman ,iam so sorry you had me as your little brother I didn't deserve you nor anyone of my other siblings for that matter.
I occasionally think about what Mira said to me that she didn't have anymore brothers it really struck me deep in my heart I really couldn't blame her I might have called her a pretender but the truth if the matter is that she did the best thing she could in such a situation where both her comrade and sister were injured but to completely cut ties with me that really was the final blow that led to all this nothingness but I have no one to blame but myself ,I did this to myself and I deserve every bit of it .
What if I hadn't been born would Elfman still be alive would Mira be eternally happy has my excetence caused that much pain not only to me but to all this around me as well I know that I sound like I am beating myself over and over with the same arguments but at the end of it all I was the root of all evils every thing bad that happened, happened because of my selfishness and foolishness, but what's the point of crying over spelt milk now all those things now are in the past even if I wanted to change something I could because I am not alive anymore.
I wish I had one more chance one more chance to correct my mideeds one more chance to turn to the light one more chance to live normally again I wish I could back in time and change everything that happened.
" Well foolish soul you wish to return to undo the mess you yourself created that is intruging to say the least "
What he-he returned I never thought that the god of death would return again I thought he was tired of me being his toy so what happened why is he back here again
"Foolish soul you are probably think of why I would return to you again after so many years of your sentence right "
Of course I want to know why did he return now.
"Well the answer to your question foolish one is that I simply got bored again and my thoughts wandered to you when I heard you say that you wanted a second chance"
Of courses how could I be so stupid of course he is here to make me a toy for his enjoyment again
"I decided to bestow mercy on you foolish soul and return you thought time and space so you could have your so called second I chance"
Hahahaha what a joke the being that had played with me like a toy in the past and plunged me into darkness for eternity wants to save me now oh the irony of it all.but I decided toy or not I wouldnt let such a chance go I will be given a second chance so I can't waste it this time so what if iam a toy to him if I can get my happiness back again I don't care If a become his toy
"Ok now foolish soul I will only send you back to a point where didn't kill anyone in fairy tail meaning before you arrived at the island"
Ok ok that's more than enough for me I didn't expect anything grand in the first place and I want to atone for my sins so I have to live with them if he had told me that I would go back to the point where I was born or would have kidnapped I was going to refuse him immediately without question
"Now then foolish soul I am sending you back now "
This time I am not going mess things up this time I will truly be happy this time will will aquire the thing that had been stolen from me