There was no future for me if I kept fighting like this. No matter how strong I got, I would always be a slave to my own emotions.
I closed my eyes for a brief moment, trying to find some clarity, some calm. I could still feel the bloodlust gnawing at me, but now I had to learn how to control it. I had to use it—not let it use me.
When I opened my eyes again, Shiva was watching me, waiting. "Well?"
I exhaled slowly, trying to clear my head of all the noise. The anger still lurked at the edges of my thoughts, but I focused on my breathing, on the stillness.
I threw a punch, but this time, it wasn't wild. It wasn't desperate. It was clean, controlled. Shiva blocked it, but I could see the slight surprise in her eyes. I followed up with a swift kick, using my body's momentum, not relying on the surge of hostility inside me.
She stepped back, nodding in approval. "Better. But it's only the beginning."
We continued sparring, and as we fought, I felt a little less tethered to the rage. It was still there, but now I could see it for what it was—a tool, not a master, not a crutch.
With every move, I grew more aware of the power I was harnessing. And with every punch, I knew Shiva was testing me, pushing me to my limits.
After what felt like hours of grueling training, I was panting, sweat slicking my skin. I could feel the bloodlust gnawing at me, but now it felt like I had a leash on it, something to keep it in check.
Shiva stepped back, wiping a thin sheen of sweat from her forehead. "That's enough for today."
I dropped to my knees, my body aching from the exertion. But it was a good kind of pain, the kind that made me feel like I had actually learned something.
Shiva's voice broke through my exhaustion. "You're not there yet. But you're getting closer."
I grinned despite myself, the first real smile I'd allowed myself in days. "Yeah? Well, I'm not done yet."
She gave a small, approving nod before turning to leave. But before she stepped away, she turned back to me, her voice cold and direct.
"Remember, Jason. Your anger could be a driving tool. But only when you control it."
I nodded, already feeling the weight of her words sinking in. For the first time in a long while, I felt like I could see a way forward. Maybe, just maybe, I could control the overwhelming urges inside me.
And for the first time in a long time, I wasn't afraid of it.
****
The training ground felt even more brutal today—like the air itself was charged with anticipation.
The vast stone courtyard, surrounded by high walls, was empty except for Lady Shiva and us. The floor was slick with morning dew, the stones cold beneath my feet. The scent of moss and dampness lingered in the air.
The harsh sunlight cast long shadows as the sky slowly brightened. It had been three days since Lady Shiva started training me, and while my body still ached from the previous sessions, there was a new sense of control brewing within me.
Control… the kind that kept the bloodlust chained down just long enough for me to focus.
Today, I was supposed to face off against Damian, who was also training under Shiva. Damian, Ra's al Ghul's grandson, had been a constant thorn in my side since I first arrived at the League's fortress.
There was an unspoken rivalry between us, a kid who always wanted to prove who was stronger, faster, more skilled.
Lady Shiva stood in front of us, arms crossed, as usual, her gaze cold and calculating. She didn't speak a word as she observed us.
"Damian," she finally said, her voice cutting through the air like a blade. "Jason, today you two will engage in a practice match. Show me what you've learned."
I could hear the smugness in Damian's voice as he responded. "I hope you've improved, Jase. I'll make sure to go easy on you." He was clearly enjoying this, his confidence bordering on arrogance.
"Oh, please. Don't hold back on my account, little prince. I wouldn't want to ruin your ego." I shot back, a smirk tugging at my lips. The sarcasm practically dripped from my voice.
He might have been Ra's al Ghul's heir, but there was something about his cocky attitude that made me want to knock it down a few pegs.
Damian narrowed his eyes at me, clearly not appreciating my words, but he didn't say anything else. His eyes were sharp, calculating. He was waiting for the moment of his get-back.
We both stood opposite each other in the center of the courtyard, the morning sun casting an orange glow on the stone beneath our feet.
It was eerily quiet, the air tense with anticipation. I could feel the lust for blood beneath my skin, clawing, scraping at the edges of my mind. But I didn't give in. Not yet.
Lady Shiva gestured for us to begin. Without hesitation, Damian lunged at me, his movements sharp and precise, his small but well-toned frame moving like a snake.
He aimed a swift kick at my midsection, one of those moves that felt like it would break a rib if it landed. I dodged easily, shifting my weight to the side and spinning out of range, but I was impressed. The kid was fast. Too fast.
"Not bad, brat," I muttered under my breath, barely dodging another quick swipe of his katana.
Damian's movements were quick, fluid, and calculated—exactly how I expected that geezer's offspring to fight. His strikes were relentless, each one designed to wear me down, to find an opening.
He didn't hesitate, not even for a second. Each time I deflected or dodged his attacks, I could feel the frustration building in him. But I couldn't afford to underestimate him, this kid might be smaller than me, but he was still deadly.
I evaded another strike, narrowly missing the edge of his blade as it sliced through the air. "Keep it up, Damian," I called, trying to keep my tone light. "You'll need more than that to tag me."
He growled under his breath, his eyes narrowing with each failed strike. Damian pressed forward, trying to force me into a corner with a series of well-timed attacks.
A flurry of attacks came at me—slashes, punches, low sweeps. I blocked and dodged, each move calculating, deliberate. I could feel the power of the attacks behind his strikes, but they were predictable. And I knew that was his weakness.
As the fight progressed, my body began to settle into a rhythm. I began to slow my movements, concentrating on my breathing.
A subtle breathwork exercise that Lady Shiva had taught me to keep my overwhelming surges in check. In through the nose, hold, then out through the mouth. It was helping, a little. But not nearly enough.
Damian's movements grew more frantic as he pressed harder. He launched a spinning kick at me, aiming for my head.
I stepped back just in time, and his foot missed by a hair's breadth. But I could see the frustration building in his eyes. He was getting desperate, and that was exactly what I wanted.
"You're starting to lose it, kid," I teased, leaning back just enough to dodge another wild swing. "Come on, focus. Where's that ass whooping I was promised?"
Damian gritted his teeth, his eyes flashing with anger. "Shut up, ."
With a growl, he launched himself forward, his katana aimed directly at my throat. This time, I couldn't dodge. But I didn't need to.
I sidestepped the strike at the last moment, grabbing his wrist and using his own momentum to throw him off balance. He stumbled, and before he could recover, I twisted his arm behind his back, pinning him to the ground.
"I told you, kid. You need more than speed," I said, my voice light, almost casual. I wasn't even winded. But I could feel the slight rush of adrenaline coursing through me as maintain a calm demeanor.
Lady Shiva stepped forward, her gaze impassive as she watched us. She didn't say anything, but I could tell she was pleased with the way I'd controlled the fight.
Damian, however, was having none of it. He yanked his arm free and scrambled to his feet, breathing heavily. "You got lucky. That's all."
I raised an eyebrow, a grin tugging at the corner of my lips. "Sure, kid. Whatever helps you sleep at night."
Damian's glare could have burned through steel, but I didn't care. The match was over, and I had won. No contest.
Lady Shiva finally spoke up, her voice cool. "Enough. You both showed improvement, but there is much more to be done. Damian, you must learn to control your anger as well."
She glanced at me, a small glint of approval in her eyes. "Jason, well done. You've learned to fight without the bloodlust overwhelming you. But you still have much to learn about control."
Damian huffed and crossed his arms, obviously frustrated, but I could see the respect in his eyes now.
He might not have admitted it, but I knew he was beginning to recognize my skill. And I wasn't about to let him forget it anytime soon.
"Next time, you'll be the one on the ground," Damian muttered, gritting his teeth in frustration.
I shrugged. "We'll see, kid. We'll see."
****
Damian stormed out of the training courtyard, his fists clenched so tightly that his nails dug into his palms. The cool morning air did nothing to soothe the fire burning in his chest.
His pride, his honor, had been wounded, and the sting of defeat was unbearable. Jason's smug grin and casual tone replayed in his mind like a taunting echo. *"We'll see, kid. We'll see."* The words grated on him, fueling his anger.
He didn't look back as he marched through the fortress, his boots echoing sharply against the stone floors. Servants and League members scattered out of his path, sensing the storm brewing in his demeanor.
Damian didn't care. Let them see his fury. Let them know that Damian al Ghul, heir to the Demon's Head, was not to be trifled with.
By the time he reached his chamber, his breathing was ragged, his mind racing. He slammed the door shut behind him, the sound reverberating through the room.
The chamber was sparsely decorated, a reflection of his disciplined upbringing—a bed, a desk, a weapons rack, and a single window overlooking the mountains. But Damian barely noticed any of it. His focus was inward, on the humiliation he had just endured.
He paced the room, his mind replaying the fight over and over. Jason's movements, his taunts, the way he had effortlessly countered Damian's attacks. It was infuriating.
He had trained his entire life under the tutelage of the League of Assassins, honed his skills to near perfection, and yet Jason—a rookie in the League—had bested him.
"No," Damian muttered under his breath, his voice low and venomous. "This isn't over."
He stopped pacing and turned to the weapons rack, his eyes locking onto the katana resting there. The blade gleamed in the dim light, a symbol of his heritage, his skill, his 'right' to dominance.
He grabbed it, unsheathing it with a swift motion, and held it before him. The steel reflected his face, his eyes burning with determination.
"I will not be humiliated," he said aloud, his voice steady now, though the anger still simmered beneath the surface. "Not by him. Not by anyone."
Damian's mind raced with strategies, techniques, and training regimens. He would push himself harder, train longer, and refine his skills until they were flawless.
He would study Jason's weaknesses, exploit his overconfidence, and turn his own arrogance against him.
Damian had been taught from birth that victory was not just about strength but about cunning, patience, and precision. And he would use every tool at his disposal to ensure that the next time they crossed blades, Jason would be the one on the ground.
"This is not the end," Damian declared, his voice cutting through the silence of the chamber. "This is only the beginning."
He sheathed the katana and placed it back on the rack, his movements deliberate and controlled. The anger was still there, but it was no longer a wildfire. It was a controlled burn, a fuel for his resolve. Damian al Ghul does not lose. He shall conquer.
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