In the brightly lit bathroom, Tsukishima Kyouko sat quietly on the toilet lid, her tightly clenched fists resting on her plump thighs.
Her hair was somewhat disheveled, with a few strands obscuring her flushed face.
'…How have I become so sensitive…?'
Tsukishima Kyouko helplessly tugged at her shiny stockings and sighed.
"How embarrassing…"
Feeling the dampness on her thighs, she instinctively covered her flushed cheeks with her hands, her red ears betraying her emotions.
"How could I act this way in front of Ito? How embarrassing! He shouldn't have noticed, right...?"
'It seems I never felt this way with Matsuo…'
(Elofam: I don't know the exact name, I let it as "Matsuo")
Both Tsukishima Kyouko and her husband, Tsukishima Matsuo, appeared to be emotionally reserved individuals, often maintaining a serious and distant demeanor.
Although they treated each other with respect and affection, their physical intimacy was rare, and they hadn't been intimate for a long time.
Meanwhile, in the study, Ito Yoshito glanced at the damp chair, his expression slightly odd.
'Tsukishima Kyouko seems like the type to be rather restrained; I didn't expect her to be so sensitive… Could it be… a hidden side to her?'
"Bang!"
A noise erupted from the nearby bookshelf, causing Ito Yoshito to turn and look.
He discovered that the notebook Tsukishima Kyouko had left on the shelf had fallen to the ground, several pages scattered around.
"Huh? How careless…"
Leaving his seat, Ito Yoshito approached the bookshelf and squatted to pick up the notebook.
"Ah… I wonder which page these sheets were in…"
He examined the loose pages with curiosity.
"Hmm? What a strange title…"
The remarkable label "Experiencing True Pleasure" caught his attention immediately.
Who puts such labels on a normal person's notes?
Ito Yoshito, like a little hamster, explored with curiosity, scanning for any signs of others. Good, there was no one around...
'This wouldn't count as eavesdropping! I don't plan to look ≠ I'm not looking (⑅˃◡˂⑅).'
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Experiencing True Pleasure
Today is a day worth commemorating!
Since I pursued my wife Kyouko and became her husband, I had thought we would live a happy and fulfilling life!
Yes, that's right! In the early days of our marriage, it was indeed as I had hoped; we were affectionate and living a harmonious and blissful life.
However, a year after our marriage, Kyouko's belly still showed no signs of change. We started to become anxious and mutually decided to go to the hospital for an examination.
Ah—when I received the diagnosis, I felt utterly crushed. It wasn't my wife Kyouko with the problem, but me... infertility!
The diagnosis read: Male Infertility—Sexual Dysfunction.
Those glaring words delivered a merciless judgment on me.
No wonder, during that time, I increasingly felt powerless, even in the presence of my beautiful wife, I lacked any desire.
Honestly, it didn't bother me at first, as I have always been a rather cold person.
What truly drove me to the brink was my guilt towards Kyouko!
I love my wife so much!
However… both Kyouko and I are rather reserved types.
Though we are affectionate towards each other, we lack surprises in our relationship, making our lives somewhat bland and boring.
Because of this, Kyouko longs to have a child, investing her hopes in a future kid, believing that their arrival would bring surprises and excitement to our lives, making things more interesting and worth looking forward to.
But ultimately… infertility!
Later, Kyouko continually comforted me, saying she didn't mind, and that we could still live well together, but…
I know deep down, she was disappointed!
Six months after receiving the diagnosis, Kyouko and I returned to our calm and affectionate life, as if nothing had happened.
However, we maintained our respect for one another, and I never got intimate with Kyouko again; not because I didn't want to, but within these months…
I became completely incapable…
Though there were attempts at treatment, none proved effective.
Sigh…
I know I owe Kyouko so much. Despite her cool demeanor, she has considerable needs in that regard.
So, we lived together in silence for a year.
To spare me embarrassment and suppress her own longing, Kyouko threw herself into her work more intensely.
She gradually grew more aloof and serious…
Unable to face her, I devoted most of my energy to work instead.
Seeing her like this pierced my heart with pain, but I didn't know how to address it.
Until that day in [x month x day]…
That day, I was handling some papers in the study.
While researching something, I accidentally clicked on an ad in the browser, leading me to a strange website...
Given my usual emotional restraint, I didn't have much understanding of matters of romance…
When I first laid eyes on that website, my instinct was to close it.
However, I was drawn in by the pinned article that had the highest number of clicks, curious about what could be so engaging that it garnered so much attention from readers.
I clicked on it, and that moment changed my life, leading me into a new world...
The title of the article was "NTR: The Fall of My Wife."
Since the protagonist's situation resembled mine, I quickly immersed myself in the story, even substituting Kyouko for the female lead, projecting the narrative onto my own life.
In that moment, I resonated completely with the protagonist's emotions.
The struggle paired with excitement continuously swirled inside me, driving my body...
My desires awakened!!!
The feelings, the sensations were unlike anything I had ever experienced; it truly felt like I was floating on clouds, ascending to paradise!
At that instant, I tasted true pleasure!
However, once I finished the chapters and my fantasies faded back to reality, I once again felt the emptiness and powerlessness in my body.
I desperately longed to relive that addictive feeling!
Kyouko...
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Ito Yoshito glanced at the date on the diary entries; the last entry was from last month.
'So, Tsukishima Kyouko got married just two and a half years ago.'
He turned to examine a few other papers, one of which was a white hospital diagnosis sheet.
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Name: Tsukishima Matsuo
Age: 30
Condition: Male Infertility—Sexual Dysfunction
Treatment Plan:...
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Ito Yoshito felt a mix of emotions surge within him.
He could only imagine the internal struggles Tsukishima Matsuo must have faced, grappling with feelings of inadequacy amidst a seemingly perfect life.
'This explains a lot about Kyouko's demeanor…' he thought, piecing the narrative together.
The pressure, the loneliness, and the yearning for connection could lead anyone to seek solace in unexpected places.
As he continued to read through the pages, Ito Yoshito couldn't shake the sense of empathy for Matsuo.
He wondered how the couple navigated their life together, especially under such heavy emotional burdens.
His mind raced with thoughts of Kyouko and the life they could lead.
What choices would be made when love and desire collided with the harsh realities of life?
The motivations behind human connections unveiled themselves with startling clarity, beckoning Ito Yoshito deeper into his own feelings and thoughts about love, passion, and the desires left unfulfilled.
In this quiet study, illuminated only by the soft glow of the lamp, he contemplated the very essence of what it meant to truly connect with someone, and whether the path forward involved delving into the complexities of both their lives...
And perhaps, finding a way to break the silence that hung oppressively in the air.
'What if my understanding of intimacy was all wrong? What if there was a way to create a deeper bond despite the barriers?'
He realized he had a choice to make, one that would not only affect his future but might also alter the lives of those around him.