I opened my eyes in clouds, as far as I can see I am surrounded by white fluffy clouds with few rays of sunlight scattered between the clouds just imagine yourself early morning in the sky and the sun is coming out and it's quite, absolute silence and it's very peaceful as I am getting the floating sensation without the weight of my body and then I notice I can not sence my body, the pain in different parts of my body is gone, no my body is gone. Shocked every thought flew out of my mind living me very still, I do not no how much time pass before I progress that indeed I am floating without my body and I am thinking without my mind.
"It must be a dream."
I try to voice it out and the voice come out in the silent surrounding even though I do not have a vocal cord I thought in amusement.
"No you are not. " Said a voce.
I tried to look toward the voice I see a figure but I could not make out face because of the light that is coming out of the figure almost blinding and pure.
" Who are you? And what do you mean? " I asked quietly but he or she whoever is the person,heard it.
" I am what you humans persive as God, and I mean that you are not dreaming child, you have died! "
"Died.(taking deep breath) Ok so what now? " I asked.
" Are you not shocked , most of humans are, usually take a lot more convinceing than that." God now amused asked. And though in amusement he / she still speaks very slowly as he/she has all the time in world and very deliberately and very gently. You can literally feel the kindness radiating from him for me. I can feel he is very clam being.
"What has happened has already happened ,why try to deny it and keep on looking back, I think looking forward is important, doesn't mean I am not distressed or afraid.. you look like a kind being so I think I will be alright. But I would like to know how did I died and now what? "
"A very good outlook, well to answer your question you died in your sleep due to carbon monoxide poisoning, you died of suffocation, and before answering what now, I will answer one more question which you wish to ask but did not ask, your family is ok they will heal slowly and they will be fine, your brother will look after your parents and they will be able to smile again at your memories I will send them a dream of you being happy in afterlife so you can truly look forward not backward. And now to answer your last question what usually happen is you get judged and sent to haven or hell. "
"So what is the judgement? " I asked.
" You can go to haven but their is one other option you can reincarnate in any world of your choice. Just like those fan fictions you read but not your original world. " God said.
Boom! It's like an explosion in my mind, do not get to excited, do not get excited I am chanting in my mind, let's first clarify.
"Um when you say reincarnate in any world do you mean any book, cartoon, literature, animes, any! And do I get to keep my memories? " I asked gleefully.
God laughed as answered ,
"Yes any and yes you do. "
"Wait a minute let me think. "
A second later or maybe eternity later I answered.
"I want to reincarnate, into Harry Potter the original not like fan fiction where it is too dark or a different story is going on I want to reincarnate in Harry Potter and I want to have same age as Harry Potter. I want to be a witch" I thought for a second to change my gender after all I have already lived as girl and just thinking of periods or bras was enough to do that and does not matter which society male gender always have it more freedom than female gender and in 1991 surely but than I thought what about romantic partner I am straight so if I change my gender in my mind I will still like male gender and being gay in 1990's does not sound interesting even Dumbledore was not open about it so who am I but than thinking about how I like to say and think a female can dream whatever she want and can achieve success in any field and she can just do it just set it so what about a little set backs and periods and bras I am gonna come victorious of any place, I can handle it. I nodded to myself, yes if I think female can do it then I should be able to do it and I should prove it too, I can take magical world as a female.
"Ok, but know you will have your memories but you will not remember your family and your name to not have any identity crisis. " God replied.
" Um can you also erase my fears. " I asked.
"Of course you will start as a child and children do not have any fear your memories will come to you at age 3 before that you will not be able to handle it and remember only memories will return you will be a new person so you will have to relearn everything in your new body so for example just because you have memories of swimming does not mean your body know how to swim you will have to teach your body to swim. "God said.
" Alright. " I replied.
" Good luck and bye. " Said God.
And suddenly I am falling I have a falling feeling and everything goes blank , pitch black. Thud.