[Please read this note in its entirety]
As you might have already noticed, there has been a drop in update rate these past two weeks. Considering the support I have received from you guys, without which this novel would not have been possible, I feel obliged to at least share my reasons with you.
I started this novel over a month (approximately month-and-half) ago and we are now 50+ chapters in with over 80k word count. We are so near the end of the first volume.
When I first started out, I had made it my goal to at least write two chapters per day, and sometimes I would even write three or four. Of course there were times when I couldn't write anything so those kind of balanced out. Point is, I was very devoted to this project because I had made a promise to myself that this piece would be my entry into the world of writers. That, if I failed to complete this, I would never truly step into that world.
I knew my college would start around mid-feb (which it did) so I had to balance my free chapters and those on Patreon, all the while building a stable backlog. But then things happened.
If you had read my earlier chapters, I mentioned that I was facing some problems in my life. My sister was sick and I had to help with that and whenever my father was busy, I also had to look after his work. At first, I thought things would calm down and by February 20th I would be back on track. But things don't as planned in real life—they never do.
Now my sister is in hospital, my exams are happening, and I honestly don't know what to do. I'm just not in the right mind to write anything. There's always this worry gnawing at me from inside, pounding at my head until I'm feeling exhausted for no reason and my head is aching like hell.
But I'm not giving up on this novel. I'm not giving up on you.
For you, buying my membership was an act of trust, but for me, it was a commitment. And everyday I miss an update, I'm overcome by guilt because I think I took something from you without offering anything in return. And for that I sincerely apologize.
All I'm asking for is that you bear with me. I would totally understand if you happen to cancel your membership. I just hope that you will keep a watchful eye on this, so that when I'm back on track, I can welcome you again.
That said, I will still try and write whenever possible. So maybe not 1 chapter a day, but I could maybe push a chapter every other day. And by the end of this month, I will have an announcement ready for you whether I might have to take a break, or if I will finally return to duty. [As doctors have yet to determine the cause of her illness, we honestly don't know whether it's going to be a short term affair or something that usually takes weeks to recover from—basically a surgery. I sincerely hope it doesn't come to that, but that's all I can do—hope.]
Thank you, for everything.
P.S: I was at the hospital all day long, so couldn't write even a single word; tomorrow would be the same. Whenever I'm not in college, I will be at hospital.