So here I am... in this strange emptiness. I don't know how I got here, but I still found myself hating the existence of everything. What was the purpose of the world if, in the end, everyone simply died like this? Why is this world so cruel in not granting us immortality? I really hate this... no, I hate EVERYTHING! And now, I'm floating in an emptiness of NOTHING!... and I really HATE this! ...or... at least that's how I thought, until I was surprised by something that disgusted me.
I felt strange touches on me, something with incomprehensible touches that made my head feel crushed by immense pressure. I really HATE THIS, I hate this being too, when this is over, I'll KILL IT and return to my silence!
When I finally tried to look towards where they were coming from, with a disgusted face, I became extremely confused by what was in front of me. It had an incomprehensible form, but beautiful, and I felt like I was falling into a pit of madness and despair. But I did my best to show that I wasn't afraid. But in the next moment, I couldn't see anything except light enveloping me.
As my perception shifted, I was back in the dark, lightless place, where I could only feel my body in this suffocating location. But my body felt at ease, and I liked the silence. I didn't realize I simply desired that silence while I looked around, seeing nothing... but somehow, I felt it touch me again. That thing was unnatural and seemed absolutely uncomfortable. I wondered why that entity did this to me? I tried to feel my face and immediately shuddered due to the touch on an eye that was on my forehead... Wait? An eye on my forehead? What does this mean? Why is there an eye there?
This is strange, very strange. A normal person shouldn't have eyes ON THEIR FOREHEAD! I began to feel anger towards the entity that touched me and did this to me! I HATE IT! I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, HATE IT! I HATE THIS! I HATE EVERYTHING IN THIS DAMN WORLD!
I snapped out of my haze of hatred when I felt the touch again, and I felt it tremble inside me. That strange touch was becoming very irritating. Why doesn't it stop clinging to me and leave me alone? As I started to get more agitated from not being able to find it, I found myself wishing:
"I want to be alone."
My wish was simple... but how strange... what is this that I am feeling? These emotions are leaving me bewildered. I've never felt this way before! Maybe it's this new body, my feelings are all over the place, and I have little to no self-control.
[Years later]
It's been more than a year, or maybe dozens of them, I think. It's hard to know when I'm in this emptiness where I feel embraced. I still felt something inside me growing and evolving. The more explosive hate and rage I had, and the strange touch of annoyance, the stronger it became. For some reason, I had instantly identified it as my "Law." How? I don't know! But I felt that I was right. I also felt my desire to be alone growing stronger and more powerful, making my emotions increase immeasurably.
"Oh... what are these things? It's disgusting!" I could feel unpleasant touches. "Everyone is trash except for me, after all... huh?"
I managed to remember a few things from my past life, like anime, manga (and Visual novels), along with some games, but that's not important for now... I still feel the constant growth of my soul, and every second makes me feel my body strange and really better. But there's also this disgust for these... things...
Time skip (A few days later)
I began to feel my emotions explode as my soul began to transcend dominance. I screamed loudly as I felt the echo caused everywhere. Soon after, I felt my existence becoming something related to DOMINANCE. I saw my desire and its change... now being "I want everything to die and leave me alone"... then I felt both my desires as if they were UNITED!
And not just that, I also felt POWERFUL, and immediately felt a greater pulse from the foreign touches, making me scrunch my face in disgust when I finally tore through the darkness where I was and stepped out into the void, where I felt the rays of light hit my three eyes when I saw colors for the first time in my life... but instead of feeling happy, I felt revulsion and had the urge to return to my solitary existence as I looked around. I felt my most important memories, the memories of this body, and as I remembered my human name, which was simply Māra Papiyas, before, but this was no longer my name. I remembered that I was no longer the same person as before, I was a new being. I am The 6th Heaven... HAJUN, and I had a mission...
"This person who likes to hug others is a strange person. 'Seems dirty and disgusting. While something like this exists, I will never be alone."
The 5th Heaven had to DIE.