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Chapter 7 - Chapter 7: Feelings

A spring breeze came through the almost empty halls of people after the high school school day had ended, that breeze surrounded everything, Saem was perplexed, without saying a word, when Yuuki called him by his real name and not the name he should use in the world of the living, he felt that his life took a resonant turn in the course of his life, incredulous of the situation again he asked Yuuki "Could you tell me again what you called me?" to which a confused Yuuki answered doubting his own words "I think I told you a random name Myeon-Jin, but aren't we going to that bakery we had said to go to?" to which Professor Kenji intervened since he did not understand the situation "ah, guys why are you so long faces? Also the name Saem I think I had never heard but a good nickname for someone like you Myeon-Jin, do not hesitate so much and make your plans, Minho remember to be early tomorrow to introduce you to the rest of your new classmates", to which Minho replied "yes professor, do not worry, we will see each other tomorrow, well it was a pleasure to meet you Myeon-Jin and Yuuki, I hope we are good friends okay?", after saying that, he left, but even within his deep heart, Saem felt very deeply confused, Yuuki with that look that emanated, made even more that special atmosphere, of wanting to share more things with Saem, but wise and was decisive in what he came to the mortal world, to be only a mere observer, than one more actor in the fragile timeline in which he found himself, with evasive Saem told him very melancholic "Yuuki, I am very sorry, but I think I will not be able to accompany you perhaps another day, okay? When he turned around to leave and walk, again Yuuki told him I reached out and took his forehead, to which Saem replied, "What are you doing?" and with a softness in his words he said, "I'm trying to see if you have a fever, I decided we'll go to your house together, you might be getting sick and for that reason, you don't want to accompany me." Yuuki's insistence and concern for him were so great that he just nodded as the breeze reached their faces.

As they walked, Yuuki kept talking to him about many things, Saem deep down, did not feel the same, he felt and again understood that there was no place in Yuuki's life, but an emotion called desire invaded his mind, while Yuuki looked at the new stores that had opened along the extensive streets of the city, he pointed out each place they wanted to go, especially with him, at one point Yuuki stopped and said "wait for me here that I will be back soon, if I find out that you ran I will know, I run faster than you", to which Saem replied "do not worry I will not go anywhere, or at least I hope so" while he was standing, he leaned his back to the wall, while he carefully observed the life of the living, which reminded him a lot of what life was like in the citadel, despite being an orphan it never stopped him from doing things for the other children of the orphanage who saw him as the older brother of the pack, nickname which he loved, a part of him missed the "tranquility" of the also busy life in the citadel, with so many part-time jobs he had, and with only one goal in particular, to bring something to eat at the orphanage, to bring some gift to the children of whom he loved so much, while about 5 minutes passed, Yuuki left the convenience store, and smiling said to him "shall we continue walking? Ah I bought you this, from the little we knew each other I know that you like milk with strawberries, and you drank it during class breaks", a surprised Saem wondered how someone can notice such insignificant details as that he likes to drink or what he likes to do, and more his weak heart full of emotions overflowed, while they continued walking through the busy streets to get to a bus stop, Yuuki watched him very closely, his expressions and that milk that he had bought him he had not consumed, he only held it, to which he asked him "Myeon-Jin, I see that you have not taken the milk I gave you, but it doesn't matter, but I see you very discouraged, is something wrong?", to which he replied "nothing is wrong with me, don't worry, it's just that being by your side makes me feel happy", it was a lie that he told her, the deepest feelings told her much more than that, to which Yuuki with a smile replied "you also make me happy, and even more so to have you as my friend, so trust me", those words of trust resonated more strongly in her heart.

In an instant a bus stopped towards the stop that they both had to get off, since Vivian was only 4 blocks away, to which Yuuki was the first to get on, but when it was Saem's turn, his foot stopped and he stepped back, from his pocket he took his phone and called Yuuki, since he was watching him not get on and he replied "I'm sorry Yuuki, I have to go somewhere else, I thank you for the company and for the milk, I hope we see each other tomorrow", to which Yuuki replied "but Myeon-Jin, I can accompany you, let me get off the bus", and the doors then closed, Saem looked at the window and said "see you tomorrow, Yuuki", and the bus left, and Saem cut the call, and turned off his cell phone, worried Yuuki called him again but a message said "The client you are calling is out of coverage or is out of service", resigned he felt very sad and looked out the window and muttered "Why don't you call me?" You trust me Myeon-Jin, because without you, my life is lonelier than usual," as the bus disappeared into the distance, I murmured "I'm sorry Yuuki, but fate is sometimes so cruel and unfair, that I don't want to hurt you, I just want to protect you," and I walked through the lonely streets of Fukuoka City.

Meanwhile Jun tried every means to fix the communications amulet but to no avail, all signals were cut off with the library, he felt so frustrated of not doing something, that in his typical tantrum he threw the amulet to the floor cursing, while he was in his tantrums he felt the door open and it was Ji-Hoon who had just arrived, and he saw the amulet on the floor while he looked at Jun with his face of not knowing what to do and he replied "again trying to repair something that neither you nor I can do anything, resign yourself once and for all, we are cut off from the spiral world, based on my knowledge plus yours, there is nothing we can do, only Young-Chil would know what to do, and now the question is the following: What's wrong with you that you're so discouraged? On your own you came to this world, despite the risks that it entails", to which Jun replied, "I've spent the whole damn day, waiting for some answer from that amulet, and nothing, I try to look through this diary and just project the timeline, the one we are living in, I already assumed that losing Il-Seong, has affected me greatly, I know that if he were here present, he would tell us how to do our job, but he is no longer satisfied with my answer? To which Ji-Hoon curiously answered the name of the librarian "I had no idea that the librarian still kept his name, it was tradition that the successors of librarians must give up their name when writing it in the diary and that in my opinion I think you were not the only one who knew this or yes, second in command? , without evading anything Jun told him how the librarian selection process had been and what happened afterwards, to which he summarized by saying "we were three people who knew that something had happened, the dean Tae-ho who was a lifelong companion of his, and without forgetting Young-Chil, you know, I met them when I was barely 10 years old? At that time I had big dreams that I wanted to do, but it was an elementary school teacher who told me "follow the "your heart's desires" is not a cliché word, but that word left a deep mark on me, despite my parents' wishes that I was a Soul Court Attorney or High Judge as my father's wishes were, I defied him, and you know the rest of the story, without Il-Seong's help, I would never have been here, I would never have been in the library, he gave me a meaning to my life, and now I only have from him, this torn diary from that explosion," the words that Jun said were so deep that they were born from his heart, from the feeling of losing someone special, it was so deep, that only he remembered the first time he saw Saem, in that world of the living they were both fighting for something, they were fighting to discover each other.

After a while of melancholic conversation Jun asked him "so how well did this key day go for us? You were at least able to meet again", to which Ji-Hoon replied "it was the opposite, I was listening when Minho introduced himself to Yuuki, but the expression of both was different, it was very distant, when they shook hands to greet each other, since that was the method you proposed, the one who was most affected in that place was Saem, but something interesting and curious happened, in a second, when he turned around to see Saem, he didn't call him by his mortal name, he called him by his original name, and that caused me many doubts, How could someone who left the spiral world remember the name of someone he never met?

Those words caused a worried echo in Jin, to which he checked the timeline and sure enough, before Jun's eyes he could see a huge fracture in time, not only did it affect Yuuki's memories but it was the complete opposite of what Il-Seong would expect, to which Jun told him "this line that runs through Yuuki's life, is fractured in two scenarios, the first one foreseen by Il-Seong was the reunion and that we would all return home, but that scenario did not happen, now a constant was joined in the fracture, Yuuki's connection to Saem was so great, that the time tangent line was replaced, in other words, Yuuki depends 100% on Saem, before the date of the trip to Haruyama, which according to the dates, should be November 15 of this era", with a look of doubt Ji-Hoon was totally dismayed, now there was a new date limit, to which he asked Jin "so, something in the spiral world ends "If this new tangent has just occurred, it is not only the end of mere existence, it is something that is incomprehensible to our knowledge."

As he was about to continue speaking, the talisman that Jin had thrown on the floor began to glow and a message was projected in the air, "Waiting for confirmation of Connection Spiral World, Please wait, The citadel communication system has been interrupted by 50%, attack on the library, attack on the department of the dead, Attack on the golden express system", perplexed by the messages Jun could not believe it "but what is happening in the spiral world? How is it possible so many attacks, to which a new message appeared "New Information, Connection established Communications Department Library Please wait..", Projecting recording "Guys, I hope you are well, I am sorry that communications with this world have not arrived in time, Wittawat, Anya, Hye-Jin and Dean Tae-Ho, are in the library, the same attacks that we received in sector E, were the same attacks on the department of the dead, everything coincides in a large-scale sabotage" while listening to the message both felt perplexed, from the sabotages to both The people in the precincts, who could have done such damage, wondered why they would do it and what they would gain from it, that was far from getting answers,

After having transmitted the message, again the talisman shone and now an image of someone special was projected "Hello guys, I'm sorry for worrying you so much" it was Il-Seong, to which Jun stood up from his seat and extended his trembling hands while his eyes were tearful and said "this is impossible, tell me it's impossible", to which Il-Seong replied "if it were a lie, I would say that when you were 16 you were chasing me all over the city when I was in the library, and you were wearing a civil guard costume, and they stopped you while I was laughing in the distance", to which an incredulous person did not understand absolutely anything, to which he said "if you don't believe me, then open the door for me Jin", and ran to the door, and could see before his eyes Il-Seong, he still had the bandages on his arms and forehead, "I heard your voice in that place where I was, you brought me back, and do you remember the promise we made when we were children? I will always accompany you" with a slight smile, Jun perplexed by such an event slowly approached to touch Il-Seong's face, and saw his arms still injured from the explosion that happened that day, and without hesitation he hugged him so tightly as something so precious, that so precious in his life that he saw him leave, the one in whom his heart was missing, "I thought you would be dead, I thought about everything we lived, and I blamed myself for everything, forgive me, forgive me", Il-Seong seeing how he cried from so much sadness and anguish he felt, hugged him and said, "Jun, you are the strongest of all, if there is something I value in my entire life, it is your courage above all things, and again you show it to me, listen to me, I can only be 5 minutes in this world, we are still working on maintain communications, and make a plan to go to the soul bank that can't be accessed by any other way, not even the golden express, when we solve that, there will be time to talk" and while looking at his prototype diary that In-Ju gave him, he saw that time was running out, to which Jin said "please don't go, don't leave us I just ask you", and she said taking both his hands "Jin, my faithful friend, that diary that I suppose you have, destroy the seal, that is your task, Ji-Hoon, I entrust you with everything until the date that you already know what you must do, don't leave Yuuki, Minho, and above all, Saem alone, it is a beautiful house and it looks comfortable, take care of yourselves, and Jun, smile, like that time we saw each other when you entered the library, that is the Jun I want to see", saying those words as he had said, with a soft pleasant blizzard and with flower petals he disappeared.

The smell of the sea and its pleasant blizzard, was what Saem enjoyed, while he was sitting on the sand, watching each wave that came and went on a night so clear, that the moon itself was reflected in the sea, he was thinking about all the things he had lived, what he was experiencing, while he reflected he looked at the sky contemplating the stars, as he did in the orphanage while he was on top of an old platform that he climbed when he was little, it was almost the same night that he enjoyed in the spiral world, that quiet and lonely night, was what he wanted but such a desire was not, the simple fact of sharing with Yuuki made him so vulnerable, because despite his mission of not intervening, his feelings towards him had already marked such a deep echo in Yuuki, it was something he did not want, but when he saw him for the first time, the two times he was wrong his longing was to be by his side, to be able to support him, but now the person who needed support was him, the more he thought he only murmured "Why is this happening to me? I want be with him, but fate is so unfair to me, why is life so cruel", as he looked at the sky, tears fell from his face, as he wiped away his tears his heart hurt even more, the way he acted with Yuuki, trying to get away from him, was also what hurt him the most, while he thought about that, Ji-Hoon appeared and sat next to him, to which Saem was very surprised and said to him "How would you know I would be here? To which he replied "you are very unpredictable Saem, besides the place that you like the most in the spiral world, is the golden sea, I still remember when we were children, after having met you on that occasion, we continued seeing each other, and you took me to the Saraegnam port, on the east side of the citadel, and we sat on the white sand watching the empty ships, and nights like that just watching and nothing else, enjoying the rich sea breeze, like now" after telling him those words, Ji-Hoon gave him a glass of his favorite coffee, to which he replied:

"thanks for the coffee, besides it was not necessary for you to be here Ji-Hoon, or did Jun send you? To which he replied moving his face "nobody sent me, I knew more than anyone that you would be here, reflecting, or thinking which is the same, I am not a spelled and wise like the benevolent Jun, we have fulfilled in this world of the living three days, while the course of life in the spiral world It moves faster than here, the days are long, and sometimes uncertain, we thought that such a meeting between Yuuki and Minho would make a change, but look at us Saem, you, me and Jun are here, and the two of us sitting here, looking at this ocean, this calm sea", to which Saem replied "yes, you feel the weight of living mortally, although if you notice our world is the same as this one but different, in both aspects, you don't live like the citadel that is divided, and going back to high school here also makes me laugh, we know more than the teacher himself", to which he replied laughing "when we were in the academy they always called us to attention because we always talked in class, do you remember that time when we were punished for not paying attention in a class for a midterm exam", the teacher was so harsh, that she made us transcribe an entire book about the concept of the soul volume 5 the longest of all those books, we were so exhausted but we laughed anyway", "yes, I remember, your poor wrist was so bad that you got tendonitis since We used pens instead of any old pencil, Ji-Hoon, what can I do with these feelings? Because it hurts me so much to see Yuuki after she met Minho again, why does it hurt so much? Those words made Saem cry and Ji-Hoon knew perfectly well, the pain he felt, was the same one he felt, seeing his best friend suffering like that, and that night he hugged him and said "Saem, you are such a special person, who always cares about everyone, don't feel guilty, don't feel like it hurts so much, I know the mission wasn't what you expected, but that person needs you, and you can't back out, her smile this morning said it all and I could realize the positive effect you've made, keep that in mind Saem, you are the most important person in my life, since my mother passed away you were there supporting me, what friend would do something for someone they love so much?

Those words of Ji-Hoon fell so deep in Saem's heart, that night they both hugged each other and when they looked at each other they laughed at the way they cried "we look like elementary school brats don't you think Saem?" To which he answered in the same way "yes, worse than elementary school children", and they both continued contemplating that beautiful March night.

The next day Yuuki was anxiously waiting for him at the corner of his house since they lived very close, to which before leaving Jun told both of them "guys as Il-Seong said, be part of Yuuki's life, and Minho's, they depend on us and we depend on them, there is so much left for the November deadline as he had said, and our goal is Haruyama. Why is that place so special that triggered all this breaking of time? For my part, I will continue investigating with Wittawat, who is a despicable being, he is the version of me but worse, egocentric in everything, the wise among all, the best in the academy class, anyway, enjoy the day." To which they responded with a yes, while they were going down the streets Ji-Hoon saw Yuuki on a corner, and said to Saem, "apologize for your tantrum yesterday, he must be worried, did you say that he thought you had gotten sick? You are so cruel Saem, sometimes I doubt because I am your friend", as he approached the corner Yuuki was waiting for him with a bag of medicine and a strawberry milk, to which he timidly said "Good morning Myeon-Jin, ah good morning to you too Ye-Jun", to which Ji-Hoon replied "good morning Yuuki, well I'm going ahead I'll see you in the classroom, ah Myeon-Jin remember what I told you", to which he replied "thank you for reminding me Ye-Jun, eh Yuuki I want to apologize for yesterday, I'm really sorry, I apologize, I really wasn't feeling well yesterday, and I didn't want to make you worry over something so minor", hearing his apologies Yuuki smiled and touched his forehead "let's see, it seems that you don't have a fever, but it seems that you are pale, do you eat well?", to which he surprisingly replied "of course I eat well, as always ramyeon and every day, especially spicy food is what I like the most", to which a surprised Yuuki said "is that eating healthy? And you also eat that every day? You are damaging your body, I can't believe it, now I must take care of you, I have no choice but to go home with you after school and cook you something nutritious," to which again very surprised and with a smile he said "wait, you seem like my mother taking care of me in such a way, no, definitely no one will take my ramyeon away from me," and so they continued arguing all the way, both friends were growing even stronger, and the melancholy that he felt, that bond they had formed grew stronger every day, that bond that they tied united them in a way that neither of them noticed.

Meanwhile in the library, the situation was somewhat normal, several of the staff were perplexed that a hall with a reputation, the librarians' hall, returned to the building as such, they were so surprised by its content, several soul scrolls that were among the pile of things, books of soul sciences, which dated back more than 1000 years were found in that shelter eliminated by unknown forces, and which was now accessible, Il-Seong, accompanied by Young-Chil and Tae-Ho, went to the main hall where the diaries and boxes of the previous librarians were located, Tae-Ho was so astonished that he could not dimension how a force or something could hide something so precious, to which Il-Seong replied "this force wants to eliminate everything that several of those who are here fought to preserve, the souls of the people, In-Su told me that the spiral tree may be the culprit of the attacks, since going back 1100 years precisely, I saw with my own eyes that that tree did not exist, we must know, Who planted that tree, what does that tree do? And why do they want to threaten everything that exists", to which Tae-Ho looking at the old scrolls on the central table was discovering things, but he barely understood, like Wittawat, they could not understand anything that was in that room, to which a voice sounded among them "I see that you are all confused with so much information and without knowing what or what to do, so I could not stay calm in my eternal rest, and come to shake a hand and understand the reality of the situation", as he went down the stairs to the main room was In-Su, the founder of the library, to which Il-Seong was greatly surprised and said to him "Founder, how is it possible that you are here?" to which he replied without evasions "there is no time to lose, we must go to the so-called soul bank something is being plotted and it is very dangerous" upon hearing those words everyone fell silent, again the tranquility of the library and the spiral world was in danger again.