"I might drop out of school sooner or later."
Notifying my friends, silence covered the room we're in. It wasn't really surprising because I had already told them numerous times about this matter, but each time, they still give the same reaction.
"Can't you just stay?"
Keith, a close friend of mine, asked with a serious tone. Inside the classroom, he is one of the most hilarious people you could ever meet, but at times like this, he is the type to get emotional.
"Haha, It's my parents' decision."
It was true. Even if I wanted to continue, the situation I am in won't allow it. At some point, it made my parents come to make this decision. Which is to stop me from going to school.
"Are you going abroad?"
"Yeah, wouldn't that mean we won't be able to see each other again?"
The two of them came to me at once. Keith, who asked me with a serious face, and Tan, who was fixing her hair made eye contact with me.
"Eii, I'm sure we will see each other again."
That's right. Because I believed that with the way they are, they would come seeking me everywhere. They are that type of people after all, ones who cherished their friends.
But, I am not the same.
I may have cherished them, but not to the point of revealing the details of my life. Especially the bad side of this sh*tty life I am having.
At some point, I became an onion who have a lot of skins to peel.
"At least finish this year, it's a waste to stop midway!"
Can I even afford to go to school at this point? With barely enough money for transportation, I can't even buy something to eat for myself.
"I don't know about that."
I smiled, as if brushing everything off like it's nothing. How can I even bring myself to tell them that I won't go abroad, but will just stop because of the financial problem I am having?
I am too ashamed for lying, and too embarrassed to say the truth.
"Do you want to come down the cafeteria with us?"
I refused the invitation immediately. Though, aside from sensing that I was just gonna be uncomfortable from going with them, I also don't have the money to buy alongside them.
"It's fine. I don't want to eat yet since I ate a lot earlier haha!"
Refusing them with a false reason, I felt bitter. The sound of their laugh is even a previlige to me, who can't bring myself to laugh.
After they left, my stomach started grumbling. I barely ate earlier since there wasn't really a proper meal to eat.
While we had a rice, there's no dish to eat. It was a plain, hard meat, cut into pieces to make it a lot.
My sister need to go to her school, so of course, she would take a lunch box. But, since I am much more refine when it comes to comparing our bodies, I did not mind preparing a lunch box for myself.
I stared at the window for a while, awaiting the end of the break. But even that mere fifteen minutes felt like one whole year to me.
Ah, what an incredible life I have.