I enter into our shared bedroom and sit on the bed waiting for Magnus,he usually comes home early but for some reason he's late,I hesitate on lying on the bed incase he comes home suddenly,I sigh and continue sitting,hands on my lap and my head hanging low
Seconds turn into minutes and I'm already getting tired of my position,I raise my head and stare blankly at the painting opposite me,it's a painting of me in the cellar,I look at my bald hair and then my pale face, I recall clearly that that was the moment I decided I wouldn't develop this shitty thing called Stockholm syndrome, but now my brain is so messed up,I don't even know the difference anymore,some days I get snippets of who I was before,a strong headed journalist fighting hard to uncover the deeds of this monsters, and some days,I see myself as who I am now,a married pet to the chapter Lord,I Love him I guess
No no no no no no no no no no no no no
I Love him alot,I slap myself really hard
I love him,I love him,I love him,I love him,I love Magnus alot,I chant and fall on my knees and cry
I really love him,I scream out
I wipe my tears off and stand up,I walk to the dressing table and sit down,I look at my reflection in the mirror and smile, you're no longer in the basement lilliana, you're happy now okay, I wipe my tear streaked face with a wipe and place a smile on my face,I take up the makeup kit and began apply some makeup on my face, you're so beautiful,I tell myself,I finish doing my makeup and stand,I walk back to the bed and sit down placing my hands on my lap and hanging my head low , Magnus will love me now,I won't go back to the basement,he said he loves me,I won't go back to the basement,I won't go,I won't go,I won't go