Hi , my name is Anna... actually it's Annabel, Anna for short but who cares.
Well I was the girl who lived a normal life in LA with my family,had four brothers and a sister and my parents who really weren't around all the time but isn't that great,I always thought my life wasn't that great .
My daily life was,wake up,go to school, get bullied,I cry they laugh, come back, don't tell anyone, do assignments and read, sleep then that's that.
I had a mental issue I won't lie ... but some of you may think it's very serious but it's not really I just diagnosed myself because everywhere I go to,I must always find the cutest boy in that place..or men just saying. That's literally what I did when I first arrived at my new school.... high school, first year, but I had a serious crush on a boy,James,who was way older than me since middle school but on the rest,it was just a mild crush.
You may think that when I finally made it to high school I will finally have friends to talk to,I will be more interactive,I will not be bullied for just being smart and always wearing shabby clothes...
NOT!
It only got worse, well I was still the topper in class, not to brag but I was frustrated about everything but I just let it slide because I can't let some idiots who don't know their place destroy my dreams of becoming a medical doctor but do you know the other thing that kept me going....my crush.
Well you may think that I was a good little innocent girl, but that's not it, I'm proud on the inside but kind and sweet on the inside, I'm dirty minded but don't show it but I care for others too much,I always think of what people will say of me,I easily get discouraged If I see other girls with the guy I like but I am very beautiful,I easily agree to what people want me to do for them,I smile too much, I can't maintain my cool, and the worst part is I don't know my self and don't know what I want.
Well things actually got better,a little. I finally made it to senior year,made a friend,her name's Sophie. The thing about me is when I get attached,I don't want to stop talking, I'm always free with you and Sophie was just like that.
I always did my hair in a bun,wear shabby clothes, and got a glasses that nobody likes because I wanted to look less attractive but when Sophie saw me the time she visited me at home, she was like..."WOW, are you the Annabel I know", she calls me by my full name and that's I like.
Well hardwork really pays,all my years of studying actually paid off,I got to go to the most prestigious school in England,I haven't really traveled before so I happy,I finally get to leave this house but do you know what I liked the most about going to England....more cute boys, yay! I have always loved their accent and the British boys or men in some films I watched were super cute but I felt sad because I was leaving my crush behind.
So before the week I left for England, people were giving me gifts and saying things like"we will miss you","I hope you have safe travels","be a good girl" as if,I know they don't like me.
I went out to get something for my mom wheni saw my crush,he was with his friends then he waved at me and I decided to ignore him because I was at the other side of the road and I was insecure,then he called out to me"Annabel wait" so I increased my pase then i just decided to turn around and stop being stupid "BANG!" I turned and saw someone fly to the other end of the road,it was James and I didn't know what to do, should I cry or run to see how serious or call for help, but I just froze there, blaming myself for what just happened then everywhere was just turning dark and I could only see James lifeless body on the ground and I couldn't do anything to stop anything, I suddenly felt tears just falling down from my eyes and I couldn't move, some doctor -to -be I am who couldn't do anything maybe he would have been alive if you just answered him and stopped being stupid for once, "useless, you can never amount to anything, you fool,keep on dreaming", the words they used to bully me just came flying into my head "why do you have to be so stupid. You fool.