Staring at me, Sasai-san asks what I really mean. I guess she wants to make sure I'm lying or if I'm being honest.
I know that while women's libido is getting stronger, men's is getting weaker, and that men tend to dislike sexual activity. Still, I thought it didn't matter to me, since I'm not supposed to be popular with girls. My libido hasn't changed much, and the amount of semen I ejaculate when I masturbate has actually increased.
It's true that women's libido is increasing. Otherwise, it would be impossible for a beautiful girl like Sasai-san to talk about her libido with a guy like me.
"Um, well..."
My face was getting hot, but I tried to find the right words. If I said something strange, I'd make her cry again, and I was really scared of that.
"I, well... I think that everyone has sexual desire, and I think that we're free to do what we want with it... and besides, I don't think it's wrong for me... I don't think that Sasai-san's desire is gross..."
Even I know what I'm saying is gross. I'm talking to Sasai-san about masturbation and stuff like that. It should be obvious that it's sexual harassment.
However, Sasai-san looked surprised by my comment, but didn't get angry. Then, as if probing, she asked me.
"S-Sato-kun? When it comes to me, does that mean that you're talking about Sato-kun's masturbation...?"
I didn't expect her to point that out. But it's true that what I said meant was "I don't care about my masturbation, but yours is fine."
It was disgusting and gross. For Sasai-san, the information that I masturbate is just dirty information that takes up space in her brain. I'd made another mistake. I expected to be shocked, scolded, or whatever.
"Sato-kun, um... are you, uh... masturbating...?"
But she said none of those things, and I couldn't understand why she asked me that. Could she possibly be interested in my masturbation habits? While wondering about this, I couldn't stop the blood from rushing to my crotch. Contrary to my feelings that I shouldn't get hard, my dick gradually got harder inside my trousers, and eventually it reached its maximum erection.
And it was so hard that I could tell even when I was sitting down and through my trousers.
"...Ah."
Her gaze was clearly directed at my lower abdomen. Yes, she had brilliantly discovered that I was erect.
With Yukari, the conversation had taken an erotic turn, but I didn't know what would happen now. In fact, after Sasai said, "S-Sato-kun, um, well..." her mouth was opening and closing again.
I had no idea what to do. At that moment, Sasai-san asked me slowly, watching my expression.
"I wonder if this is because I'm excited...?"
I didn't have the courage to answer her question. In fact, my brain was running with ideas of what Sasai-san's masturbation would be like.
That's what was causing my current erection. I was prepared to be punched, so the unexpected questions kept coming at me.
"I, but... I wonder if it's me, or maybe not..."
The face she asked me with a worried look on her face was a mixture of anxiety and shame. If I lied here, would I be able to escape? However, after finding the pink vibrator and then talking about masturbation, and then finding an erection, it's not a very good lie to say 'it's nothing to do with you.'
Of course, there's a high chance that she'll look disgusted if I tell her the truth. But hiding something from her would be like betraying her, who had been so proactive in talking to me.
Whatever happens, happens, I decide to throw away my short-circuited thought process and surrender to my intuition. This was the end for me, someone who can't communicate.
"... Yes, well, Sasai-san... I started talking about masturbation, and then I started imagining it... and then it turned out like this..."
I bow my head and apologize. Of course, I can't complain if I get scolded for this. It was all my own selfish behavior that caused this in the first place.
Even if Sasai-san says she wants to cut ties with me, I have no choice but to accept it. However, the situation took a completely different turn than I expected.
"... If you say something like that, then even I... I... I..."
Sasai-san was still looking down as she muttered this, but the next moment, she raised her head, opened her eyes, stood up and came to me.
Then she grabbed my hand and forced me to stand up. I was supposed to be bigger than her, but I wasn't very good at sports and she was very active, so she had more strength.
She pulled my arm and brought me to the bed in the corner of the room, then laid me down on the bed. It wasn't painful, just a little strong.
"Sato-kun, if you say that, then I'll have to... I'll have to...!"
She muttered in a low voice to me as I lay on my back, and then she got on the bed and tried to climb on top of me. While I was still trying to think what was going on, Sasai ended up straddling me.
Her body was around my thighs, and her bare legs, exposed from under her skirt, were pressed against my slacks. Sasai's eyes were a little bloodshot as she looked down at me.I think her gaze was on my face at first, but then I felt it shift to my upper body.
"I'm sorry, but I..."
As I could hear her heavy breathing, I tried to sort out the situation. Could it be that I was being attacked? And from the flow of the conversation, it was a sexual assault. Maybe I said something careless and made Sasai's sexual desire run wild.
If that's the case, I feel like I have no choice but to let myself go. If Sasai calms down halfway through, she'll probably think 'I don't want to be with a guy like this,' and if she doesn't, she can just use me freely to release her sexual desire.
Her breathing hastened as her eyes turned starry. Whatever I said now, I had the feeling that it just wouldn't get through.
(T/N: Alright, I don't want to keep pestering you guys during these chapters, so this is probably the last time I ask this week, but once again, if we can reach 30 powerstones I will post an extra chapter for everyone. Thank you for everyone who has supported so far.)