Am I dead ?
that's the first question anyone pose when everything around you is veiled in darkness, when you can't even sense anything. It's as if you're drifting through vastness of space, through the lonely void of nothingness. Is that it? Is that all my existence amount to , is my existence truly insignificant throughout the grand scheme of things. Is everything truly worthless.
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I heard a unrecognizable sound , I could hear it but couldn't sense where it's coming from.
' huh ? '
WAKE UP
' What? '
"' I said wake up son "'
" WHAT!!? "
"' What are you even shouting FOR!! "'
"' get up and get ready you're going to highschool and hurry up we're going to have pancakes for breakfast "'
The first thing I saw when I woke up was my mother, who I beloved, her long deep black eyes and hair, her white sandy face and her blue with green blouse she's wearing with a pink apron on top of it.
"Mom ? "
"' what're you crying for ? "'
" Nothing I just had a nightmare "
' yes a terrible nightmare '
*sigh*
Mom sigh as if the son she raised is still acting spoiled, while she's feeling disappointed a little she also felt relief as her son is still a child of her's
"' alright come here give me a hug '"
" no , that's embarrassing I'm already in highschool"
"' Come on mom is here , no child of me is too old for a hug "'
*hugs*
They both embrace a hug tightly as if they haven't seen each other for decades. Watching such a motherly embrace could bring a grown man to tears whether they wish to meet their mother or whether they wish for a mother like that.
"' alright be ready fast okay we aren't going to have breakfast without you '''
" alright "
I headed straight towards the bathroom to clean myself like normally a person would do , brushes their teeth and washing the face.
*splash*
" Why did I cry and what was I dreaming about, I don't remember "
I muttered while looking at the mirror washing my face, I could see my face , a face of a teenager in highschool, the face of an innocent teenager waiting for what beholds him , for what fate has to bring him.
"' come on brother hurry, the pancakes are getting cold "'
My little sister shouts with her antics without enough patience to wait , having remembered that is her usual personality. A young girl with the same appearance as her mother. People often mistake that both of them were siblings well given my mother's personality she would just laugh it off as a compliment.
" alright , alright I'm coming "
*sits*
I sit down on the chair where I face my parents on the front and my little sister on the left as they all have waited for me.
"' alright let's not forget to thank God for the food "'
A handsome grown man in mid 30s wearing a classic black business suit as what you have expect, having a golden mustache as dignified as a gentlemen and a golden beard as rough as a brush , his golden hair as fluffy as a golden retriever and his golden eyes embedded in its sockets. Yes that's my father.
" alright dad "
*Bites*
I bite into the fluffy pancakes that was drizzled with maple syrup and to top with salted butter. Both of the combination complete each other as the butter gives it a salty and fatty taste while the syrup gives its a sweet taste. It's heavenly
"It's so delicious!! "
I shouted as I have always had a sweet tooth
"' hey come on now eat slowly, you got to cherish your food "'
My father advice me as I ate the pancakes voraciously
"' come on honey he just had a nightmare and cried "'
Mother replied to father with such remark but remembering how I cried again as it is , was quite embarrassing to say the least.
"' is that so , ahem , sometimes a man crying doesn't necessarily mean he's weak , it's just that he's been strong the whole time so sometimes you just have to let it all out okay "'
As usual a father gave a fatherly advice about life although this time I seemed to have miss his advice dearly
"' did you just cry brother "'
My sister makes a slight remark in an attempt to annoy his brother
" NO!! , okay maybe just a little bit "
"'HAHAHA , come on brother you're in highschool now "'
"' hey hey , don't tease your brother, you know what even I cried sometimes "'
my father tried to lighten up the situation with his jokes, well given his personality he's probably just being honest.
"' yeah , your dad likes to cry while embracing me "'
Mother replied as she knows what goes on in bed , even I don't know what ritual goes inside there.
"' hey come on now honey that's embarrassing "'
" Haha ha "
I laughed awkwardly as the situation unfolds upon me
*finished eating*
After everyone finished eating we each cleaned our own plates and head towards the car ready for takeoff
"' alright is everyone ready "'
"' we're ready dad "'
" Yep , let's go "
"' okay here we go "'
*engine starts*
*vroom*
"' daaad can we open the radio , I want to hear the new top songs"'
"' alrighty sweety "'
*Bzzz*
♪ If the world has ended I♪
While listening to the radio a lot of time have passed as we each succumb to the calm ride. As we pass a small lane I watched the window besides me looking on everything that have passed by imagining as if a stickman was chasing us , racing to see who is the fastest, a topic that could bring many people to watch it as they race , man vs machine, well but that's all in my imagination. Out of the blue I saw a glimpse of truck heading towards us as it was heading the right direction first but suddenly.
"Wait dad is there usually a truck driving against the lane "
"' what do you mean if that's usual , of course it's not "'
While talking to me he faced backwards like usual but unbeknownst to him a tragedy is about to happen.
"'HONEY LOOK INFRONT!!!"'
"' OOH S**T "'
With my father's quick reaction he succeed in streeing and avoiding the truck but unfortunately...
*VRRRROOOOOOOM*
*BEEEEEP*
*steer to the left*
we crashed onto the roadside
*crash*
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*Beeep*
"' Fire "'
*shock*
*Teeet teeet teeet teeet*
"' doctor the heart rate have return to normal "'
"' good job everyone we saved the patient, nurse I want a report when he wakes up "'
"' alright doctor "'
*wakes up*
I felt like I was slowly sober , hearing everything around me yet not understand what they said.
' doctor? heart rate? '
" Where am I "
"'doctor the patient suddenly woke up "'
"' quickly prepare for post-surgery "'
"' alright doctor "'
" Wait, wait where's my family, where's everyone, that's right there was a crash "
"' unfortunately..."'
The nurse wanted to say something, maybe something important but was quickly interrupted by the doctor
"' fortunately your family are safe although they are currently unconscious there's still a possibility of them waking up"'
" I'm glad, thank you doctor "
"' alright we'll be back after you have stabilized yourself "'
" Alright "
Both of them get out as they went to discuss something behind the door
*Gets out*
"' doctor, we should tell the patient the truth , that we couldn't save his family "'
"' look the last thing I want is calling the psychiatric department alright, besides the kid has a lot on his plate right now so give him time to digest the current situation first "'
"' alright doctor "'
"' now ask him some few questions and give me the report before tomorrow, I don't want to miss anything, we may need to report to the police department about this since it involved an accident "'
"' alright "'
The nurse returns as she brought some paperwork attach to a clipboard
'" hello sir ,do you mind if I ask some questions?
" Yes I don't mind"
"' alright, do you have any other relatives? "'
" No , we're the only ones, they are my only family "
"' do you remember what happened?"'
" Yes, we had an accident, a reckless truck driver crash into us , although we managed to avoid it but unfortunately we still crashed onto the roadside"
"' I'm very sorry to hear about that, then let me ask you some other questions "'
" Okay "
After some couple of questions she asked related to the accident and my health an hour had passed by without me noticing.
"' Alright we'll end it here with just that "'
" Excuse me nurse , can I see my family"
"' unfortunately sir we can't do that as they are in a critical... "'
" Please, you said they're safe right? So I just wanted to see them"
"' as I said again"'
" They're dead aren't they ? "
"' what ? "'
" I know they're dead "
"' no sir they're just"'
" DON'T YOU LIE TO ME !! "
I shouted loudly as if trying to deny my own questions
"' unfortunately sir you're not in the right mind currently"'
" TELL ME THE TRUTH !! did you think I didn't saw you getting interrupted by the doctor , did you think I didn't saw you talking with him outside about me"
"' I'm very sorry sir but "'
" Please, I just want to know if they're alive or not "
After all there's a chance that they're safe and hopefully I'm just being paranoid
"' ..."'
After the nurse contemplating whether to answer and tell the truth she opened her mouth
"' unfortunately they all passed away , you're the only one alive , alone "'
" .."
It took some time for me to digest the information , process it , whether I wanted to hold these feelings as mix and swirl reaction begins to occur inside my chest or whether I would let it all out as all of sudden a drop of tear begin to drip from my eye running down through my cheek
*tear drop*
" ARRRRGH !! "
I shouted on top of my lungs to mourn my sadness to at least ease whatever pent up emotions I have, but nothing, no matter how long I cried or how loudly I shouted...why.
" Why won't these pain in my heart go away, WHY !!! , why am I still alive "
[ 10 years later ]
It's been 10 years later since that incident , although time have passed slowly it still felt like yesterday, I could remember it vividly, the sadness, the hatred, but I continued to move on, to face this feelings, since that's what my family probably would have wanted, they want me to be successful and continue to live on so I decided to continue my mother's florist profession , selling and breeding flowers. Although it's not much, it's honest work and thankfully the neighborhood are pretty polite , they help me a lot even when I was a kid in highschool. Fortunately I finished my highschool and ended up working here.
*Ting*
A men wearing a business suit walks in , with his expression as confident and gleaming with ego as it gets , a man of high position. A man in black from his attire to his appearance. He watched the whole shop as if he's looking for something.
' oh a customer '
" Hello welcome sir "
"' hello young man , how are you ? "'
" Oh I'm feeling pretty good"
"' well that's good, hopefully it will make things easier , by the way is that a camera on the corner right there ?"'
" Yeah , it's better to be prepared right and what do you meant by easier? "
"'actually I'm here to buy this property as there's a development project on the way so best I could offer is this "'
He handed me a paper contract full of details but what makes me frown was the price they're offering to buy
" This is a low-ball offer , with the current housing price on the rise it should be higher plus with the development project it shouldn't be this low right? "
"' haha so do you think you're being smart , unfortunately this is the best price we could offer for your decline shop , without us buying it you could go bankrupt , moreover it would regrettable if something were to happen to you and this shop "'
" Is that a threat?"
"' haha no ,no , I'm just here for you to think carefully , please consider it "'
"Then you can go out sir , come back when you have a higher offer "
' Despite the fact that I'm interested in selling this property since I could just open a new shop somewhere else I won't accept such a low offer especially when they're planning a project.
"' haha you're going to regret this"'
He uttered as he walks out
"yeah I'll do it when I want"
'what a low ass villain dialogue '
Suddenly multiple thugs barge in with baseball bats, looking at them I could only think of trouble they invite.
' they're going to trash this place just because I wanted a higher offer, fu##ing thugs '
I quickly call the police and report the current situation about the thugs trashing my place but the police seems uninterested.
*ring*
"Hello police there's multiple thugs appearing in my shop near street 1 district 11 city bush"
("' ah yes yes we'll be right there "')
Thankfully I had install a camera on the corner of the ceiling in case something happens.
"' OII, YOU BETTER PREPARE YOURSELF!! "'
the first thing the thugs did when they appeared was shouting about something while smashing my camera and fire alarm without any hesitation meanwhile all the other guy continue to smash all my flowers and vases.
*crashes*
I tried to record what happened with my smartphone secretly but one of the thug walk towards my direction to deal with me. He then proceed to hit my arm that was holding the smartphone.
*thud*
"' you better not do any funny ideas '"
' OUCH okay , I get it '
After all the destruction they cause the business man enter immediately as if he was their boss.
"' so are you interested in my offer?"'
" What the hell, the police is going to be here soon so you better prepared for the law "
"' well unfortunately the law is on my side "'
" What do you mean? "
All of the sudden a police car arrive with the sirens off and a policeman walks in my shop with a cigarette on his mouth.
"'Woah this place is a dumpster , probably some animals wreck it am I right"'
" Police officer, this guy and his thugs decided to thrash this place just because.."
"' didn't you heard me young man , I said it's probably an animal "'
" What? "
"' you better comply with them kiddo , don't do anything stupid "'
He then walks out as if nothing ever happened
*walks out*
"' didn't I already said that the law is on my side, now how about we talk about the offer again"'
The business man talked back with his voice filled with amusement
" The answer is no , do you think I'm some weak willed guy , come back when you have a better offer "
' f##k this s##t , I better hire a lawyer tomorrow or something '
"' ~sigh , why are you even alive "'
" What kind of stupid question is that, I'm alive because I'm living, the goal of the living is to stay alive, if it was dying then I would have been dead a long time ago "
"' haha , a good philosophy , unfortunately I wasn't talking to you, well anyway rest well tonight "'
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I'm contemplating about what he said whether it's a threat or just something to scare me.
After the guy left i decided to patch things up , cleaning the broken glasses and flowers, also putting a board on the broken glass door. Albeit it's hideous, it will do for now.
With today current technology I could post this situation on the internet, perhaps someone might even help me.
< A guy offered me some money to buy my house but then decided to trash it with his lackeys when I didn't want his offer even when I called the police they didn't do anything>
*picture*
#justice #injustice #corrupt police
' and post , ..., what ?
Unfortunately the post didn't went through because it was deemed sensitive which is stupid.
' the only thing that is sensitive is me , ~sigh what a life , I better sleep tonight, there's a lot of things I need to do tomorrow , I should hire a lawyer and sue those guys and maybe try posting again'
With that I end my horrible day
*Zzzzzz*
*coughs*
" What the ? "
Suddenly all my surroundings are on fire and a thick smoke obstructing my vision and my breathing
*coughs*
' this isn't good at all , I better find the way out, argh but I can't see anything with this thick smoke '
I tried crawling my way out but slowly and sooner I started losing consciousness
' no , wake up , stop '
' wake up '
' wake .....'
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