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Chapter 10 - Afterword On Reflection of My Past

As a care worker you need to be a good listener, less 

judgemental and above all, be patient. This case had 

gone on for years, which had finally taken its toll on me. 

My mental state was in a turmoil. I had no money, I was 

drinking tea for most of the time, and I had started to 

smoke. I stooped so low that I used to go outside and 

beg for money to buy cigarettes. The case had gone on 

for so long and the decision from the court was ongoing. 

The panel must not use the findings of another body 

as a substitute for reaching its own decision on the issues 

before it. The judgment or findings of another decisionmaker on the issues before the panel are not relevant to 

the panel's decision-making. It may also be unfair for 

the judgments to significantly influence the tribunal's 

mind on the crucial issues before it for the same reasons.

On reflection, I wonder how many Christmases or 

birthdays that I missed with my family or loved ones, 

trying to entertain people who didn't even have the 

courtesy to say, 'thank you'. The entire court experience 

was very traumatic, and nothing came of it. I felt 

intimidated by the police and the court. I had been brave 

enough to walk alone, to find peace and justice, but I had 

failed.

It pains me to give up my career as registered mental 

health nurse. I worked very hard to get my pin number; 

I endured many sleepless nights, reading and doing my 

essays for my portfolio, and raising my children. But I 

held on.

But despite everything I have gone through, there 

are times when I wonder if I could return to being a 

nurse in the future. Overall, I believe that I am a much 

stronger person now, and therefore have returned to doing jobs that I like and I am hopeful that I will 

continue working with people that see the best in me.

"In future I want to see the world in a grain of sand. 

And a Heaven in a wildflower. 

Hold infinity in the palm of your hand

And eternity in an hour…" – Auguries of Innocence

by William Blakes 

I wanted to let people know of my experiences 

working for the NHS—the suspension, the pain I 

endured and that feeling of being helpless, and an 

overall lack of support. 

I trained to become a mental health nurse at the 

University of Wolverhampton. I have learned so much 

and I have never given up. I have learned to take the 

positive out of the negative and applied that to my life, 

which is what drove me to write this story. 

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On writing this I would like to thank my daughter for 

her support and for just being there for me.

Thank you, Gwyneth!

Where is the justice?