This morning… No i should say this dawn i slept at 4:40 AM. My lord how can i be so ruthless to my own self. In the end i came late to class. Everyone was quite fine with me being late since i never came late. The school works, homeworks and more was draining every inch of my life. How can i stop obey this ruthless society.

I came home and my sister was angry with me for not washing the dishes. I only live with my sister and her husband. That means the dushes was only three spoon and three bowls. Cold freezing sights.

I'm unknown to myself. How hard i try I can't pinpoint my appearance in the mirror or on the phone. I act like i look good and self confident but when you can't see yourself you can't judge yourself as well. Just black void of air floating on my neck. That's what u see most of the time.