Y/n's POV
Everything seems too good to be true most of the time. The pain I feel has a way of hurting every part of me so much that my whole body is sore like I am being drained of my strength from the inside out. I know Kakucho isn't one who would mean to hurt me, but there's a little shred of truth in first reactions and lies.
It hurts….it hurts so much….
"Mahal..I'm sorry I'm not there so I can hug you…"
I sat on my bed staring at the wall, feeling a sudden wave of pain in my heart as the face of Izana flashed through my mind like a razor blade.
Everything hurts and it never ends….But it's what I deserve….
I jumped in shock when I felt a sudden presence right next to me, knowing I had locked the door. I turned to look right into the face of a very tired looking Kakucho.
I hadn't even realized it but it's dark now…he waited here all this time?
"You are not at fault for Izana. You're not a slut. To hear you destroy yourself like that….I didn't know how to voice what I wanted to say. It felt like you were spitting on your own character and Izana's grave." I felt him lightly grip my chin to make me look him in the eye. "I hate that even you believe these lies. I know Izana would've, too."
Eyes swollen and tired, all I could do was blink at him drowsily.
He looks like he's telling me the truth, but what if he wasn't? He means the best, I know…but….
If I open up to him, he'll see what Mikey saw too and leave…
"Stop thinking I could be lying. It may have been years, but I would never lie to you. You're heart is broken, I know it is and for that, I'm sorry. So, tell me. Share your pain with me. I'm not such a weak man that I wouldn't be able to handle it. Cry on me until you don't have to anymore. Don't sit in the dark alone. Let me sit with you until the sun rises."
He moved his hand to cup my cheek softly. "Let me…love you."
His words acted as a balm to my heart, soothing the pain so much that I finally was able to do what I thought I couldn't do again.
I smiled.
I can't say it anymore….but I want to…
White Tiger POV
Does regret even cover how I feel? I died and lost everything. I can't help her. I can't hold her and apologize.
He looked over toward the ones he looked up to, Shinichiro especially.
"You were right. Blood relations didn't matter to everyone. I was no one with no family and yet…"
He thought back on the white tiger plushie Y/n had, displayed proudly in the kitchen. He knew over the years she would move the plushies with her, many nights crying herself to sleep while holding them.
I would do anything to take back the time I lost being vengeful.
"I was no one and she loves me anyway."
I would do anything for another chance. So I could wipe away her tears instead of being the cause of them.