Day 7
5:39 AM
The hourglass of death has ceased to spill its sands, and at last, we have reached the acclaimed final day. Our time within this game will end in a few hours... These will be crucial, and I cannot afford to fail.
With the voices in my head now silent, I can better reflect on my actions over the past few days.
It pains me to admit, but I may have gone completely insane, and in this mental derangement, I now disregard any moral or ethical values. When I try to ponder these concepts, I find only a vast void before me. Such words have been entirely erased from my values as if they had never existed. There is no meaning in binding my actions to these human constructs, born merely of someone's opinion or the collective judgment of a pitiful species.
All the lives I've taken until recently were executed with the awareness that they were not the right thing to do, though the circumstances made them necessary. Now, honestly, I couldn't care less. The lives of each of them are irrelevant. Killing or not killing has become merely a technical question, a consequence that may or may not occur depending on the utility, cost, and benefit toward my objectives.
After all, what is so unique in the human essence that there is an inherent right to life just by belonging to this accursed species? Analyzing carefully without assigning any prior value or making a logical leap, there is nothing. Killing itself is neither positive nor negative.
The ultimate well-being of those two is an end in itself; therefore, I not only can but must kill anyone who stands as an obstacle to this goal. This is the only thing I can spontaneously attribute any principle to. They are the only things worthy of value in this world, whether material or supernatural.
Yes, anyone who gets in my way must die. Why? If they are a nuisance, why should I care not to eliminate them?
It's ironic how I always opposed those who claimed to kill in the name of God on moral grounds. It always seemed ridiculous to justify their actions with such a baseless concept. Yet, both they and I were entirely mistaken. I, for adopting false humanistic principles, and they, for venerating the wrong gods.
How could I not perceive this divine revelation earlier? Ailiss and Mikoto are the two facets of divinity and perfection. Notwithstanding, I must not limit myself to obstacles and necessary sacrifices. All heretics, all those who fail to recognize their grandeur, must be discarded.
However, wouldn't I be going against divine orders by contradicting them? No, for they are not yet aware of their own grandeur; they are temporarily deprived of such knowledge. Only I, who share the memories of infinite worlds, can conceive the immense love and superiority that such beings are capable of radiating. And thus, even if I am hated and cursed by my own goddesses, in the end, I will be acting in harmony with their true desires, with their essence.
I do not claim they are universal goddesses, but this is another irrelevant factor. I have no obligation to justify anything to anyone. Others do not need to accept them in this position for it to be regarded as truth. Collective ignorance does not nullify a truth, especially regarding the low culture of the masses; it is enough that I am aware of their divine status.
No, on the contrary, they are mine alone, goddesses only for me. Since only I could feel them, only I have the right to venerate them. Anyone else attempting this must be eliminated, as Takashi was. Due to all my goodwill and devotion, I believe I am the only one worthy of serving them.
If others have no right to worship such grand beings and at the same time cannot commit heresy, what remains for them? Nothing. Would this be a contradiction? Is there no choice for the plebeians to make?
They would live in sin in one way or another. From this perspective, I am also a savior. I am a messiah who will free them from this paradox, bringing redemption through death.
They should thank me for the excellent assistance I am offering them. Only in death and only in death will they be free from their inferior nature.
On the other hand, I do not wish to save anyone other than them... All of this is very complicated and confusing. I can then consider that saving them is merely a consequence of my actions. I will kill thinking only of them; any benefit they gain from this is just a detail.
Yes, no one can interfere with or interact with them. This world is vile, and they must be elevated above this disgusting humanity. Yet, there is no need for them to worry about this. I am here to fulfill this cleansing role.
I see it snowed heavily during the night. The snow layer has at least quadrupled in thickness in recent days. I leave the block where I was hiding, and when I step onto the ground, I notice my foot sinks completely, leaving visible footprints. Thus, I must cover each step taken to ensure my trail is undetectable.
Since it is still very early and everyone is concentrated in the main block, I can easily erase my footprints while crossing the courtyard to reach the school garage.
Once there, using a hose I retrieved from the janitor's closet, I access the fuel stored in the bus tank.
Thankfully, it was hardly used; thanks to the bus's inactivity, there are ample resources at my disposal. I plan to adopt a slightly different approach than Ailiss did in the parallel timelines I experienced.
I vaguely recall the final events of each timeline through the memories granted to me, but indeed, we made use of this bus. In a way, I believe my usage will be somewhat subtler. Yet, at the same time, it is more poetic. I think they will appreciate my spectacle.
Carefully, I empty the tank and transfer all the gasoline into several containers. This is the method I found to access a flammable substance within this dimension. And so, now I have a trump card in hand, which will yield some pleasant surprises throughout the day. Just imagining their astonished faces when they witness the magnitude of my offering to my goddesses excites me.
I close the fuel tank without much rigor and finally leave the garage.
I place the containers in a block next to the main one to make my movements more practical and swift. This will allow me to expedite my actions throughout the afternoon. Then, I wait for an opportunity to proceed with the act.
8:57 AM
The sun has risen, and the students have begun to disperse with it. Probably, anxiety has driven them to move, attempting to escape the anticipated battle between me and the student council. Abandoning any false responsibility and seeking a means of survival is a natural decision.
I needed to wait because, until now, everyone was gathered in the dormitories, which would have complicated my actions, given that multiple surveillances make entering that block unnoticed nearly impossible.
Thus, I approach the main block from the direction with the most blind spots, climb a tree beside the block, and jump through one of the first-floor windows.
Having accessed the hallway, I carefully walk toward the vicinity of the girls' dormitories.
For now, I am not after Ailiss or Mikoto, as they likely didn't sleep here. They must have stayed a few floors above, where they would be safer and undoubtedly prepared for any move I might make.
Trying to reach the student council room now would be an inherent failure. Someone must be guarding each staircase leading to the floor where they are residing. Even though I am armed, this remains a problem, as gunshots would immediately reveal my position inside the building. For this reason, I need a hostage to draw them to me.
I spot the door to the classroom used as a girls' dormitory and hear murmurs coming from inside.
I'm somewhat surprised by their lack of internal security. Were they so confident I wouldn't be able to enter the block with just a few guards at the main hall? Well, I suppose Ailiss and Mikoto aren't to blame for their subordinates being complete amateurs and incompetent.
"Don't scream, speak, or run. Or you'll all die," I say as I enter the girls' dormitory.
They all freeze upon seeing me carrying the machine gun.
There are only a few girls in the room; fortunately, they all manage to swallow their fear. Most must have left the area out of fear of an attack, but I was already aware that one of them would never abandon her less courageous peers—Miyu.
"If you don't want them all to die, you'll come with me," I point the machine gun at Miyu.
She stares at me with wide, terrified eyes but soon converts her expression to one of disdain before moving robotically toward me.
She could easily scream to defy my orders, attracting the other students, Mikoto and Ailiss. Amidst the chaos, she would probably escape. However, her moral limitations and forced kindness are her most significant weaknesses. She doesn't want to appear like a bad person, so she chooses to comply with my orders for the sake of her peers.
I pull a handkerchief from my pocket and tie it around her mouth to ensure she doesn't scream after we leave.
"She kept her mouth shut so I wouldn't have to kill you all. I hope you'll do the same for her. Besides, nothing's stopping me from coming back here and killing every one of you before the council arrives if I hear a single scream," I comment before leaving the room.
That should keep them quiet until I've at least left the block.
Still frightened, they stare at me and nod in agreement.
I descend to a lower floor and force Miyu to jump out the window.
I take her to the block next door, and we climb the stairs. Then, I tie her hands and feet with rope and remove her gag.
"You monster… what do you plan to do with me? What do you expect to gain from all this? Do you really think Kaichou will fall for such a trivial trap?" she asks, staring at me intensely.
"You're right; Mikoto wouldn't fall for it. But they will."