FALLING FOR MY LECTURER

"Josh i can't do this anymore". i had to make it clear today, i had to let him know how unfair this was to me. "Sommie don't, not today". He knew what i had in mind and wanted to stop me but i won't, not today. "Josh you have to stop punishing yourself and i. Can't you see this thing is hurting me?, you want this as much as i do so why not just go ahead". I walked up to him "Josh, look at me". "Sommie you know i can't do this" . He's voice was shaking at this point and he was looking at me with pleading eyes. It was hurting me seeing him like this, but it will hurt the most if this wasn't sorted out today. I took another step forward, closing the gap between us."look into my eyes and tell me you can't". I held my breath as he finally looked into my eyes. He opened his mouth as if to say something but no words were heard. His stare was boring deep into my soul. We just kept on staring at each other without saying a word. I could see through every emotion in his eyes, the hurt, the guilt, the pain, and it was so overwhelming. No one wanted to break the silence every thing seemed so still and everybody was caught up in their own world. The space between us just kept on decreasing as time passed. "Josh i......" i opened my mouth to break the silence but his lips claimed mine.He The world stood still and the gates of hell was unlocked.