The days in Rukongai blurred together. Each one was a grueling test of Shiro's resolve. Training with Katsu had become his lifeline, a constant in the chaos that surrounded him. Though the old man's methods were harsh, Shiro had come to trust his words, even if they were often cryptic or blunt.
"Strength isn't just about muscle or ability," Katsu would often say, his voice gravelly. "It's about your will. The fire that keeps you from giving up when things get tough. When you're on the edge, about to break—it's that fire that keeps you alive."
At times, the words felt like a burden, the weight of his expectations pressing down on Shiro. He wasn't ready for this. He wasn't ready for anything. His hands still shook from the exhaustion of each training session, his body was sore, and he felt the sting of failure every time he couldn't keep up. But through all of that, there was a quiet part of him—a part that refused to give in.
One night, as the city fell into a restless sleep, Shiro sat alone atop a rooftop, his legs dangling over the edge. The stars above were obscured by the constant haze of Rukongai's pollution, but the city itself buzzed with life. A never-ending tide of souls, all struggling to carve out their place in the world. The lights flickered, casting long shadows on the narrow streets below.
Shiro could hear the distant echoes of the city's heartbeat—the clatter of distant fights, the low hum of whispered deals, and the ever-present sound of survival. He had heard stories of the Soul Society, a place that felt more like a distant dream than something he could ever reach. But for now, the only thing that mattered was finding a way out of this place. He had to survive. He had to grow stronger.
As if summoned by his thoughts, Katsu appeared from the shadows, stepping lightly onto the roof. "Still thinking about getting into the Soul Society?" Katsu asked, his eyes sharp in the darkness.
Shiro didn't answer immediately. He had grown accustomed to the questions that didn't have easy answers. "I don't know what I'm thinking," he muttered. "I don't even know if I can do this."
Katsu took a slow drag from his cigarette, the ember lighting his face in the dim light. "No one ever knows at first. But you've got something. I can see it. It's buried deep, but it's there. And if you're smart, you'll learn to use it before someone else does."
Shiro turned his gaze to the ground below, his fists clenched tightly. "But I'm weak. I can't even use Reiatsu. I have no way of protecting myself."
Katsu chuckled. "You're thinking too much. You don't need to be a master of Reiatsu right now. You just need to survive. And when you survive long enough, you'll figure the rest out."
The silence between them grew, and Shiro found himself lost in thought. The realization hit him hard. Survival. That was all that mattered right now. Everything else—training, learning Reiatsu control, even the Soul Society—felt so far away.
"Where do I start?" Shiro finally asked.
Katsu smiled, a rare, wry grin. "First step? Stop thinking about how far away it is. Just take the next step. Keep moving forward. If you survive long enough, the rest will fall into place."
Days turned into weeks, and slowly, Shiro's body began to adapt. His strength wasn't remarkable, but his speed and agility had improved, as had his ability to read his opponents. Katsu's brutal methods pushed him to the edge of his limits, and while his body ached, his mind grew sharper, more focused.
But there was still one thing that haunted Shiro—his inability to connect with his Reiatsu. Every time he tried to feel it, to awaken it, all he felt was a blank void.
It frustrated him to no end. Without that connection, he was still nothing more than a child lost in a world of monsters and warriors. He needed to unlock that power—needed it more than anything. Without it, there was no way he could make it to the Soul Society, no way to even dream of being strong enough to stand on his own.
One day, during a training session in the alley, Shiro collapsed from exhaustion. His body was covered in sweat, his breaths shallow. The effort to push his limits, to reach the core of his Reiatsu, had drained him more than he anticipated.
Katsu stood over him, watching quietly as Shiro tried to regain his breath. After a long silence, he crouched down beside him. "You're too hard on yourself. You're trying to force something that isn't ready. You can't just pull your power out of thin air."
Shiro glanced up at him, his eyes full of frustration. "But how? How do I make it come out? How do I make myself stronger?"
Katsu exhaled a long stream of smoke. "You've been thinking about your power all wrong. You're not going to find it by just demanding it. It's already inside you, buried beneath the fear, beneath the doubt. You've got to stop trying to force it. Start by listening to yourself. Start by accepting who you are, flaws and all. When you accept that... maybe then you'll find the way."
Shiro blinked, trying to absorb the weight of Katsu's words. It felt like a different kind of challenge—one that didn't involve fighting or pushing harder, but something deeper, more personal.
It wasn't just about surviving. It was about understanding himself, his weaknesses, and his strengths. He wasn't going to get to the Soul Society or become a powerful Shinigami by forcing himself to be someone else. He needed to embrace his past, whatever it was, and move forward with it.
"I'll try," Shiro said quietly, staring at the ground. "I'll try to listen."
Katsu stood up, brushing the dirt from his knees. "Good. Just remember—there's no shame in being weak. The shame comes when you stop trying to get better. Don't let yourself stop."
The days continued to pass, and little by little, Shiro's resolve began to solidify. His training with Katsu continued, and he slowly began to see progress. It wasn't fast, and it wasn't always easy, but there was something stirring within him—a sense of purpose, something that had been dormant since his arrival in Rukongai.
The fire inside him was flickering, but it was there, waiting to ignite. And with each passing day, Shiro knew one thing for certain: he wasn't going to be weak forever. He would find his strength. He would find his way.