Have you ever been asked if you know yourself?
Cause I.... I don't know myself..
I was with all my friends, and we were all elementary. We were laughing and playing, and not thinking of anything. But then I realized that the lamp was being weird...
How I wish that we're all elementary again, because that old me probably know who really I am.
I am Chelly Kim, but call me 'che for short! I am first year senior high school. And looking at the start I don't really know who I am, like my personality was depends on who I am with.
"Che, she's a kind person I've ever met!"
"That girl 'che!? She got some attitude, I don't like being with her."
"She's so nonchalant, like super quiet fr!"
I look very different of every people perspective whom I met, some really know me as a kind person, some knows me how quiet I am with them. Some know me how overreacted I was and have a chaotic personality, and there was also some who's mad at me. But I always keep in mind that in this world not everyone will love you, cause there will always be people who's probably mad at you in silence.
Now I am living just fine, it doesn't really bother me if I act differently of people whom I met. What's important is that I could get along with them, or keep up with the behaviors they display.
"People change" they say, and I believe on that. If the old me really knows who she is, well the current me probably don't know who she is anymore. If I we're to meet the old me, she's probably gonna be disappointed of how my academic performance was slowly draining me, cause I know the old me would do the homework just in time, and would learn seriously the topic just to get a highest score on the quizzes/exam so that everyone in the room would notice her...
The old me don't want to lose, she wants to fight back just to get what she wanted. She doesn't have time to be nervous if she were picked to join an event, she would rather go and enjoyed her elementary day's.
How I wish I could get back the old me... I wish and wish and wish, over and over again... I wanted the old me who have a confidence and doesn't have time to think of her appearance all the time, she's so strong unlike me...
Wow, look how deep the conversation was! Sorry, I didn't mean to make it seem sad!
But seriously, how the heck an straight girl like me would totally like the same gender as me?!
Girl! This is so concerning me, I swear it just happened so suddenly and quickly! That girl and I were friends for like 7 damn years, and how could I fall for her???
Oh no...
This is a big trouble, and I know this is gonna ruin our friendship.