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Chapter 22 - Rebuilding

When Astrid and Erik got back to their respective cities from Umeå, they did so with a greater will to make their relationship work. They had shared so much in the way of dreams, fears, and plans for the future; now they were better prepared to face the challenges ahead. But they knew well that the new phase of their relationship would be a challenge that required effort, above all, rebuilding trust, stability, and the feeling of being together despite the miles stretching between them.

In the weeks that followed, they started reshaping their lives to fit each other. Astrid would work in her studio in the mornings, drawing from the beautiful nature and memories of Umeå. Her art had reached a new dimension, and while she mixed the tender details of Tokyo's cherry blossoms with Sweden's rugged landscapes, her feelings for Erik poured into her art. Each stroke felt like a step closer to him, some way to bridge the distance.

Erik, too, was adjusting. He had begun talking to his company about how he could work from Stockholm part-time, in the hope of spending at least a week a month there. It wasn't a perfect solution, but it was a beginning. For the time being, it was enough to know they were both trying, both making changes to support the life they envisioned together.

One Saturday morning, Erik called Astrid with excitement in his voice. "Hey, are you free to talk?" he asked, unable to hide the enthusiasm.

"Always, for you," she replied with a smile she couldn't contain, though he couldn't see it.

"Great! Listen, I spoke to my boss, and it seems like they're open to the remote work arrangement. I can come to Stockholm for longer periods without taking time off. It'll be like… like we're actually part of each other's daily lives." He laughed, a bit breathlessly, as if he still couldn't believe it.

Astrid felt a surge of happiness and relief. "Erik, that's great! I didn't expect this so soon. We're really doing this, aren't we?"

"Yes," he said, his voice softening. "We're finally building something together, Astrid."

The first week Erik spent in Stockholm was like a dream come true. Instead of their usual rushed weekends, they were able to share the little things: quiet mornings, talks into the night, small routines that made them really feel like a couple. Astrid introduced him to her friends and took him to the local markets where they selected fresh vegetables and flowers, making her apartment into a cozy, welcoming haven of color and life.

One afternoon, they decided to spend the day renovating her studio together. Though Astrid loved her workspace, she wanted to make it feel more like a place where Erik could spend time with her, rather than a solitary retreat. They worked together, painting the walls warm tones and rearranging her canvases and supplies. Erik helped her build shelves for her brushes, paints, and sketchbooks, and Astrid couldn't help but feel such deep gratitude as she watched him work so diligently, his brow furrowed in concentration.

As they took a break to sit on the floor amidst paint cans and boxes, sipping coffee and laughing at their not-so-perfect DIY skills, Erik looked at her, his eyes serious yet full of affection.

"Astrid, I want this place to be a reflection of both of us," he said. "It's more than just your studio. It's our space now."

Astrid felt her heart swell at his words. "Thank you, Erik. For everything. I never thought I'd find someone who understands me like you do."

That evening was passed lying on a blanket spread on the floor of the newly revamped studio, talking about hopes and dreams. For Astrid, this was a moment of pure happiness, knowing that they were creating something real together, that the studio was testament to their joint journey.

Yet, even as they took these strides, there were moments of tension. Long-distance relationships bred challenges that didn't disappear simply because they wanted them to. One evening, while discussing a future exhibition she was planning, Astrid mentioned an opportunity she'd been offered to spend a few months in Berlin for an artist residency.

"I think it could be an amazing opportunity, Erik," she said, excitement in her voice. "I'd get to work with artists from all over the world and learn so much."

Erik nodded, but his expression held a flicker of hesitation. "It sounds incredible, Astrid. But… Berlin? That would mean even less time together, right after we've just started finding our rhythm."

And in that instant, the reality of the residency hit home, and Astrid felt a pang of guilt. "I know. I hadn't thought of it that way." She paused, trying to find the words. "It's not that I want to be away from you. It's just. I feel like I still have so much to explore in my art."

Erik nodded, his voice calm but thoughtful. "I get that, Astrid. And I want you to grow and achieve everything you're meant to. But we're both going to have to make choices that support each other. Maybe we can find a way to balance it?"

In that moment, Astrid realized that "rebuilding" wasn't a one-time thing. It would be an ongoing journey, requiring sacrifices and compromises. They agreed to take some time to think it through, neither of them wanting to make a decision that would compromise their relationship.

The following days gave Erik more opportunity, with his remote work, to experience the city with Astrid, and they did everything possible to make sure the small, joyful routines were not lost on them. They visited Stockholm's museums, walked the narrow streets of Gamla Stan, and took late-night strolls along the waterfront, watching the city lights shimmer in the dark waters.

As they sat by the lake that evening, Erik took her hand and looked contemplative. "You know, Astrid, I think we're doing something most people don't get to do. We're building our lives around each other while still respecting who we are individually. It's not easy, but it's worth it."

Astrid smiled, her gaze lingering on the water. "It is worth it. I've come to realize that love isn't just about passion or romance. It's about the work, the rebuilding, and the willingness to make space for each other's dreams."

Their conversations about the future became less about logistics and more about values-about the kind of life they wanted to build together. They made a pact to support each other's aspirations without losing sight of what mattered most: their connection. Erik urged her to take the residency in Berlin if that was truly what felt right, and in return, she promised to find ways to be in Paris when she wasn't traveling for her art.

They didn't have all the answers, but they had begun to embrace the unknowns together, trusting that no matter what came next, they would face it hand in hand.

As summer bore on, so did Erik's presence in Stockholm, establishing routines together. Every Sunday morning, they would take a walk to the local farmers' market, where they would buy fresh ingredients and cook brunch together, laughing over pancakes and eggs. They also kept a small journal in which they would write down memories, thoughts, and sketches-small notes to each other that chronicled their shared journey.

One Sunday, Astrid opened a new page in the journal and wrote a note to give to Erik.

"Erik, I want to thank you for being my partner on this journey. I have no idea what's ahead of us, but I know this: as long as both of us are committed to rebuilding, we will make our way.

He read her words, a soft smile spreading across his face, before taking her hand in his. "Astrid, that's exactly what I believe. It's not about where we end up, but about the love and effort we put into getting there."

And so, as they kept the Sunday tradition going, a silent peace descended upon them. They knew the road ahead would be bumpy, but they were ready for it, together. Their love had been tried and reshaped, rebuilt on a foundation of trust, resilience, and mutual respect for each other's dreams. And they knew that no matter where life took them next, they had already found the most important thing: each other.