I took the bus to school like I always, with the only exception this time was that I didn't sit next to anyone. This brought back a faint memory from yesterday.
The universe was super mean. I get it, I was lonely, but it didn't have to rub it in my face.
I wanted to just shouted out my feelings and thoughts to the whole bus, since I knew a few people on the bus, but that would've been my undoing. After all, HE only revived me because no one witnessed my death and because of my 'unfinished business'.
So realistically, I just kept my mouth, stayed where I was, and looked out the window while listening to everyone talk to each other. I wasn't in dying again, after all.
What was I going to do that day? I wondered.
"....Wow. I guess you've grown up. Look at you, talking to ladies, just don't come home with a baby in your arms, alright?"
It was a good thing I didn't really have to think up a good lie when I spoke to my mom, since I wasn't lying to begin with.
I was planning to speak to Rebecca, because of what happened yesterday, and my 'unfinished business'. That's what my new mission was.
Then, thought of loneliness flooded into my mind again. It was unfortunate that Rebecca didn't go to school via bus with me. Another mess added to the pile of disaster.
I'll see you soon
On the day after you 'killed' me.
If I ever break the news to you
How disastrous will today?
*****
Despite my goal, I didn't get to see Rebecca that morning. Which was natural since I wasnt in the same class as her. I was unfortunately going to put my plans on hold.
In the meantime, I had class like usual, but in the noise of the classes, it felt silent. Everyone was chill, and no one paid much attention to me, even my best friend.
"I'm glad you're alright"
" What were you thinking?!"
"You had me worried"
None of those words were said. Now that might seem self-absorbed of me, but I couldn't handle no one knowing about my death, or rather, no one caring about me.
"Hey Darrek, we're in Chemistry together, right? Cause we're meant for each other?" he said with a smirk, while walking next to me.
That was my best friend, Jason, and he was comedic as usual, but I wouldn't be surprised if he was gay. However, as he had said, we were next to each other in Chemistry class.
At that point, I was boiling over. I couldnt tell my friend about my death. I couldnt tell my crush. HECK! I couldnt even tell my mom about it.
In the endI just couldn't keep quiet about it anymore, so I told him about everything. Down to the last-minute detail.
"Wait, so you're telling me you-" Jason exclaimed before I silenced him.
"Quiet down. They don't need to know about it."
"Wait, so you're telling me you came back from the dead?"
He whispered in my ear, aware of the seriousness of the situation. I could see the shock he had on his face. He looked like someone told him that Hitler was innocent of his crimes. Maybe he was super suprised, or rather--
"No way bro."
"Yes, way...bro."
"I don't believe you...bro."
"Well you should...bro."
--He just didn't believe me.
"...I know that you're lying. Your parents would've told me about it yesterday or this morning. I'm sure that if I called them right now, they wouldn't know what you're talking about."
"You're right, they wouldn't. Though that's only because I didn't tell them. Matter of fact, you're the only person I told about this."
"Wow, how convenient. Do you swear you're telling me the truth?"
That whole morning, I haven't said a single lie. So why would I have been lying?
"Yes, I swear."
"Swear on...?"
" I swear on my parent's lives, and ironically my own life--"
I'm sure Archaengel Azreal must've been looking at me with disappointment when I said--
"--that I'm telling you the truth. If I'm lying, it won't rain today."
I really shouldn't have said that. Now it must've really seemed like I was lying.
"Yeah right, but you owe me a can of Coke if you're lying."
"Cool dude. It's a bet."
I finally noticed something strange. I looked at my hand, and I felt myself, and I pinched my face.
"I'm not dead?"
"What was that?"
"I'm not red. I feel a bit hot, so I wouldn't be suprised if I turned red."
"Ooooo-kaaaaay."
That was a close one. I could tell that he was questioning my sanity. Maybe that's why I wasn't dead.
Sure, Archangel Azrael revived me because no one saw me come back to life. What if I didn't die because Jason didn't believe me?
In that case, I could tell whoever, but then again, if someone believed me, then the truth would kill me instead of setting me free.
However, that would't matter anytime soon because the period ended soon after that. It was 5th period now.
"Well, that's the last time we see each other today. You have Geography and I have Business. Adios mi amigo." said Jason.
"Vale mi amice," I responded as we hit each other with the cleanest dap-up ever. Music to my ears.
I headed out to my next class. I was headed to Geography. I was headed to Geography. I was headed to Geography...
"I can't believe that I'm gonna see her now of all times!"
I shouted those words out unintentionally in the hallway. I really couldn't contain my momentary excitement. Luckily she wasnt anywhere near to see that.
My mission was about to begin
*****
As soon as I got to class, I sat next to Rebecca. I could finally speak to her, except for one thing.
I could speak to her, but I couldn't really SPEAK to her, especially about yesteerday (and that included me wanting to tell her my feelings), but it was too awkward. I was hung up on it all, but I managed to play it off like it never happened. I was chill on the outside and 100° Celsius on the inside. Maybe she saw that. If she did, then she must've been a very sly lady
"So, about yesterday-" said Rebecca before I interrupted her.
"I felt nothing."
I guess she was aiming to trigger me. Though, I wasn't going to fall apart.
"-How was your Chemistry assignment? I'm sorry did something happen?"
"O-O-Oh nothing happened."
"Right, because you seem okay." Said Rebecca.
She really didn't believe me. Did she know? Did she speak to Carmen? No, that couldn't have been. So why was she pressing me about yesterday?
"I really am okay".
Take the constant stuttering , and the silence that followed after, I really fumbled it.
I guess I couldn't handle the heat anymore. I hoped that she didn't find my behavior strange and press me further. The look in her eyes suggested otherwise.
If Im being honest, that look in her eyes... it was something else.
Those hazel eyes of hers, they seemed intimidating, and yet... so beautiful.
I then concluded, that if she pressed me even further, than I was really going to fold.
Luckily, someone called me from across the classroom before anything happened, so I managed to escape the awkwardness between me and Rebecca.
I walked towards the girl that called me, and away from Rebecca, but did it mean I was in the clear from possible disaster?
"Hey, Darrek is it true that you were revived from death?"
Oh hell no.