The numbness consumes, it devours me whole,
A hollow shell, I've lost my soul.
Disconnected from the world, from my own mind,
In this void of nothingness, no peace I find.
My emotions so strong, they shut me down,
I drown in silence, afraid to be found.
Wrapped in blankets, a cocoon I weave,
Waiting for this torment to finally leave.
They say death's a fix for a fleeting fight,
But my shadow whispers it feels so right.
Borderline isn't fleeting; it's here to stay,
A life sentence I'm forced to face each day.
I'm scared of the storms my mind can unleash,
Of the chaos that robs me of all my peace.
Each episode leaves me more afraid,
Of the person I've become, the price I've paid.
I wasn't born this way—it's not my sin,
But the scars of the past carved deep within.
The ones who should've loved me, tore me apart,
Left me with this broken, bleeding heart.
So tell me, how do I carry on?
How do I fight when my strength is gone?
How can you help when I'm lost inside,
When all I crave is a place to hide?
But somewhere beneath this crushing pain,
I search for hope, though it feels in vain.
And though my path is steep and long,
I'll try to find a way to stay strong.