ACKNOWLEDGING you have a problem is the first step to solving it. Pax was right. I do have a crush on my husband. I started this journey because I love him, so it's not surprising that I'm flattered after everything he's done for me.
But he's not ready. He's still hiding his phone and he still hasn't apologized for cheating. He hasn't even brought up why his mistress was at his office yet.
I know Jerrison thought that his help with my pipes would change something. Would soften me. Would make it easier. And that helps to cement my need for caution. If I become too vulnerable, he might slip right back into his old behavior and get away with it.
Rather than let my crush take over, I bludgeon the feeling with a knife. Over the next few days, I push Jerrison away as obviously and as rudely as possible.
The word 'no' leaves my lips a lot. Like today, when Jerrison asks me out for breakfast after our obligatory meeting at the boxing ring.
