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The curse of chance

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Chapter 1 - It’s time to wake up

She

awoke to a deafening hush. Though silence was constant, it granted her no

comfort against the searing ache pulsing through her skull. Trembling, she

lifted her hand to the back of her head, where she presumed the source of the

pain lay. Her fingers brushed against a tender wound, warm blood trickling

sluggishly between them.

 

Disoriented,

she tried to push herself up, but her body refused to cooperate. A soft, pained

groan escaped her lips as her fingertips scraped against the rough, unyielding

ground. Her mind clawed at fragmented memories, grasping at scattered images

that refused to fall into place, like puzzle pieces just out of reach.

 

Desperate

to suppress the rising panic in her chest, she forced herself to breathe

deeply, slowing the frantic rhythm of her gasps. The discordant whispers

haunting the edges of her mind quieted but did not vanish. She abandoned the

hopeless search for clarity and redirected what little strength she had toward

opening her eyes.

 

Even

that simple task felt insurmountable, as though she were pinned beneath an

unseen, crushing weight. Her eyelids slowly fluttered open, and she blinked

against the blinding haze clouding her vision. The pounding in her head

intensified, but she willed herself to focus, anchoring her thoughts in the

present.

 

The

earth beneath her fingers felt coarse and cold, the gritty texture biting into

her skin. The frigid air stung her cheeks and seeped into her bones, adding to

her disorientation. As her vision sharpened, she realized with growing

confusion that she wasn't outside, as she had first assumed.

 

She

lay within a decaying hut, its crude walls leaning precariously inward as if

ready to collapse. In the far corner sat a bamboo-woven mattress, slumped and

threadbare, offering little promise of comfort. A tiny, smudged window near the

ceiling allowed weak daylight to filter through, casting faint, uneven shadows

across the dirt floor.

 

The

thatched roof above her was a haphazard patchwork of straw and twisted

branches, failing to keep out the relentless chill. Outside, leaves rustled

faintly in the wind, a quiet reminder that the world beyond still existed. A

ragged cloth hung limply over the doorway, shifting slightly with each passing

breeze, offering little defense against the unknown.

 

She

sighed, her breath shaky, and stared down at her trembling hands. They didn't

seem familiar—thin, bruised, foreign. Her brows drew together in a frown as she

flexed her fingers experimentally, dread coiling in her chest. Everything about

this place seemed both alien and strangely familiar, as though she stood on the

edge of a memory long buried.

 

Her

gaze landed on crude, hand-painted symbols scrawled unevenly across the walls.

Their meaning escaped her, though something about them tugged at her

subconscious, teasing recognition she couldn't quite grasp.

 

Summoning

what little strength she could muster, she twisted her aching body to one side

and struggled to sit up. The sudden movement sent her world spinning, nausea

twisting her insides. She clenched her jaw, swallowing down the bile that

threatened to rise, forcing her focus inward as she battled against the waves

of vertigo.

 

After

several agonizing moments, the worst of the nausea faded, leaving behind only a

persistent ache in her temples. Bracing herself on trembling arms, she slowly

pushed into a sitting position. Her knees wobbled beneath her, threatening to

collapse, but she gritted her teeth and steadied herself.

 

When

she finally felt stable enough to move, she scanned the empty shelter with wary

eyes. There were no personal belongings, no familiar keepsakes—nothing to

suggest that anyone had lived here recently. No clothes. No supplies. No signs

of life.

 

It

only confirmed what she had already begun to fear: she didn't belong here.

 

The

thought struck her with cold, merciless finality, sending a sharp chill down

her spine.

 

Summoning

every ounce of willpower she had left, she staggered toward the doorway, her

bare feet scraping against the dirt floor. With unsteady fingers, she gripped

the tattered cloth that served as a makeshift door and pulled it aside.

 

The

icy wind bit at her exposed skin, sending a cascade of shivers down her spine.

Strands of hair whipped against her face as she took one cautious step outside.

 

Her

breath caught in her throat.

 

Before

her stretched an ancient Chinese-style courtyard, its imposing beauty starkly

contrasting with the decaying shelter she had just left. Intricately carved

wooden walls, dark and regal, framed the estate with masterful precision.

Elegant carvings of fierce dragons and graceful phoenixes shimmered faintly

under a thin veil of frost, silent guardians of a forgotten past.

 

A

tranquil, crystal-clear pond reflected the soft morning light, its surface

rippling gently as the breeze stirred the water. Lush water lilies floated

serenely, while koi fish, vivid as molten gold and silver, weaved fluid

patterns beneath the shimmering surface.

 

At the

heart of the pond stood a small artificial island crowned by a traditional

Chinese pagoda. Its lacquered red roof gleamed brilliantly under the rising

sun, framed by sweeping eaves that curved skyward like wings in flight. A

delicate bamboo bridge arched gracefully over the water, connecting the island

to the main courtyard in a seamless blend of artistry and nature.

 

Delicate

pavilions lined the courtyard's edges, supported by jade-inlaid stone pillars

that stood like silent sentinels. Their sloping roofs, adorned with curling

tiles, seemed to embrace the sky, offering a sense of serenity and shelter.

 

The

gardens beyond the pond bloomed in an explosion of color. Cherry blossoms, plum

trees, and clusters of chrysanthemums spilled their delicate petals onto the

winding stone paths. Their mingling fragrances drifted lazily on the crisp

morning air, creating a sweet, intoxicating symphony.

 

For a

fleeting moment, she almost forgot the ache that lingered in her bones, the

gnawing sense of displacement coiling deep in her chest. The courtyard's beauty

was so vivid, so achingly perfect, it felt like stepping into a dream long

forgotten.

 

But

something was wrong.

 

The

courtyard was too still. Too quiet.

 

An

oppressive tension prickled at the edges of her senses, sharp and undeniable.

It clung to the air, hidden beneath the picturesque facade like a coiled

serpent waiting to strike.

 

Her

jaw tightened. Whatever had brought her here—whatever fate awaited her—she

would face it head-on. She had survived too much, endured too many lifetimes,

to be undone by the unknown. There was no room for fear. Only action.

 

She

released her grip on the tattered cloth door and stepped fully into the

courtyard, her chin lifted, her gaze steady despite the unsteadiness of her

limbs. She couldn't afford weakness—not now, not ever.

 

Determined,

she moved cautiously toward the edge of the pond, her bare feet making almost

no sound on the smooth stone path. Every step felt surreal, as though she were

treading on the edge of two worlds — one forgotten and one unknown.

 

Her

fingers trailed across the carved wooden railing lining the bridge, the

polished surface cool beneath her touch. She paused there, taking in the

sprawling estate. Every detail was crafted with deliberate care, as though

built not merely for function but for something far greater. Purpose. Power.

Legacy.

 

Yet,

there was no sign of life. No rustling of servants, no whispered conversations.

No guards patrolling the perimeter. Only the distant rustle of wind through the

trees and the soft splash of water as the koi glided through the pond.

 

She

exhaled slowly, willing her mind to remain sharp despite the uneasy stillness

pressing in from all sides.

 

Something

about this place stirred a memory she couldn't quite reach, like a name

whispered too faintly to be understood. She searched her fragmented thoughts,

but every attempt left her with more questions than answers.

 

Pushing

aside her unease, she turned toward the grand wooden doors at the far end of

the courtyard. Their towering frames were adorned with intricate carvings,

depicting swirling clouds and celestial beasts locked in eternal combat. They

loomed silently, daring her to cross the threshold.

 

Summoning

every shred of resolve she possessed, she strode forward, her bare feet

pressing firmly against the cold stone path. Whatever lay beyond those doors,

she would face it—just as she always had.

 

The

heavy wooden doors loomed before her, etched with ancient carvings depicting

dragons coiled around swirling clouds, their fierce eyes seemingly watching her

every move. The craftsmanship was breathtaking, a blend of artistry and

authority, radiating a sense of untouchable grandeur.

 

Her

fingertips brushed across the carved surface, tracing the sinuous curves of the

dragon's scaled body. The cold wood bit into her skin, grounding her in the

surreal reality she still struggled to comprehend. Whatever this place was, it

wasn't some forgotten ruin — it was carefully preserved, maintained with

reverence or purpose.

 

With a

steadying breath, she pushed against the imposing doors. They groaned in

protest before yielding, swinging inward with an almost reluctant grace. A soft

breeze stirred, carrying with it the faint scent of incense, worn wood, and

something far older — memory.

 

She

stepped inside.

 

The

dim interior of the grand hall stretched into the shadows, its cavernous

expanse illuminated only by thin beams of light filtering through narrow

lattice windows. Rows of towering wooden beams supported the intricately carved

ceiling, their surfaces adorned with swirling cloud motifs and celestial

constellations that sparkled faintly in the dimness.

 

The

air felt heavy, dense with silence and secrets. Her bare feet brushed against

polished stone floors, cold and unyielding, their dark surfaces gleaming like

liquid obsidian. The hall was empty, yet the lingering sense of presence was

impossible to ignore, pressing down on her like a phantom's breath.

 

Her

gaze settled on the raised platform at the far end of the hall. An ornately

carved wooden throne, inlaid with shimmering jade and pearl, stood solitary and

regal, a silent witness to an untold history. The high-backed seat radiated

authority, its presence commanding even in the stillness.

 

Who

had ruled from that throne? And where were they now?

 

Unease

prickled at the back of her neck. There was something distinctly wrong about the emptiness

surrounding her — as though the absence itself were deliberate, a piece of a

puzzle she couldn't yet see.

 

Her

fingers instinctively brushed the smooth surface of the jade ring she still

clutched in her hand. Its coolness soothed her frayed nerves, offering a

fragile tether to stability. Despite her limited knowledge of jade

craftsmanship, even she could tell this piece was exceptional — masterfully

carved, its surface unmarred by time or use.

 

A

fleeting thought crossed her mind — perhaps the ring held answers. A memory. A

clue. Anything.

 

Weighing

its significance, she slid the ring onto her finger. Its fit was almost too

perfect, as though it had been meant for her all along. The faintest tingle ran

up her arm, barely perceptible but impossible to dismiss.

 

Before

she could dwell on the sensation, a sudden, searing pain lanced through her

skull, sharp and merciless. She gasped, her knees buckling as she crumpled to

the floor, clutching her head as though she could physically ward off the

onslaught.

 

Memories

— vivid, chaotic, wrong — surged through her

mind like a raging flood. Faces she didn't recognize. Names she couldn't place.

A thousand fractured lives clashing together in a whirlwind of sensation and

emotion.

 

She

couldn't breathe. Couldn't think.

 

The

past was consuming her.

 

Her

trembling fingers dug into the cold stone floor as she struggled to hold on, to

resist the overwhelming tide threatening to tear her apart. But she knew — she had experienced

this before. Fighting it would only make it worse.

 

So,

she let go.

 

She

surrendered herself to the storm, allowing the torrent of memories to crash

over her. Visions blurred together — fractured pieces of lives she had lived,

battles she had fought, choices she had made. Some were distant, hazy, while

others were sharp and vivid, etched into her very soul.

 

Finally,

after what felt like an eternity, the flood began to subside, leaving behind a

deep, aching stillness. She lay sprawled across the cold stone floor, her

breath ragged, her mind a fractured landscape of forgotten pasts and uncertain

futures.

 

Through

the haze of exhaustion, she became aware of a quiet, persistent thought:

 

I am Xu Xin Duo.

 

The

name rose unbidden, resonating through her fragmented mind with quiet

certainty. It felt right, familiar in a

way nothing else had since she'd awakened in this strange, silent world.

 

"I am

Xu Xin Duo," she whispered aloud, her voice hoarse but steady, claiming the

identity as her own.

 

With

trembling resolve, she slowly pushed herself upright, planting her hands firmly

against the cold stone floor. Her limbs felt weak and unsteady, but

determination burned fiercely in her chest, anchoring her against the weight of

her confusion.

 

Her

fingers brushed the jade ring still securely nestled on her finger, a silent

reminder of the past she could not yet remember — and the future she had yet to

face.

 

The

echo of her whispered name lingered in the stillness, folding into the ancient

walls as though even the stones acknowledged her claim. She drew in a deep,

steadying breath, forcing her limbs to cooperate despite the lingering ache

from the torrent of memories that had just consumed her.

 

She

rose slowly, her knees trembling but locking into place with stubborn resolve.

She had endured worse — far worse. Whatever this place was, whoever she had

been before this, she would survive. She

always did.

 

Her

gaze shifted downward, settling on the jade ring glinting faintly on her

finger. Its cool surface pulsed faintly with residual energy, as though

tethered to something ancient and unyielding. Was it the source of her

awakening — or merely a witness to it?

 

Before

she could ponder further, she felt a flicker of presence stir deep within her

mind — faint, hesitant, yet unmistakably aware.

 

"Go

on," she urged softly, her voice steady despite the uncertainty clawing at her

chest. "You don't have to be afraid."

 

The

air around her seemed to hold its breath, charged with unseen tension.

 

Slowly,

a dim, translucent figure coalesced before her — a fading wisp of memory given

fragile form. The girl was younger than she'd expected, her delicate features

twisted in a mixture of fear and sorrow. She wore a simple but elegant gown,

its embroidered edges frayed with age.

 

"Who…

who are you?" the girl whispered, her voice trembling. Her wide, uncertain eyes

darted toward the unfamiliar woman standing before her — a stranger unlike

anyone she had ever seen.

 

Xu Xin

Duo remained still, sensing the girl's apprehension. She glanced down at her

own hands, noting the stark contrast between her dark skin and the ghostly

figure's pale, ethereal glow. Her last body had been born of a mixed heritage,

a distant life where a white father and a Black mother had shaped her

appearance. She doubted the fragile spirit had ever seen someone like her

before.

 

"As

far as I understand… you are a part of me," Xu Xin Duo explained gently. "A

fragment of my soul. A past life."

 

The

spirit recoiled slightly, confusion etched into her fading features. "I… I

don't understand…"

 

Xu Xin

Duo's expression softened with something close to compassion. She knew that

lost, hollow feeling all too well — the ache of knowing you no longer belonged.

 

"You've

reached the end of your natural life span," she continued quietly. "You'll

leave soon… but it won't be scary. I didn't come here to take your life. My

presence didn't shorten it."

 

The

girl's luminous eyes glistened with unspoken grief. "My family… they…"

 

"I

will take care of everything you've left behind," Xu Xin Duo promised, her

voice steady but sincere. "Go in peace… and leave this life to me."

 

For a

long, breathless moment, the girl hesitated, as though clinging to something

unseen — something fragile and broken. Then, with a small, weary nod, she began

to fade, her translucent form dissolving into shimmering motes of light.

 

As the

last traces of the past life faded into the stillness, Xu Xin Duo stood alone

once more. The emptiness felt vast, but her resolve burned brighter than ever.

 

Her

fingers brushed against the cool surface of the jade ring still securely

resting on her finger, grounding her in the present. The faint hum of distant

energy pulsed faintly beneath her skin, a reminder that her journey was far

from over.

 

Whatever

awaited her in this strange and treacherous world, she would meet it head-on —

not as the frightened, forgotten woman she had once been… but as Xu Xin Duo.

 

Xu Xin

Duo clenched her fists, the lingering warmth of the departed spirit still

faintly pulsing through her fingertips. Despite her calm facade, an ache tugged

at her chest — not of grief, but of recognition. She understood loss

intimately, in all its bitter forms.

 

Drawing

in a steady breath, she forced the emotion down, burying it beneath hardened

resolve. Regret was a weakness she couldn't afford. She had inherited this

life, fractured and forgotten as it was — and she would own it.

 

Her

gaze swept once more over the cavernous hall. The throne sat cold and empty,

its inlaid jade gleaming softly in the dim light, an unyielding monument to

lost power. The carved wooden beams overhead seemed to twist like ancient

roots, coiled and entwined with forgotten stories long erased by time.

 

There

was no room for hesitation.

 

Xu Xin

Duo adjusted the jade ring on her finger, its familiar weight settling against

her skin with reassuring steadiness. What secrets do you

hold? she wondered, her fingertips brushing over its flawless

surface. If the memories it had unlocked were just the beginning, then she

could only imagine what power lay dormant beneath its polished facade.

 

Answers can wait.

 

She

straightened, squaring her shoulders, allowing the calm, calculating persona

she had worn in so many past lives to resurface. Knowledge was currency, power,

and survival — and she needed all three.

 

Her

lips curved into a faint, cold smile. If she had been given another chance, she

wouldn't squander it.

 

The

soft sound of shifting wind outside drew her attention. Her body tensed,

instincts sharpened by countless lives spent fighting, fleeing, and surviving.

Stepping back toward the towering doors, she pushed them open with a commanding

shove, her steps measured yet purposeful.

 

The

icy air bit at her exposed skin, but she welcomed the cold. It sharpened her

senses, making her painfully aware of how vulnerable she still was. She would

have to remedy that — quickly.

 

The

courtyard remained as pristine and eerily silent as before, though its beauty

no longer felt inviting. It was a mask — a carefully constructed illusion meant

to conceal something far more dangerous.

 

With a

final glance at the decaying throne behind her, she turned and stepped out into

the courtyard, leaving the shadows of the past where they belonged.