I'm tired. So very tired. Feel so exhausted in the same way. Looking at myself in the mirror makes my face appear so sad. My chest hurts so much. It's hard for me to breathe normally. My head starts to feel dizzy. My vision is blurry. I feel weak. I feel weak in the air that normal people consider fresh.
In five minutes, I began to regain consciousness. My breathing returned to normal. My vision became clear, and my chest no longer hurt.
Ladies and gentlemen of the jury,exhibit number one is what the seraphs,the misinformed,simple,noble-winged seraphs,envied.
Let me introduce to to you...
The Panic Attacks.
Ladies and gentlemen of the jury,
In this chapter, we will discuss something that is a bit boring and somewhat triggering. To those who are mentally healthy, you can swipe away now. I'm not forcing anyone to read my perspective. It's up to you if you want to judge. You're not perfect either. In fact, someone like you might be worse than me.
As I want to discuss, I have been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, where my panic attacks are very severe. Sometimes, they happen more than twice a day. I had to stop working.
I thought that when I stopped working, I wouldn't have panic attacks anymore. Unfortunately, I was very wrong. I've been experiencing this for four years now. It's very difficult for me because it can strike at any time and place, even during intimate moments. Quite ironic, isn't it? But that's what happens to me.
Half of the people I know say things like, 'You'll be fine eventually. Stop being dramatic.' or 'It doesn't make sense for someone as pretty as you to have anxiety.'
Fuck em' all !!!
Do you think I want to be like this? Do you think I prayed to be like this? Mentally healthy people should be giving positive support to people like us, not mocking us. Imagine how we struggle just to survive. It doesn't mean we lack faith. Never bring religion into this.
Every year 726 000 people take their own life and there are many more people who make suicide attempts.Suicide is the third leading cause of death among 15–29-year-olds.
Do you know what the cause is? Yes, and the cause is depression.
To all the friends out there, I hope you are all doing well. The same goes for me. It is very difficult for people like us to survive alongside those with shallow thinking, who view the world as perfect without understanding its flaws.
There is still so much I want to express. But right now, I am not in a good state. And I apologize if my writing is no good.
Well, that's all.