CHAPTER ELEVEN
PIERCE
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'Kai, do you know that I can't stop thinking of wanting to carve off your flesh so I can see what's beneath?'
There's no emotion more powerful than obsession, and it starts so slowly that you don't even recognize the patterns, and when you do, it's already too late, you're already enthralled in the darkness and deceit of your own making.
It started with a simple desire of wanting to know him, but soon, it became not nearly enough.
I crave more.
It's an unquenched thirst that refuses to be sated. Your whole world revolves around them while they do not know of your existence.
I want to be closer to him, so close that want to just bury him beneath my skin.
Kai, Do you know how much I want to see you bleed? I also want you to see me bleed and paint my blood across your face and mark you so that the others will know that you're mine!
Everyone has a dream, unconscious thoughts and desires, something they want to hold on to, cherish, and are afraid to lose.
My dream has always been Kai. And for me, I want to destroy him. Weird as it may sound, don't get me wrong.
Kai is perfect, he's just a few minor faults here and there, but it's not something that cannot be fixed.
My mother always used to say that the first step to fixing something is to know no matter how destroyed it seems, it can always be saved.
Kai only needs some shaping, and with the right heat and tools, you can melt even the hardest metal, and when it's soft enough, you can mould it exactly how you want it to be.
I'm used to getting whatever I want, but with Kai, it's quite complicated.
He captured my interest and continues to be oblivious, now, that's unforgivable.
For a long time, nothing has managed to keep my interests for long. I try to be nice and friendly to everyone but the mask doesn't suit me.
The world to me is just a fucking boring place; I even got tired of exploring, and I hated the people who crowded me for whatever reason.
I like being alone, but that is how I knew that he was different, because for the first time, I craved someone's attention.
Malakai.
He's the quiet church kid, at first, it was his calm aura that ignited my interest. Then I start to notice the little things.
He always has perfect grades, but he's skittish and socially awkward. He doesn't have friends and prefers staying alone, it's almost as if he doesn't want the world to notice him.
The world is so noisy.
Only when I focus on Kai, he does help me concentrate; I just need to fix my attention on him all day.
I like that he isolates himself from the others, I want to invade his space and mark my territory.
Later, I got to understand why Kai didn't seem interested in other things. His only focus is on one person.
Lana Winters.
I despise the way his eyes always light up for her; he seems to glow in her presence. She's his whole fucking world and he's obsessed.
At first, I thought she must be so great for even someone like him to fall in love with her.
I knew about the silly pictures that he takes whenever he feels that no one is watching.
The lost puppy expression he wears as he follows her about, he is always so absorbed that he doesn't notice that I follow him everywhere, too.
The only reason I got close to Lana in the first place was because I wanted her as far away from him as possible.
Even now, as I stand in the hallway, amidst the chaos from the crowd, I can only focus on him. A knot tightens in my chest when I realize that he's not alone.
I'm too far away to hear what he's saying to Lana, but the awe and worship in his eyes as he gazes at me makes my stomach coil with acid.
I have emotions, too.
Does he have no idea how much it fucking hurts?
Lana spots me staring at them, but my eyes don't waver.
Perhaps it's something in my gaze that prompts her to suddenly wrap her arms around his neck in a hug.
If she hopes to get me jealous, then it's fucking working. An ugly sensation twists inside my chest.
My veins are pulsating with the need to rip her away from him, then I'll have to wash his body clean from her contamination.
'Just kill the bitch, she touched your man! ' The venomous voice in my head snarls, the urge of it is so powerful that I can imagine ripping her head off, splattering her blood and brain matter all over the place.
All brainless bitches deserve to die!
The whispers in my head are only getting louder these days and it's becoming more difficult to ignore.
The bell rings, and Kai and Lana walk into the classroom together, and my eyes follow them. I inhale raggedly to clear the red haze in my eyes.
I follow them inside the classroom, my gaze lands on Kai and he instantly looks away.
' Don't fucking ignore me! '
I take the seat behind them as usual. I can't keep my eyes away from him; Kai is a whole fucking magnet; he continues to attract me, and my senses are always heightened around him.
His curly brown hair looks almost golden in the sunlight, his hazel eyes seem more green than brown right now, And the tip of his ears always turns red whenever he's agitated.
Just like right now.
He's aware of me even now no matter how tough he pretends to be.
He's just too adorable!
He's like a cute little puppy.
I wonder if he's aware that he has three dots of freckles on the back of his neck, and his upper left ear. If I count the ones on his chest, how many will it be in total?
I'm suddenly thinking if he has any other that I've not yet seen; the thought gets me excited, and I can't wait to explore every inch of him.
I note the way his legs are squirming and the way he bites on his thumb, a bad habit he usually does whenever he's nervous.
His finger is bleeding and I scowl at the sight. It's one of the things I plan to correct, he can't harm 'MY' precious body just because he feels like it.
While he looks so fucking beautiful bleeding, I want it to be just me who gets to draw out the blood from him, to savor the sweet taste of it. Even the thought of it gets me excited, and my erection right now is unbearable.
Yes, Kai,
Become more aware of me, until I'm the only one in your mind. And I'll paint my love in your soul!
The class comes to an end.
It's Kai who approaches me first; I'm surprised because usually he always tries to run from me.
"I'll do it, I'll have sex with you." He says the words that nearly sent my heart exploding from my chest; I know I had given him no other choice, but still, I expected him to come up with more resistance.
I'm watching him carefully to see that he doesn't look as afraid and repulsed as he earlier did. And before I can wonder about his sudden spurt of courage, he quickly adds.
"As long as you promise to stay away from Lana... She's the only reason I'm doing this!"
Ah, of course, it's always about that bitch.
I nearly roll my eyes at his pathetic loyalty. I really can't complain this time though.
He's just agreed to become mine, and it's laughable if he thinks I'm going to allow him to have any chance to be with Lana. I will keep him so busy that he won't be free to think about other useless things.
From now on Kai,
You can only focus on me.
Only me!
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