Being me is so hard...

Everything seems to be so different and difficult with people around me, I don't know how to feel, I don't know how to navigate how I feel about things.

I'm scared of commitment but I also want it so much. What could be wrong with me. Could it be that I am not capable of loving, of feeling loved?

Do I have a disease or I have no heart?

Deep down, I feel things differently, I feel things deeply but how do I explain to people around me that I truly care about them?

How do I make them believe me.

Am I cursed?