You know the colour white.
When most people see white, it brings them happiness, joy, you know, fun stuff.
I hate white.
Not dislike
Or abhor
Or even detest
I
Hate
White.
And with a passion.
I honestly honestly don't remember when it began.
I've been down here so long it seemed as if I was born here.
In this white walled room.
I think it knew I hated it.
It was all I could see
It has witnessed almost all my firsts.
My first beating.
My first drugging.
My first tears.
My first bleeding.
You'd think we'd have some sort of camaraderie by now. Almost best friends.
It seemed impossible then until one moment of forgetfulness from the mind my white dress that was stained with my blood dried up. Leaving the most beautiful thing I had seen I'm my nightmare of a life.
It was a different color.
So I named the room.
My six year old self had finally found a friend.
Pink.
Absurd, I know.
But it made sense to me then.
I was red, it was white and togethher we made pink.
It was easier to think of it that way when I was younger.
So that is why nine years down the line here I am having a wonderful conversation with my bestie.
"So pink, what are we doing today"
" We have a visit from them but after that we have a free day."
" What do you say we do?"
" We could work on our breath holding skills , maybe try to make it past seven minutes this time"
" Or we can work on our cutting skills, I'm planning a suprise for you tomorrow"
" Are you exited?"
" If you don't want that we co-"
Someone was here.
I turned around to find my 'aunt' standing in all her annoying glory with her hands folded giving me that deeming look I had seen so many times in my life.
" Adeline darling, talking to yourself again?"
"No, Aunt Cassidy I was talking to Pink"
" And how many times have I told you that pink doesn't exist,hmm"
" Countless times, Aunt."
" Darling, I know Dr Micheals ruled you insane but we're trying to help you are we not?", she continued
" You may be insane but you owe it to this family not to act like it okay?"
" Yes aunt",u said in a muffled voice.
She continued talking but I blocked her out, focused on dealing with my inner demons.
I AM NOT INSANE
I AM NOT INSANE
I AM NOT INSANE
Lash out!
Tell them you're not insane.
The door is open!,run.
You can easily take her on
NO!
I told the voices in my head. The ones that always dared me to take a risk but the reasoning side of me always
backed out.
Sometimes I wondered if that side was mere cowardice hidden as reason.
I continued my mantra, quelling down the thoughts in my head.
I can't let them know how much that word affects me.
They already think their prized took is breaking, j can't let them know I'm already shattered to bits.
I AM NOT INSANE
I AM NOT INSANE
I AM NOT INSANE
I continued reciting to myself until I was jolted back to reality, hearing my name.
"-eline darling do you understand why it is crucial that you have no weakness."
"Yes aunt"
"Tell me then."
" I must become the best of the best, I must hone my skill and create a path where the Hayes family can rise to the highest peak.", I recited the phrase had learnt before anything else in my life.
Humans have evolved to a point where they view technology not as something artificial but a biological part of our systems.
After the fall of the twenty-third century, when pollution was so rampantto the extent that there were more automations than humans, scientists, engineers and biologists came up with an idea to prevent humans from going extinct.
They combined genesand technology together and created a new genome.
With this genome humans had become immune to the various pollutants and viruses in the atmosphere.
Rather they advanced, became stronger, faster , smarter.
But in order for the genome to spread, I needed to be available for everyone, it was released into the atmosphere.
But humans were not the only organisms breathing the air. Animals, insects the entire ecosystem also evolved.
And with the evolution came new dangers that needed to be solved.
That was when the concept of military families started.
Families took it upon themselves to train people to deal with these beasts.
Over time it became a competition among the affluent families on who was stronger.
After several years humans have gotten used to the new evolution.
But the evolution is a constant cycle.
Never ending.
Thus schools were created. Councils and a whole system to cope with the rapid change.
But among the wealthy strength was everything.
And that is where I come in.
When I was born, the researchers in my family detected a variant gene in my DNA. It was almost animalistic.
It apparently opened many doors for the researchers.
If they could find a way to infuse the genes of the beasts into our own, surely we'd be stronger than the other families.
Great,right?
Wrong.
Not when you are the object of their fascination.
They wanted to know how much I could take.
If when they added beast genes artificially they'd multiply or not.
I was their prized lab rat.
My so called parents just watch from the sidelines relishing in the glory of birthing a new path for their family.
They wouldn't care.
Why would they?!
They had other children to shower their love on, they didn't need a freak daughter.
Aunt Cassidy moved around my room; prison sounds like a better statement.
"It good you know you purpose. You should be honored really, you are paving a way for your siblings and cousins"
"Anyways I came to inform you that there wiil be some changes happening in some days, we are moving to a new facility. There seems to be a better chance at breaking the wall we've met in our research over there.",she said and left leaving me to process the bombshell that just dropped.
We were moving?!!
I'd been staying in this room for as long as I remember and suddenly we're moving.
It almost seemed surreal until I realized that I was going to leave Pink behind.
I really don't know how to feel at this point.