As I stand in the edge of the rooftop and feel the wind on my face I close my eyes, relishing the feeling.
I had been so little for so long I almost forgot who I was before. Who I truly am.
Astra Colypso is no cowered. My father didn't raise coward. He raised a queen and those people about to find out just how badly they fucked up.
3 years ago I was in a bad state. I'll never forget the feeling of betrayal. It hurts more than you could ever imagine. My best friend -if I can even call her that- single handedly ruined my life.
We had known each other for years and never once did I suspect her of being a traitor. She was kind. Sweet. She was always there for me when I needed her.
I never thought she would sell me out to my worst enemy. She was the cause of my family's death. If I had been in the car that day I too would have died.
Of course I got my revenge. I made her watch as I toyed with the lives of everyone she ever cared about. She had to witness the life drain from their eyes as I slit their throats. She had to watch as they took their last breath knowing she was the reason it was happening.
And then I killed her.
It wasn't quick and it most certainly wasn't painless.
She deserved to suffer and I don't regret it.
I only wish I had seen her true colors before the accident. Before my parents and brother were killed.
At the time I wished I could join them in hell as I know full well none of us deserve to go to any kind of heaven.
That was when I met him.
I don't know his name nor have I seen his face but I do know he saved me when I needed saving. I call him my Angel and he calls me his Firefly. He has asked me many times why I chose Angel but I haven't told him and I probably never will. Likewise he won't tell me why he calls me Firefly.
He doesn't know who I am and I like that. He's safe to talk to.
For all I know he could be an old man but I don't really care who's behind the screen as long as he never changes.
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A few hours earlier.
As I walk through the halls of the hotel towards my room I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket so I pull it out only to see a message from my Angel. It's a voice message. He's been sending them a lot lately.
"Are you busy my little Firefly?"
Hearing this I can't help but blush a little. His voice is deep and sexy. No matter how many times I hear it I can't seem to get used to it.
Pursing my lips in thought I hesitantly raise the microphone on my cell near my mouth and gently hold down a button.
"I always have time for you Angel." I say sweetly before pressing send. I even surprised myself with the sweet tone and as I see no reply for a few moments I start to second guess myself.
'Maybe I shouldn't have sent it.'
However the moment I see him reply I start to feel a little excited and nervous, wondering if he likes my voice as much as I like his.
"Is that so?"
He asks teasingly but he sounds happier than I think I've ever heard him before.
"When have I ever lied to you?"
I send back with a smile on my face.
"Can I ask you for something?"
I can tell he's a little hesitant to ask so it makes me curious what it could be.
"Ask away Mr. Angel!" I send playfully.
"I want to call you..." He says quietly so I have to turn my volume up and replay it to hear what he said.
It takes me a while to respond and seeing this he seems to be getting anxious.
"We don't have to if you don't want to! I just thought it would be nice."
"If you don't want to it's okay I don't want to pressure you if you aren't ready yet."
Fearing he might continue forever I directly press the call button and put the phone to my ear.
Not even 3 seconds later he picks up and I can hear his light breath through the phone.
"Hi." I say quietly.
"Hi." He answers back.
"What have you been busy with lately?" I ask softly. I know he won't give me a real answer and I'm not looking for one so I don't mind.
"I have a lot of work to deal with recently."
"Same as always then."
"You know me well Firefly."
"We'll we have known each other for 3 years now." I say playfully but I can't hide the hint of sadness in my voice.
"Are you alright Firefly?" He asks and I instantly knew he heard my true emotions hidden behind my playful tone.
I pause for a moment as I sit on the railing of the balcony with my legs over the edge. I know if I lean forward just a little I'll fall.
"I don't know." I eventually say but my voice betrays me. I'm not okay. I haven't been for a long time.
"Don't lie to me Firefly." He says and I can't quite figure out how he feels from his voice alone.
"Do you really want to know?" I ask hesitantly. I can't help but want to te him. It may be selfish but I want him to understand me even if it means knowing just how terrible I can be.
"There's not a thing about you I don't want to know." He says quietly. So quiet I almost don't hear him.
"It's complicated and confusing and you may not even believe me but I'll tell you if you want me to." I say softly as I stare down at the ground well below my feet.
"Baby I would believe you if you said you were a god." My Angel says with a deep laugh that makes me almost forget how to breathe.
"Here it goes then." I say when I remember humans require air to live.
"It all started well before I was born. It was hundreds of years ago now and no one could be sure if it was true until now. There was a woman who was said to be the daughter of the moon. Her name was Celestia. Celestia Calypso. Daughter of the moon and protecter of the nine-tailed fox. That was what they called her.
When she was young it was said she saved a young snow-fox on the brink of death with the power of the moon she inherited from her mother. Because of this the young fox changed. As he grew older he was able to harness the power of the moon in his body given to him by Celestia on that night. As he grew larger he also got stronger and with that strength came more tails. When he finally reunited with the young Celestia he evolved becoming larger and strong with which he gained his ninth tail.
Seeing this Celestia was surprised but she willingly took him in. She raised him not as a pet but as a friend resulting in the snow-fox gaining a human form. With this new form came new feelings. The fox didn't understand the world of humans but that was okay as Celestia too was ignorant in that aspect. Together they lived in the great forest of darkness in the realm of nightmares. The daughter of the moon soon gave the fox a name. Winter for his snow-white coat. Winter Calypso she had called him. She protected him like he was her own child but she loved him like a brother.
When he fell for a human woman in the mortal realm he had no choice but to leave his savier for the sake of love. He thought he could sneak away without having to say goodbye as he knew it would be hard for him but he was unaware that she watched him leave. Not before blessing him with the protection of the moon so she could forever protect him even if she wasn't by his side.
She watched as the human woman fell for him and silently congraduated them the day of the wedding. She even blessed his children with the moon's protection.
Over the years she grew up. She learned how to harness and control her magic better. She learned the full extent of her power as she grew stronger.
It took many years but she eventually became a god. Although she had immense power she wasn't happy. She had outlived her beloved Winter and she knew there was no way to even meet him again. That was until she received a prophecy from a higher god. The god of time.
She was told just 3 unclear sentences. 'on the night of the eclipse in the year of the star, a girl shall be born of the king of the sky and the queen of the sly. One day she shall make her choice. Should she chose the path of vengeance the mortal world shall burn and should she choose the path of love an angel shall save her.'
The daughter of the moon now known as the goddess of night upon hearing this found meaning in her life. She was ready to watch the world burn. She had long given up on those in the realm of the mortals. She believed that we were all the same. She has seen so many people lose themselves in the path of revenge that she was sure the hybrid she was told of would choose revenge over love.
Knowing this the god of time sent this message to a decent of the nine-tailed fox knowing that some day a child would be born of the dragon king and the fox queen and this child held the the of the world in her hands.
Since that day for generations this story has been passed on in my family. When my mother gave birth to me on the day of the eclipse in the year of star she knew I could either save or kill us all but she never treated me any different than my brother. I knew she trusted my character enough to leave the choice to me.
I believed that no matter what happened I would choose love if only for the sake of my family but then my so called best friend got them killed. That was when I decided to forever seek vengeance from those who hurt me but I couldn't do it. After getting rid of the traitor I couldn't bring myself to truly hold a grudge long enough to take revenge later. I finally realized I'm afraid. Scared to hate and scared to love. What would happen if I made a new path? One where I don't live to make the decision. I now know that what I fear isn't death. It's life.
For many weeks I have wondered. Could death be the path of escape I have always longed for or will it just be another world of nightmares?" This was the first time I had ever told someone my true thoughts and feelings as well as the first time I shared the prophecy from the god of time.
All I could hope for was that he would believe me. That he wouldn't see me as a crazy person.
"Am I meant to be the angel?" Angel asks curiously.
"Of course that's what you would focus on." I laugh lightly but as I stare down at the sidewalk far below me I can't help but lean forward a little farther wanting to feel the wind in my hair and the thrill of flying.
"Well it does answer my question of why you call me Angel." He says teasingly.
"Alright you win. I do believe you are the angel meant to save me." I say with a hint of playfulness.
"Want to hear my opinion Firefly?" Angel asks gently.
"Tell me." I say quietly, secretly looking forward to hearing hs opinion on the matter.
"I think you were never one to wait to be rescued. The girl I know would rather die than lose a fight. You never needed to be saved Firefly. Don't doubt yourself. You're the strongest person I know." Angel tells me and I can tell from his voice that he means what he says.
I hate to admit it but he's right. I never needed to be saved. I had forgotten who I was before.
"Thank you." I whisper with a small smile on my lips.
He truly is my Angel.