Ugh!... Where am I!?
A question that came out of a boy's mouth from the moment his eyes flickered to open.
He found himself inside a small and dark unfamiliar place yet also feels familiar.
' The atmosphere is thicker than usual.. Dang it! it's too hot in here... it's making me sweat like crazy. '
He said in his mind.
Wiping his sweat while observing the place, he noticed many hanged clothes beside him. He turned out to be inside a wardrobe or something.
He tried to open the door by pushing, but it's locked, something's blocking it from the outside.
Without properly remembering what happened before he got locked up inside.
He tried to process the situation inside his head, but the memory of what his looking for didn't even slip in his mind.
Lost and confused, he remembers nothing.
~CRACK~ SHINGGG ~
A faint sound of a glass shattering distracted the boy from thinking, but what captured him the most was the loud scream of a girl coming from above.
After hearing such a familiar voice, he trembled in some kind of unbearable fear that he can't explain. His stomach crammed, and chest tightened, making it harder to breathe.
The echoes of her suffering are weighing the boy down on his knees with such undescribable despair.
Hands tightly gripped on his chest, as if he's gonna lose something important that he will surely regret if he stays in this isolated place.
Self driven by an unknown emotion, a strong feeling of rage urges in his body, slamming himself against the door, as hard as he can , desperately trying to break through.
SHIT!! IT WON'T BUDGE!!
The boy peeked from the narrow space between the doors, the place is dark, but he saw a big piece of wood branch, braced on both door handles.
'DARN IT!!'
No...I won't accept this!!
For an unknown reason, his resolve is strong, he can't bear himself from letting all this happen in his presence.
' I won't let this '
As the young boy struggles to get out , he can still clearly hear the girl's continuous screaming. She drives him even more crazy, desperately craving to be free.
Hearing her scream in pain, while fighting for survival, the boy can only imagine her struggling against the brute.
'I WON'T FORGIVE YOU '
An unknown emotion that pushes the boy up to the edge of his despair.
THIS CAN'T BE...I WON'T LET YOU DIE...
Screaming for something he can't explain, and at a loss of where this the word DIE for, or who is the person he meant with it. Is it for that girl?
IF SHE DIE....
His mind is blackened, and everything feels heavy....
I'LL KILL YOU!...NO MATTER WHAT!!... ILL KILL YOU, YOU BASTARD!!!
The strong intent that's much heavier than the weight of the world.
Such strong willed words just came out of him naturally without even thinking, as if his body is telling him the things it knows that his brain can't even tell what it is.
The will to save this girl is too strong, he won't dare to just stand by.
Fear flourishes in the boy's heart, as he thought of her dying... He slammed my whole body against the wall with all his might.
He managed to break the branch, along with the door handles.... The door burst open, throwing himself out and slumping onto the ground.
YES!...
He rejoiced in my mind as he got out of the wardrobe, but then remembered that it's too early for joy.
' She's waiting for me!'
He immediately pulled himself together and stood up, but something stumbled in my face.
DANG IT!! This place...!?
He just realized that his in a basement, which explains the heavy atmosphere... He's beneath the ground.
On the left wall, there are piles of fruit boxes, I hurried and spilled all the fruits and piled it up to make an improvised stair.
'I can't waste more time'
He was finally able to reach the trapdoor on the ceiling, he pushed against it as hard as he could.
As soon as it was about to be lifted up, Something heavy fell on it that shut it again.
His wrist twisted a little that gave him pain from the sudden impact.
His eyes couldn't believe what he was seeing.... Everything darkened... Blood dripping through the trapdoor, running down his cheek.
From a small hole on the trapdoor, he was able to see the girl's face clearly...but, it wasn't what he expected.
WHY!?
Muttering in confusion.
'...But why...why ... Why can't I remember...'
Tears fell from his eyes as he looked in her face... He wanted to scream, he wanted it to stop, and wanted to call her name....
but...
He doesn't remember..
His chest hurts even more as he looks at her from the narrow hole on the trapdoor.
' She's just right in front of me, yet I can't do anything...'
His thoughts are drowning in regrets and disappointment in himself.
He saw a man's arm grab the girl's hair and pull her up, but he couldn't see who it was.
What he was able to get a glimpse of, is a tattoo on that man's arms as he pulls the girl up ...
He could not bear to look at it any longer
STO-...
As he was about to call out again, he suddenly held back his voice and covered my mouth with his hands, and did not call out to her.
That girl...
she smiled and let a hissing sound, telling the boy to keep quiet...
WHY....
Tears fell down my cheek
Why are you smiling...!?
Muttering in despair
He tried to hold back his tears... But the brute man slapped her down like she was just nothing.
She stumbled hard on the ground, soaking in blood.
NOOOOO..... STOP IT, YOU BASTARD!!!
My voice came out, I screamed and cursed for them to stop...
My throat hurts from screaming, but no matter how much I call out, they can't hear me....
'No one hears me'
Anger drove me crazy, I shouted even more, louder, and more desperate, as if I'm about to break my own vocal chord.
I pushed hard through the trapdoor, slammed my face and shoulder on it, but it just won't open...
'Nothing is blocking it anymore, why won't it open..!?'
Watching her get beaten up to death, is much worst than any torture.
DON'T.. STOP IT.. I'LL KILL YOU... I SWEAR I'LL KILL YOU.. .YOU BASTARD!!!
Slamming against the trapdoor, screaming but still can't hear me....
WHY..?
Until one moment I heard my name...
JIN?
In a second, everything disappeared; The feeling of rage that I have been fighting for; the abyss of despair as I drown in, and the confusion about who I was even doing all this for....
JIN...? JIN...? JIN...?
A very soft and familiar voice callying me repeatedly, dragging me along with it...
'Who is it?'
Jin, wake up!
Wake up? ....
I asked in my self.
I opened my eyes, and still felt dazed from the awakening.
I saw Sister Lia sitting on my bed beside me...It was her voice that guided me back...
Sister, why are you here?
She let off a relieved face and smiled at me, but for some reason, deep inside, I thought that something is not the same.
Good thing you're awake now sleepyhead... You've been restless in your sleep...
She caresses my head as she expresses her concern.
Are you having a nightmare again...?
I don't know.... I can't remember ...
I looked at her face, trying to remember what I dreamed about...
...but, it feels so real...
I looked at her with a straight face
...I can't explain it sister!
I see!
Sister kisses my forehead to comfort me.
Don't worry cutie pie... children your age always get this feeling after dreaming, so don't worry about it too much, it's perfectly normal, okay!
Hmp!!...who's worried? You're worried... sister!
Ehhhhhhh?.. Jin, you're stingy...
Playfully ruffling my hair as I teased her.
After a playful talk, Sister finally left me alone in my room. I gaze outside the window as I try to recall what happened in that dream.
'Was it really just a dream?'
For some reason, I can't get over this feeling, I felt like I forgot something valuable that happened inside but I just can't remember.
The feeling of losing something familiar, but I don't have a memory of anything at all.
I want to remember... I don't want to forget...but I just can't...
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Somehow he's feeling disappointed. Is it because I can't remember, or it's because, everything was just all a dream.
But in him, if it is reality, there is a feeling that he refused to accept.
A part of him thinks that he wants it to be real, but then he thinked again..
AFTER ALL....IT WAS JUST A DREAM...