Maria paced her studio like a caged animal, her movements restless and agitated. The room, once her sanctuary, now felt stifling. The familiar scents of turpentine and oil paints, usually so soothing, failed to calm the storm within her. The brushes lay abandoned on the table, their bristles stiffening from neglect. Canvas leaned against the walls, half-finished, mirroring the fractured pieces of her own life.
The guilt was unbearable. Maria had always taken pride in being Tina's protector. From their childhood in a modest, turbulent household, Maria had been the one to shield her younger sister from the harshness of their reality. Tina's innocence had been a light in Maria's otherwise shadowed world. And now she had been the one to jeopardise it.
Every time Tina spoke about Vincent, her voice laced with excitement, Maria's insides twisted with shame. Tina's descriptions of him—his charm, his intellect, his "selflessness"—were d daggers to Maria's heart. How could Tina, so perceptive in her art, be so blind to the man beneath the polished exterior? Maria wanted to scream the truth, to shatter the illusion Vincent had so skilfully crafted, but she couldn't bring herself to do it.
To tell Tina the truth about Vincent would mean exposing her own betrayal. She would have to admit to her sister that she had been the one to introduce him into her life, knowing full well the kind of man he was. Worse still, it would mean confessing her own tangled, toxic history with him. The affair that had once felt like an escape now loomed over her like a dark cloud, its repercussions rippling outward in ways she hadn't foreseen.
One particularly sleepless night, Maria found herself drawn to the corner of her studio, where her journal lay buried under stacks of sketches and art supplies. It had been years since she'd last opened it. Back then, the journal had been her refuge, a place to pour out her frustrations, her dreams, and her doubts. Now, it called to her like an old friend, a witness to her private despair.
She hesitated, her fingers trembling as she flipped through the worn pages. The entries from her younger days seemed almost foreign now, filled with a hope and ambition that felt distant. Finally, she turned to a blank page, the emptiness both daunting and liberating. Taking a deep breath, she picked up a pen and began to write.
At first, the words came slowly, haltingly, as if she were afraid of the truths they might reveal. But soon, they began to flow in a torrent of confession and anguish.
"I don't even know who I am anymore," she scrawled, the ink bleeding through the thin paper. "I thought I could control this, that I could steer the situation without anyone getting hurt. But I've been lying to myself. I see the way he looks at her, and I can't help but wonder if I've handed her over to the same trap I fell into."
Her pen moved faster now, driven by an almost manic energy. She wrote about her affair with Vincent—the highs and lows, the moments of passion that had quickly soured into something darker. She recounted the suffocating dependency that had made her feel simultaneously exhilarated and powerless. And she admitted the truth she had been avoiding: she had underestimated the depth of Vincent's manipulative charm.
"He's dangerous," she wrote, the words underlined with force. "Not in the way people think. He doesn't need to raise his voice or his hand to hurt you. He gets inside your mind, makes you doubt yourself, and makes you feel like you can't live without him. I see it happening to Tina, and I feel like I'm watching her walk toward a cliff, unable to stop her."
Tears blurred her vision as she continued. "I've lost my way. I thought I was strong enough to control this, but I was wrong. I thought I was protecting myself, but all I've done is put Tina in danger. And now, I don't know how to undo it."
By the time she set the pen down, her hands were trembling, and her chest felt hollow. The studio was silent except for the sound of her ragged breathing. She stared at the words on the page, their stark honesty both terrifying and relieving. For the first time in weeks, she felt a flicker of clarity amid the chaos.
Closing the journal, Maria wiped her eyes and leaned back in her chair. Her guilt was still there, heavy and suffocating, but it was joined by something else—resolve. She couldn't erase what had been done; she couldn't take back the choices that had led them here. But she could still act. She could still find a way to steer Tina away from Vincent before it was too late.
Maria stood and walked to the window, looking out at the city lights twinkling in the distance. Somewhere out there, Tina was probably smiling, blissfully unaware of the storm brewing around her. Maria's heart ached at the thought, but it also steeled her resolve. She had failed Tina once, but she wouldn't fail her again.
"I don't know how," Maria whispered to herself, her voice barely audible, "but I'll fix this. I'll protect her. Even if it costs me everything."
With that, Maria turned back to her easel, her mind already racing with plans. She didn't have all the answers yet, but she knew one thing for certain: she wouldn't let Vincent destroy Tina the way he had almost destroyed her. Not if she could help it.