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Chapter 38 - Chapter 38: The Tension Unfolds

The mansion hummed with an unusual stillness, the air thick with unspoken words. Clara sat in her greenhouse, her refuge from the storm brewing between her and Benjamin. She carefully trimmed the leaves of her hydrangeas, but her mind wandered. The revelation of Benjamin's fight with the Blackstone Crew's enforcer still lingered, a thorn in her otherwise beautiful world.

She wasn't angry because he fought—she had accepted the darkness in Benjamin's life. What hurt her was the secrecy. Every time he hid something from her, it felt like he was building a wall between them, a wall that made her feel more like an outsider in his world.

A soft knock interrupted her thoughts. Clara looked up to see Lydia, one of the house staff, standing hesitantly at the greenhouse door.

"Miss Clara," Lydia said gently, "Mr. Benjamin asked me to tell you dinner is ready."

Clara forced a smile. "Thank you, Lydia. I'll be there soon."

The older woman hesitated, as if debating whether to say more. Finally, she added, "He's been worried about you, miss. Maybe... maybe you two just need to talk."

Clara nodded, but her heart remained heavy. She wasn't ready to forgive him—not yet.

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Benjamin sat at the dining table, his eyes trained on the door. When Clara entered, she looked radiant as always, her presence filling the room with warmth. But her gaze didn't meet his, and she took her seat with an air of quiet detachment.

Dinner began in silence, the only sounds the clinking of silverware and the soft rustle of the servants moving around. Benjamin's patience wore thin as he watched Clara barely touch her food.

"Clara," he finally said, breaking the silence. "We need to talk."

She set down her fork, her expression calm but distant. "About what, Benjamin?"

"You know what."

Clara leaned back in her chair, crossing her arms. "If this is about the fight, there's nothing left to say. You made it clear that you don't trust me enough to share what's happening in your life."

His jaw tightened. "It's not about trust, Clara. It's about keeping you safe. If something happened to you because of my world, I could never forgive myself."

"And if something happens to you, Benjamin?" she countered, her voice rising. "Do you think it's any easier for me to live with the thought of losing you? You don't protect me by shutting me out—you only make me feel more alone."

Her words cut deep, and Benjamin struggled to find a response. He hated seeing her like this, but he didn't know how to bridge the gap between them.

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Later that evening, Benjamin retreated to his study, the weight of their argument pressing heavily on him. He poured himself a glass of whiskey and stared out the window, the city lights twinkling in the distance.

He thought about Clara's words, about how his attempts to shield her were only pushing her away. It wasn't what he wanted—Clara was the one bright spot in his life, the one person who made him believe in something good.

A knock at the door pulled him from his thoughts. He turned to see Marcus standing there, his expression serious.

"What is it?" Benjamin asked, his tone sharper than he intended.

Marcus hesitated before stepping inside. "There's been movement from the Blackstone Crew. They're gathering near the docks. Looks like they're planning something big."

Benjamin's eyes narrowed. The docks were a vital part of his operations, and he couldn't afford to lose control of them.

"Gather the men," he said. "We'll handle it tonight."

Marcus nodded and left, leaving Benjamin alone once more. He took another sip of his whiskey, his mind already strategizing. But as he prepared to leave, his thoughts turned to Clara. Would she ever forgive him for what he had to do?

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Meanwhile, Clara sat in their bedroom, staring at the bouquet of roses Benjamin had left on the nightstand. She wanted to forgive him—wanted to believe that his secrecy came from a place of love. But every time she thought about the fight, her anger flared anew.

She sighed and reached for her phone, scrolling aimlessly through her messages. A notification caught her eye: a text from Lydia.

"Miss Clara, please be careful. The Blackstone Crew is dangerous, and Mr. Benjamin is handling them tonight. I thought you should know."

Clara's heart sank. He was going out again, risking his life, and he hadn't told her. The cycle was repeating itself, and she didn't know how much more of it she could take.

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At the docks, the air was thick with tension. Benjamin stood at the forefront of his men, his sharp gaze scanning the shadows. The Blackstone Crew had made their move, but Benjamin was ready.

The confrontation was swift and brutal. Benjamin moved like a shadow, his strikes precise and unrelenting. His men followed suit, overpowering the Blackstone Crew with a coordinated attack. Within minutes, the docks were secure, and the remaining Blackstone members were fleeing into the night.

Benjamin wiped the blood from his hands, his expression unreadable. Victory tasted hollow when he thought about Clara and the rift between them.

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When Benjamin returned home, it was well past midnight. He found Clara sitting on the edge of their bed, her arms wrapped around herself. She looked up as he entered, her eyes filled with a mix of relief and anger.

"You went to the docks," she said, her voice trembling.

"How did you—"

"Lydia told me," she interrupted. "And don't try to defend her. She only told me because she knew you wouldn't."

Benjamin sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Clara, I didn't want you to worry."

"I'm always going to worry, Benjamin," she said, standing to face him. "Do you think that keeping me in the dark makes it any easier? Do you think it hurts less?"

He reached for her, but she stepped back, tears welling in her eyes.

"I love you," she said, her voice breaking. "But I can't keep doing this. You have to let me in, or we'll never work."

Benjamin's heart ached as he saw the pain in her eyes. He realized then that protecting her didn't mean keeping her at arm's length—it meant trusting her, even when it scared him.

"I'm sorry, Clara," he said, his voice soft. "I'll try to do better. I promise."

She looked at him for a long moment before finally stepping into his arms. They held each other tightly, the weight of their emotions spilling over.

For the first time in days, the tension began to ease. But both of them knew that trust wouldn't be rebuilt overnight. It would take time, patience, and a willingness to face the darkness together.

And for Benjamin, it was a challenge he was finally ready to accept.