Estheria was a small woman, only five feet. She often felt vulnerable, due to her size and sex, and constantly looked over her shoulder whenever she was out in public. She never felt too attractive, she had a pudgy belly, stretch marks, cellulite, thunder thighs that doubled in size when she sat. She was chubby, with pale skin due to her lack of sunlight, dark circles and sunken in eyebags that just looked strange when concealed with makeup. 

Her hair was always frizzy, and she barely bothered to match outfits, just slabbed on whatever she thought was comfortable with no regard for color or look. Yet, somehow, despite these oddities, people were inexplicably called to her - even if she felt uncomfortable with their need for her. 

She just wanted to be cared for, and seen more than for her body and curves. She wanted to be held, shown soft affection like one does to a fluffy kitten, not seen as some sort of creature to be touched and treated with no regard to its feelings. She often felt like an 'it', more than a person, especially by men.