*Jax*
Being in a relationship was work. No one had told me earlier and maybe I wouldn't prepared or at least know what I was getting myself into. I didn't know that I was going to have to be a shoulder for someone to lean on or a therapist for someone to rant to and I certainly didn't know I had to calm someone down and also make them feel good about themselves.
Maybe Leonora could see that I wasn't so skilled in the dating world but why is she still with me? Why did she choose to stick around after all I had done? I definitely wouldn't have stayed with myself. Just thinking about everything I had done was enough to make me hate myself.
If I had just tried to get to know her or at least talk to her, maybe our relationship would have been different. I knew that our last was still dangling over our heads like a piano held by a tiny string. I was scared every moment that maybe that piano would fall and she would realize I wasn't worth it.
