We eat quietly together, Well it's not really quite. She eats likes it's her first time eating food or whatever. I looked into her and observe her eating so fast, that I already prepared a cup of water at my hand incase if she choke herself.
I wanted to say to her to slowdown, but she seems to be liking the food very much to eat that fast so I just not bother her.
I still cannot believe what just happened. The character of my novel is infront of me eating soundly. What am I going to do now? Will I make her live with me? What if I would bot let her live here and she will became homeless and some pervert guy will molest her. Still looking at her thinking about what should I do.
"Pervert."
"Ack-" I reflexively looked away.
I didn't even notice that I was staring at her smiling like a creep. It would creep me out though if an stranger watch you eat with a grin in his face. Well she's not really a stranger to me, but it's that she just know me yesterday.
What should I do know? I look back at her. Eating soundly I observe her and notice that her dress was so eye-catching. Should I buy her a new clothes? How about her underwear? Well I really know what her size, but it's really weird if I just buy her an underwear afterall.
"You keep looking at me while I'm eating do you have something to say?"
"Well it's just I'm thinking about your clothing-" I respond subconsciously.
I immediately covered my mouth after I realize what I've said.
I messed up, she will call me a pervert again. What should I do?
"I-I, mean. I-It's just your clothing is so eye-catching. Don't you want to explore outside? I-I'm just thinking if should we buy clothes for you." I reasoned to her with a big smile in a face like a child lying to her parents.
Will she think of me like a creep now? Well she already did, but she will really think I'm a creep.
She stops eating.
I really messed up. Should I add more reason for her? I should just shut my mouth.
"Will it not cause you inconvenience?"
"N-no it's okay." I respond to her immediately.
Wait. She's not mad? With all that anxiety? It's not like I want her to be mad, but... I did prepared myself on what she's going to say. Well it's unexpected but I do really like this way.
"..."
"Plus I have responsibility of you so I should do this much."
"But-"
"If you really that guilty, then you could just work with me. I will pay you so that you can repay me."
I did say that but I'm really short on money right now. I should have just find a job as soon as I graduated.
"T-thank you."
She smiled so pretty that I felt that's there's something pointy pierced my heart.
I'm proud of myself of raising her like this.
It's kinda similar of raising her though. I look at her, and she starts eating again. I stared at her for a while thinking how beautiful I created was. She looks at me, but this time she doesn't say anything.
Am I gaining her trust now? I need to do well to gain her trust. I'm like a father to her.
Well it's just me being delusional that she was my daughter. If I have a daughter would it be like pretty like her? As if I could pull a girl as pretty as her. I'm just a freeloader man who didn't even have a job, and just can barely make himself survive.
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We will going out now should I let her out in a dress like that?
After we eat I asked her to go shopping together to buy her clothes. It's like a date right? Well it's not.
"You should change your clothes."
"I don't have any change."
"Don't worry I let you borrow some."
I looked at my drawer and search for clothes. Shit I forgot that I don't have any new set of clothes, because it's rare for me to go out. I kept searching for a minute and saw a dress that from my mother, it's just got here when my mother visits here one time and she make me wash her clothes and didn't get it back. I walk out at my room. I look infront and she was waiting at me at the sofa siting while watching some TV. I stared her for a while, I feel like a father watching his daughter who gets excited.
"Can you stop staring at me?"
"H-here is this okay?"
I showed her the clother after I realize that I was staring at her.
"..."
I was looking at my dress and didn't heard a respond. When I look at her, her face was covered red.
Wait is she blushing? Why?
I look at the dress I'm holding then noticed that it's a dress that was above knee.
Ughhh. I messed up again.
I look for something that can help me up with the situation. I looked around finding something that can be any of help. When I look at the window I saw a jacket hanging on the hanger. I walk to it and pick it.
"Don't worry you can use this to cover your legs."
I showed the jacket to her and wrapped it at my wrist to demonstrate.
"It's okay you can cover your legs woth these."
I offer her the dress and the jacket.
"You can change at the bathroom."
She stand and get the jacket and head to the bathroom. I look at her as she heads to the bathroom to change. As she was on the door she looks at me and said.
"If you peak I'll slice you."
"Don't worry I won't."
Sigh.
I wait her for a few minutes.
Why it takes her so long to just change? I thought of my self as I was sitting at the couch watching TV.
A few seconds later there's a sudden sound of a door opening. Reflexively look at the direction of the sound and saw...