My name is Rick Rhodes. I live alone, eat alone, sleep alone and do everything else alone. I have to, because I lack empathy and just don't fit in. As much as I enjoy being around people, they don't seem to enjoy being around me. I work from home for a company that doesn't care about my existence. I have decided my plan, In 2 weeks, It's over. I will take my own life if nothing changes.
Day one/ Fourteen
Beep, Beep, Beep
The alarm blares. I opened my eyes to the same sound I've been waking up to for 3 years straight. I stepped out of bed, my feet hitting the cold wood floor. I stepped over to my drawer and reached inside, grabbing a pair of socks. I sat on the bed, sliding the warm fabric over my cold feet. I looked over to my calendar. Fourteen days until I can be at peace. I stood up, walking to my bathroom to brush my teeth. My reflection stared back at me. The only human I've seen in years that actually noticed me. I stuck the toothbrush in my mouth, the bristles rubbing my teeth, scraping the gunk off. The toothbrush is what I need in my life. To scrape the dirt away. I turned the sink off and walked over to my desk, turning my laptop on. The light from the screen blaring into my eyes, I opened the software my work created and logged in.
User: RickRhodes82
Password:
I worked for the hospital; my job was to check the billing of patients and make sure everything was correct. I attend the meetings, but nobody ever seems to care.
"Bill, any questions?"
"Nope"
"Cassie?"
"All good"
My boss would go through everyone except me.
I filed the work of the accounts, some alive, some dead. There was multiple that had committed suicide, and more who failed. I don't feel empathy most of the time, but I do when it comes to failed Suicide attempts. I know much about them. In fourteen days, I can't fail. Not anymore. When my day is over, I DoorDash some liquor to my apartment. I drink until I feel nothing. Only then, I can sleep.
The next morning, I repeat the same process
"Bill, any questions?"
"Nope"
"Cassie?"
"All good"
"Rick? Any questions?"
Holy shit. She actually asked me for once.
"Nop-' I began to reply before it started.
Beep, Beep, Beep
It was just a dream.