How can you define an opportunity? Because, whatever was unfolding to Philip, he termed that as an opportunity.
Yes, he was supposed to get satisfied with the sex last night but, how can someone say goodbye to something that amazing? He got a taste of a honey and now Philip wanted to befriend the bees.
The silence that engulfed after the question was deafening and very much awkward. Unnerving Aiden more and more for it was clear that they weren't 'just' friends and he could lie all he wants but, it was clear as day how much he wanted for Philip to be otherwise. It was a sudden realization that made it all the more weirder.
"This is happening?" Started Philip with a not so happy chuckle. Was he disappointed? Of course not! But, was he excited at least? Not that either. Improvising wasn't his strong suit.
"It's not a prank now is it? Where's the camera, Aiden?" Asked Philip testing the waters. You never know with men these days and their pranks. Was Aiden the type?
"I'm not playing, Philip" Said Aiden in a deadpan tone, he was as serious as they come and guilty too but, there wasn't a single trace of regret in Aiden's features.
"I have no memories of you. Of us. I got nothing here! You could be a killer for all I know!" Explained Aiden as he was lowering his guard down. Gone was the panic in his voice.
"Well, then we need to have a full stomach for this" Said Philip before walking to the closet and wore Aiden's tshirt and boxer shamelessly before throwing a pair at Aiden's direction like that was a natural thing to do between. Who the hell was Philip in his life?
Philip couldn't believe his ears! Well, for two things mainly. One, he was happy to find the guy hanging on to reality by a thread which was a loophole.
He doesn't remember? Great! All the more stage for Philip's storyline he made up the night before.
And two, It was disappointing. He felt a connection with a guy and the night before? Was nothing short of heaven. He was a charming gentleman. Should he just tell him the truth and go with the story he made the night before? Or he could just give his story a background?
"Thanks... So?" Inquired Aiden very much invested but, he couldn't lie that seeing Philip all ten toes down in his kitchen was doing things to him. To hell with Mia and her two timing blow!. There was a Mia, right?
"How long have we been together?" Asked Aiden curiously as he was trying hard to read the calendar on the fridge. He started with together? What happened to the 'What is our relationship?' He was thinking about earlier?.
"Not that long actually" Replied Philip while scrambling the eggs to mask his shaking hands. An wide opening for his story, should he just go for it?.
"You see, we were in a secret relationship for a period of two years" Said Philip holding his breath and waiting.
"Two years? What year is this?" Inquired Aiden shocked before he was stunned and ashamed.
So he was two timing Mia? With a man? Why was he feeling hurt then? He still does though. Was his ego that big?. He felt sick to his stomach.
Suddenly, he didn't wish to listen for anything any longer and just went to hug the shit out of Philip who was seriously startled.
Philip thought that to be too sudden to accept a situation. Was Aiden playing with him?
"I'm sorry, I made you a secret" Whispered Aiden, feeling so hurt and broken for Philip.
"Nobody deserves to be just 'an affair'" Said Aiden meaning every word making it hard for Philip to not melt in his embrace. Was that wise?
"No, you didn't! I decided that on myself, remember?" Coaxed Philip turning to face the guy but, only to meet his broad hard chest first and a very yummy neck along the way to his warm expression on his face. What was they talking about again?. He just wanted to kiss the guy and bring that feral bull of last night.
"Why?" Asked Aiden confused. Who would want to be kept a secret. Was Aiden the one who was a secret? Was being with him that shameful?
"Why what?" Asked Philip with a dry throat making Aiden's eyebrow cock upward instead of answering but later on relenting.
"Why did you decide to make yourself 'an affair'?" Clarified Aiden with a knowing smile dancing on his lips when he saw the look of lost in Philip's face as he was trying on something other than Aiden's lips. Quite an ego booster. No words needed.
"Because, I'm a bl actor and in this country? That context is a death wish. I just didn't want you to get hurt. That's why, I begged you to date that girl" Explained Philip casually but, was freaking out since from the moment they met, Aiden didn't speak of an Ex so, he wasn't sure if he did have one to begin with. He just kept crying 'Why me' 'What did I do so wrong?' When they met. It was a risky game.
"Mia..." Aiden breathed the word and honest to God? Her name still tasted bitter on his tongue. What did he do so wrong?
"Yes, Mia!" Philip repeated the name excitedly before hitting Aiden's chest playfully and biting on his Adam apple. Who knew taking such a risk could pay handsomely like that. He was on a lucky streak!
"Easy there, monkey" Teased Aiden backing off from Philip's hungry hold with a chuckle.
Aiden was very much still confused that was clear as the day and unfamiliar with Philip obviously.
So, touching his body like that didn't feel as natural as he thought it would feel but, he was excited and it felt new and... Let's just say that being with Philip like that gave him a sense of home. Or if he was being honest? He couldn't let himself think of Mia when he's with Philip. That's a bonus.
Don't worry, he gets that it's weird and all but, that doesn't mean it's not true.
"Monkey?! Did you just_? Are you seriously being a racist now?" Asked Philip seemingly offended by that for he was black.
"Woah, No. Please, I didn't... I couldn't..." Stuttered Aiden making Philip laugh aloud before caging the guy, "This is fun"
"Don't play with me like that! I don't want to hurt you. Not in this life. Not ever" Declared Aiden cupping Philip's face to look up at him. He meant it!.
He didn't know Philip but, he never wishes to see him in pain. He had a feeling that Philip had already been there and already done the healing part. So, he couldn't possibly bring any more trashy past.
"You are a good man, Aiden. Thank you for everything" Said Philip before accepting the kiss from Aiden and it was... Heaven. Where was he all his life?
Philip never knew a kiss can make a person that vulnerable, weak and very much a mess. Such a raw, wild, overwhelming sense of owning a soul.
Was it wise getting tangled up with Aiden like this?. He could even feel his confusion and genuinity in the kiss. Aiden was truly an open book that it scared Philip shitless. You just don't break a person like that? You become a murderer for killing a spirit.
The act was beginning to feel real to Philip. He was being played!. And much so because, they spent twenty minutes to keep the kitchen intact from the fire that erupted from the frying pan.
He was never distracted in the kitchen before. Not even once!