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Try focusing on your leg & hip to control your kick" my brother said to me. I tried and failled miserably but he didn't feel disappointed, yet he felt relieved. After the trainning I asked my brother "Why we have to learn fighting, my teacher said to not hurt each other. Maybe we shouldn't learn thesse things". My brother smilled and replied "Nair, Learning martial ar and fighting Isn't for hurting each other, maybe you will understand when you grow up a bit ". Yeah I was 11 then, I didn't understand a single thing my brother said to me. But still I was always with him, because even if I didn't understand, it was fun. My brother " Sarun" is not my biological brother, he is my cousin. But ever since I was born I had found him with me when needed. Thus I become attached to him and over time I would go to his house in the weekend or in vacation time, even sometime I would ditch my school and go to him. Whenever I went to him, I would see him trainning, learning martial arts or doing some strange things I dont even know. But I thought it may be fun, so I joined him.

Well, It was fun since me joinning him became a permanent thing. As I grew up I always trained with him, listen to his stange words and spent hours doing so. Sometime our parents would call us because its too late and we didn't even reconsider the time. It was so fun but yet hard at the same time. Why? Well he would always give me harder exercise or mission and the boundery of "hard" seems to be rising as I grow up. He would sometime ask me to do a handstand or ask me to do odd things like "Go to school tomorrow and ask a friend if he wants to hear an interesting story, if your friend agrees to hear it then delay it by saying 'nevermimd, maybe tomorrow', and watch him suffer" it was such a silly task but I did it anyway and my friends reaction was hallirias. I would sometime ask him why is he giving me so much training & task when I am just a child and I have plently of time in future to train myself, my brother always replied to this type of answer with "Nair, dont assume you have time, when you dont know what the future holds, just do today what you could do in the future if possible ". Sometime when he says this line, he wouls say it like he experienced something similar or has seen the future and sometime he couldn't even finish this sentence properly its like something blocks him from speaking so he would say something confusing like " Even if we could do somethng for the future, can it change ones fate? " thus he seemed to be struggling with his own mindset and words. He was strange or maybe the strangest human being I have ever seen. 

However I had already loved him so much that I couldn't imagine living my life without him. Growing with him was like a adventure yet we were just in-door. As we were having fun with our own world, another cousin even younger than me joined our crew. Well I made that crew thing up, but whatever. My brother first didn't like the idea of another one joinning in his dailly schedule because he didn't want to bother his parents or the neighbours as he was already being seen as an addball. But he was easy to convince or rather kind enough to let him join anyway. Thus we formed our new team, well it wasnt an official team formed by my brother but we all unconsciously knew that it was like a team. We trained, learned martial arts, learned my brother's strange philosophies, Theories,techniques and many things that back then we didnt know that we are learning. Like that many year has passed, 

I am now 16 and my younger cousin is 12 and our Master I mean Big Brother is maybe 20 or so. Our weekly schedule is still as before. We have been trainning covering all fundamentals. But for some months now we couldn't continue frequently because of my brother studies and personal issues. As I remeber his friends also bullied him sometime because he always plays with us (Play in their POV), well bullying my brother was not a good diea since he later educated the bully friend properly, We didn't know the details lol. But it was not a good reflection to the society to always hangout with us and not with his friends or people of his age. Of course my brother was aware of this but what most people didnt know that my brother has friends he hangout with but not that frequently. He was veey cautious of friend as he would say "Friends are more dangerous than enemies, choose your friend carefully. Remeber you dont need many friends but only 'true' friends". I wonder what he meant by 'True friend'. But whatever, now we haven't meet for a few week it wasnt that bad but it has come to this anyway. I was eager to meet him and the day came eventually. It was the last day may, we met at his house's roof. We did some exercise and sat for a moment to appreciate the night sky full of starts. 

- " I hardly notice any starts nowadays ' I said, "Because you are too dumb to notice them brother " mocked me, my younger cousin "Ahn"

And we started arguing & roasting each other, my younger brother Ahn is still very young but he is kinda smarter than of his age. If I remeber I couldn't even comprehend properly what my big brother says but this brat casually understands and reflects to what my big brother says. But no matter how smart he is, he is still a brat & annoying as ever. As we are fighting suddenly my brother said

- "We can't meet for weeks again, it seems the future is quite a hard one", 

again with his twisted words but when he says sething like that it means it is very serious or important, we immediately stopped fighting and listen to what he says. As he kept looking at sky I felt a sense of sadness in his words. Its as if he is saying it like a goodbye to us. Little did we know our night has already come to an end, our parents called us to go back, to them it was just a silly playing thing but only we knew what it meant to us. We went back to our house as our big brother walk us home. 

- " When can we meet again master?" I asled. My big brother didnt answer for a while its as if he himself didint know. But after some moments he said 

- "Not long if I work hard ". We both students of my brother smiled and went back joyfully to our house. Before ending our meeting the last thing he said was " Its june again", I kept thinking about what happened in june? But I wish I knew that it was the last thing I would hear from my brother because after that night everything had changed.