Rivelda…
Well here I was bored again with nothing to do, I did thought of watching Netflix as it was already night but decided against it because maybe he didn't like noise and I'll get in trouble if I go down to the cinema room downstairs. Well like a dream I'm getting married tomorrow and to a man that ignores and hate my gut. But maybe after we get married and like a week or two he would accept me because I also was forced into this marriage and didn't have a choice. I was really happy though because Lilly found her love in this shit situation and was happy, I also hoped that we would be happy after the marriage because I loved the idea of falling in love. My train of thoughts were however interrupted when I heard footsteps and I knew he was coming up because only him in this house had loud footsteps while the rest behaved Like ghosts. Immediately I saw him I knew he was angry because his jaw was clenched and he had his fists balled up, when he spotted me his rage just shifted to disgust and irritation. And I didn't even do anything but thanked God I didn't go to watch the movie again, well since we'll be married tomorrow let me go and ask him for my wedding gown. I walked up to him and before I opened my mouth, he spoke "oddio, e adesso"(oh god, what now). I gave him a confused look and I guess he realized I didn't speak Italian and with a stressed and rude tone he said "what do you want now" His way of talking offended me but I looked down and with the most gentle tone I had I said " I only wanted to ask for my wedding gown". And that seemed to trigger him and he glared at me like I killed his entire family and if looks could kill I'd be long gone. He ignored me and started walking off towards his room fuming with rage. I got confused and followed him and asked again "did you hear me…" before I could finish he snapped and grabbed my wrist tight and yelled angrily "I heard you but I don't want to fucking answer you leave me alone for fucks sake ah Cazzo". I stood there frightened and hurt at his outburst and to top it all his grip was hurting my wrist and before I could stop myself I began crying and apologizing " I'm sorry that I disturbed you please let me go" he let go of my wrist hissed and and said "pathetic weakling" and he turned around and slammed the door hard. I quickly ran off to my room and into the bathroom as I held my wrist and cried it had turned red and hurt like hell. This is the man I was marring tomorrow and I'd be stuck with him forever, I applied some ointment I got from the first aid kit and bandaged the hand. I thought to myself so am going to be in an abusive and loveless marriage all my live and this made me cry and hate my father even more because he got me in this mess but a part of me thought maybe he had a lot to deal with and needed space am sure he didn't mean it and would be nice after the wedding. Yes I agreed that was the reason for his behaviour and I stopped crying and calmed myself. I then did my night routine and showered before putting my two piece night gown and going to sleep.
Leandro…
I got a call from Romano and he told me that the snitch was still not identified and that made me soo angry I yelled at him for being useless and demanded he find him in The next two days or I'll personally execute him. I looked at the time and saw it was already past 12 so I head upstairs to sleep. I totally forgot about her till I saw her walking up to me smiling and that seem to disgust me though her smile was earth shattering I still didn't care. As soon as she came near me I knew she wanted to ask me so something and before she could talk I said in Italian " oh god, what now". She looked at me confused then I figured she didn't speak Italian and I asked what she wanted in english already irritated and tired. With a calm and gentle tone she said "I only wanted to ask for my wedding gown" and smiled, her smile seemed to have triggered me more and I chose to ignore her and take a cold shower to calm myself so I wouldn't do something bad. But she started following me and she asked if I didn't hear her but I didn't let her finish and I grabbed her wrist and squeezed it and I gave her a stern warning to leave me alone because for some reason the fact that she asked meant she was happy about this wedding. And that made me wish to kill her right there but I knew my mom would kill me to join her so instead I inflicted pain on her. She immediately started crying and apologizing ooh god she was so weak which made me cringe even more because after betrayers I hated weak people the most. And she crying meant she was weak I let go of her and made sure she knew my thoughts about her and entered by room leaving her behind crying. Immediately I got In I took off my suit and took a cold shower when I was done I changed to some black sweatpants and black t-shirt and sat on my bed thinking. Like a joke I was really getting married tomorrow and also two days later it would be Kass and Lilly's turn. And soon everyone would expect us to have a child which was soo useless because I hated the girl to the bone although she didn't do anything. I shrugged the thoughts away and decided to sleep because tomorrow was going to be a very long day.