Samuel's POV
I feel like shit, I just feel miserable, I spent the last three weeks trying to convince myself that what I did was for the best and that everything was fine between angel and I even if she wasn't picking her calls and replying my messages even if she ignored me and avoided me that everything was still fine and that she would be back to me, I tried to reach out to her mum but she still wouldn't let me speak to her, even my own mum is pissed at me
But I think I really hurt her but I don't know how I did, we kissed and I really didn't mean to, maybe I shouldn't have called her a mistake but it really was a mistake it was a spur of the moment thing
"Earth to Samuel"
"Mm" I look up to see Alex in front of me
"What's this ?, today's our graduation (even though it has ended)and your being like this"
" Nothing is wrong "
" I thought you were over Lizzy already or was I wrong? "
" U are not wrong, I indeed am over her"
" Then what is wrong? "
" I am just scared "
" Of what?, not being able to graduate? " He says while smirking
" I have graduated already asshole"
" Then what is it, scared Mama's gonna say no university for you?
" Not that, I am scared cause of angel "
" What happened to her?, she's okay now, I saw her earlier and she looked perfectly fine"
" She's avoiding me"
" Why?, what did you do again?"
" I think I really messed up this time, but I don't know how what I did pissed her off to this extent. We haven't spoken once in three weeks "
" Wow, that's surprising cause she's always there for you"
" I know and I feel really guilty"
" I saw her by the picture stand she was there with my baby"
" Success? "
" Yes, who else? "
" Okay thanks guy"
Running, I make my way to the picture stand to make things right with my kitten once and for all, I really am sorry and I would do anything to prove that to her. On getting there, our eyes meet and I smile at her but she just turns and starts walking away
" Angel wait"
"... "
"Please hear me out" but she doesn't stay and instead continues walking
" You are really brave, coming here and acting all high and mighty" success says while glaring at me
" Uhm, can you help me tell her that I am very sorry that I wish she gives me a chance to make things right again" I say, giving her an awkward smile
" Again?, another chance after you broke her heart?, you want another chance so you can break it again ? "She says while looking at me with disgust written all over her face
" I really want to apologize, what do you mean with the breaking of heart stuff? " I ask, confused
" So you are trying to tell me you don't know ? " She raises a brow
" Know what? "
" Oh my God, you're so blind even a blind person could see that angel likes you but what did you do?, you called her a mistake to her face. I am really disappointed in you Samuel, I really thought you would be a decent person based on how Alex speaks high of you"
" WHAT?!, what do you mean she likes me?, that can't be possible" i say not believing anything she was saying
" If you like believe it and if you like don't believe it, it's your cup of tea or coffee whichever you like not mine" she says and walks away probably going home now as our graduation was over.
" She can't like me"I mumble to myself, that can't be true. I need to find her so we can sort this out. I start running to catch up with her but I can't seem to find her anywhere, she's not in the hall maybe she is in the parking lot, yeah she's probably gonna be there with that in mind, I make my way towards the parking lot
"Angel" I call out as soon as I see her
*No response*
"If you don't want to talk that's okay, just listen to me please"
"What do you want ?"
"I just want you to hear me out please"
"What do you have to explain? And why do I have to hear you out? "
" I want to apologize about what I said the last time"
" Oh that?, I'm fine thank you"
" Kitten-"
" DO NOT CALL ME THAT"
" Fine, Angel I really didn't mean to hurt your feelings when I said that, I thought we were both gonna agree that it was a mistake"
" You called me a mistake Samuel, I wouldn't even do that to my worse nemesis but you called me your Best friend a mistake well it's okay cause I am not even staying around you so. "
Hearing her call me my name hurts so bad, I just want my best friend back
" I really am sorry Angel, can you let me make things right please"
" I said I was fine and there is nothing to make right"
" There is a lot to make right and what do you mean you're not staying around me? " My heart was beating fast enough to make me die of an heart attack
"You heard right"
"What do you mean?, you're leaving me?"
"Do not say it like we are a thing Samuel, we were best friends but I don't think I can do that anymore" She says and i felt my heart shattering into a million pieces
"Is this cause I told you that kissing you was a mistake when you liked me ?"
"What?!, who told you that?"
"Tell me if it's true or not"
"So what if it's true, it doesn't matter again anyway"
"So it is true and you couldn't tell me
She scoffs" tell you?, you were mopping about for Lizzy and you expect me to tell you that i like you so you can tell me to suck it up or worse use me as a coping mechanism right?"
Speechless, I try to find words to refute her but I can't seem to find any words"..... "
" You see, you can't even say anything, even if I told you, you would have brushed it aside so I didn't tell you now you're coming here and acting like you actually care?"
"I.. I do care" I say meaning every word
"It doesn't matter anymore and if you care to know, I am leaving town and moving away for university" she says her voice void of any emotion and I am surprised by the stranger talking to me
" Where are you going? " I say with tears in my eyes
" None of your business, even if it was your business I wouldn't tell you. Have a nice life"
And she got inside the car and drove off, I just stood there and I felt my whole world crashing down.
I mistakenly kissed my best friend and I called her a mistake, she got mad and I found out she has feelings for me and now she's leaving me. I really don't know what to say other than just repeating 'i am sorry' over and over again like a broken record even if I knew she couldn't hear me