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Not to brag but I'm going insane!

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Hi, I’m Pax, and this is the story of how my life just keeps finding new ways to get worse. If you’re here for some clumsy girl tangled in boy problems or stuck in a cliché love triangle, let me save you the trouble—this isn’t that kind of story. This is real life, people. What? Don’t give me that look. Just because I’m fictional doesn’t make me any less real. Okay it kind of does but that's not the point! So, are you going to read my story or not? Trust me, it’s a mess—but it’s my mess. And you might just like it. Or not if you don't have senses of humour.
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Chapter 1 - It's all about me!

Hiiii!

It's me, Pax Larson. Since most delusional people have issues and call me selfish, I'm going to prove them right by talking about myself this whole chapter. And since I'm going insane, I might as well play this out as an interview in my head.

Interviewer: So, Pax, this is your first time giving an interview about your life. Why don't we give the viewers a chance to get to know you? Let's get started—how old are you?

Me: I'm 17 years old.

Interviewer: Oh! The teenage years are the best years! If I could go back, I would.

(She must have grown up with both loving parents, had a phone in 6th grade and went to university without her virginity)

Me: Smiles awkwardly Yes, they sure are.

(Don't shoot me, guys—I'm lying.)

Interviewer: So tell us more about yourself. When's your birthday?

Me: I was born on the 31st of December.

(Ruined my mum's New Year. Her words, not mine.)

Interviewer: Oh wow, that must be so exciting. I'm sure of it. And do you have any siblings?

Me: I have an older sister by one year and a brother who's... counts on fingers six years younger than me—or seven.

Interviewer: Laughs Okay, and what motivated you to come out and tell everyone your story?

Me: I just felt like if I could share my story, I might motivate my peers to push through any life challenges they're facing. Smiles.

(I lied, guys. I'm sorry. I'm really just doing this because I heard people get paid for this shit.)

Interviewer: That's great! We need more people like you to come out and share their stories. And tell me about your parents—where do they work?

Me: My dad (hate this guy) works as a lecturer at the University of 'Non-Disclosable,' and my mum works in... something to do with health, but not actually in a hospital.

Interviewer: And are they divorced or still together?

Me: Separated, but they haven't officially gone to court and signed divorce papers.

Interviewer: Nods Okay, basic question—what's your favourite colour?

Me: Gray. (When I see it, I just want to shove it in my mouth.)

Interviewer: Well, that's the first I've heard of grey being someone's favourite colour. So, what about your favourite foods?

Me: (Pay extra attention, guys.) I love banana-flavoured yogurt, but I hate bananas. I love pineapples, but I hate pineapple juice. And I love guava drinks, but I hate guavas. I also love curry.

Interviewer: Laughs That's quite the list. How about foods you hate or foods you're allergic to?

Me: I hate hot drinks (yes, that's right—I'm a teen going through hell, and I don't drown myself in coffee. I deserve medal, please!). I don't like ice cream in a cone or dark chocolate—only white. Oh, and beetroot and ginger. I'm not allergic to anything as far as I know, although every time I drink milk, I have to use the bathroom. (No, I'm not lactose intolerant.)

Oops! How could I forget my most hated beverage? Water. (Yucky.)

Interviewer: Laughs Interesting list you've got there. Let's move on. What's your favourite genre of music?

Me: I like R&B and jazz the most.

Interviewer: Favourite movie genre?

Me: I like rom-coms and comedy, and I can only watch action movies if a female is the main character or at least a supporting character.

Interviewer: Okay, and what's your aesthetic?

Me: (Broke. Broke is my aesthetic.) Dark academia is the closest thing to my wardrobe.

Interviewer: What do you aspire to be when you grow up?

Me: A lawyer (because I was told to).

Interviewer: That's amazing. Other than that, do you have any dreams or aspirations?

Me: No. No, I don't. (This is the truth for the first time.)

Interviewer: Do you have a best friend?

Me: I have like three of them (they're all fake—we literally talk once every blue moon. I might hate them.)

Interviewer: Quite the popular one, aren't you? What's your relationship status?

Me: Single. Since birth. (Situation isn't good, guys. I'm going to die never kissing a boy.)

Interviewer: Laughs How tall are you, Pax?

Me: I'm 5'6" (so unlucky, reason will be unlocked later).

Interviewer: And what are your hobbies?

Me: I spend most of my time reading novels or watching movies and series.

Interviewer: Nice. What's your favourite book genre?

Me: I like romance, but I mostly read mystery and thrillers. (Smut!!!)

Interviewer: That's lovely. Do you have any special talents?

Me: (Not to brag, but I can read three novels in less than 24 hours—and I'm talking 500-page books. Okay, yes, I'm bragging.) I know how to sew and knit (shit, I'm talentless).

Interviewer: Is that it? So, what can you knit for me? Jokes

Me: I don't know. I know the process of knitting, but I can't exactly make anything.

Interviewer: Oh... Laughs awkwardly Well, okay. How about your pet peeves?

Me: There's a lot. I hate looking at other people's toothbrushes, touching them, or even putting mine next to someone else's. I hate when people brush their teeth in my vicinity. I hate sharing soap. I hate holding hands unless I'm the one initiating it. I hate when people breathe near me. I hate when I can hear people chew. I hate light. I hate open doors. I hate skin-to-skin contact. I hate gum—especially when people chew it and worse when they leave it lying around. I hate being told what to do. I hate long nails and artificial ones even worse.

(I'm sure there's more—I just can't remember at the moment. I'll update when I think of any.)

Interviewer: Whoa, that's quite the list. How about some bad traits about yourself?

Me: Well, my major flaw is my mood swings—all day, every day. I also have a habit of making people feel like they don't matter to me, especially when they wrong me (I'm a ghosting expert). Oh, and someone once told me I'm manipulative. I don't know if it's true, though (I so am—don't kill me).

Interviewer: Laughs And what about your good traits?

Me: One thing I like about myself is my loyalty. I'm loyal to a fault.

Interviewer: Smiles And what else?

Me: Oh, that's it. Smiles.

Interviewer: Oh, well, I'm sure that's not true. Let's move on. Do you know any other languages besides English?

Me: Nope. (Spanish lessons from Dora don't count.)

Interviewer: Any fears—whether deep emotional ones or silly ones?

Me: I'm afraid of grasshoppers (they deserve a special mention), but in short, I'm scared of all insects. I'm also afraid of being left alone and abandoned (explains the ghosting expertise—always leaving before you get left).

Interviewer: Well, that's understandable. Do you have any desire for children?

Me: No. (Stick around and find out why.)

Interviewer: Okay, what's your favourite season?

Me: Winter or rainy (is rainy even a season?).

Interviewer: Okay, now let's get serious. Dogs or cats?

Me: (This is it. This is the question that decides my fate in life.) I choose both. (See what I did there?) I used to be a dog person until I started watching cat videos. Now I'm at an impasse.

Interviewer: Laughs Okay. And what's your sexuality?

Me: (Breathe—you won't get cancelled no matter what you say.) I'm female. (nice save)

Interviewer: Laughs I mean, are you attracted to men or women, or...?

Me: I knew that (I didn't). I'm straight. I like boys. (too forward?)

Interviewer: Okay, and while we're on that topic, how do you feel about the LGBTQ+ lifestyle?

Me: (I'm going to shit myself.) I support but do not promote. (I think I nailed it, guys.)

Interviewer: Due to a lack of ideas, we'll be ending this interview shortly. What's your religion?

Me: Standing on a thin line between Christianity and not giving a shit.

Interviewer: Laughs Okay, and is there something you regret doing?

Me: (If I say being born, will that make me sound extra?) I regret nothing.

Interviewer: Well, that's lovely to hear. Anything else you'd like to say? I'm officially out of questions.

Me: Not really, I think that's it.

Interviewer: Well, it was great having you here. Thanks for coming.

The answer is no! I do not need to be taken to a mental asylum. And the answer is yes. Yes, I did just have a full-blown interview with myself in my head.

This is your last warning to run away. This story isn't for the faint-hearted. Any missing or unanswered questions will obviously be addressed during my life story since this whole shit is about me. Well, I guess that's it for me.

I'm sweating bullets. Tomorrow is Tuesday, January 23—the second day of Term 1 at my new school. I'm going to fuck up big time. 

Spoiler alert: it's the day shit hits the fan.

Byeee!!!!