Evelyn Harper
The library felt unusually quiet. Normally, I found the stillness soothing, but today, it felt heavy, like the silence was waiting for me to fill it. My notebook sat open on the desk in front of me, brimming with notes from yesterday's meeting with Theo. His voice echoed in my mind—confident, teasing, and frustratingly reasonable.
I hated to admit it, but he'd made some good points. His enthusiasm wasn't just surface-level; it had depth, even if it clashed with my more structured approach. People wanted excitement, something new. Maybe the library needed that. The thought felt like a betrayal of everything this space stood for, but I couldn't deny that change might be necessary.
I glanced out the window at the small courtyard beyond the library, where two of my regular patrons sat reading on a bench. The sight tugged at my chest—a quiet reminder of what I was trying to protect.
My phone buzzed on the desk, the screen lighting up with James's name. I hesitated before answering, my thumb hovering over the screen. Talking to James always left me conflicted. He could make me feel capable, valued, even admired—but there was always an undertone of expectation that left me uneasy.
"Evelyn," James said when I picked up, his smooth, practiced voice wrapping around my name like a familiar melody. "How's the planning going?"
"It's… coming along," I said cautiously, already bracing for whatever he'd say next.
"Good to hear," James said, his tone warm and encouraging. "A few council members have asked about the event. They're excited to see how this collaboration turns out."
I frowned. "Council members? I didn't realize they were involved."
"They're not officially," he said quickly, his voice taking on that polished ease he used in meetings. "But they care about the library's success. We all do. Everyone wants to see you thrive, Evelyn."
The compliment sent an unbidden warmth through me, but it came with a sharp edge. I wanted to believe him, to let his words lift me. But part of me couldn't shake the suspicion that this wasn't just about the library.
"Do you really think this event will make that much of a difference?" I asked, hating the uncertainty in my voice.
"I do," James said firmly. "The library is the heart of this town, Evelyn. And you're the heart of the library. People trust you to make it work."
His words wrapped around me, comforting and suffocating all at once. James always had a way of making me feel like I could do more, be more. But what if I couldn't live up to that?
"I'll let you get back to work," James said smoothly. "Just remember—you're doing great, and I'm always here if you need anything."
"Thanks," I murmured, ending the call.
I stared at my phone for a long moment, my emotions swirling between pride, doubt, and something I couldn't quite name. James had always been supportive, but his approval felt like a double-edged sword.
I glanced at the photo tucked into the corner of my computer screen. My grandmother stood in front of the library on its grand opening day, her face lit with pride. She'd passed her love of books on to me, and I'd spent my life trying to honor that legacy. But as I sat there, I couldn't help but wonder if I was holding on too tightly to her vision—and if it was costing me the chance to create something new.
By the time Theo strolled into the library for our follow-up meeting, I was already emotionally drained. He carried a to-go cup from Chapters & Brews and wore his usual confident grin, looking every bit the person who didn't carry the weight of an entire institution on his shoulders.
"Ready to make some magic, librarian?" he asked, setting his cup on the table.
I sighed, closing my notebook. "Do you have to call me that?"
"Why? Does it bother you?" he asked, his grin widening.
"It's unnecessary," I said, motioning for him to sit.
"Noted," he said, sliding into the chair across from me. "But you've got to admit, it has a certain ring to it. Like you're guarding ancient secrets or something."
"I'm guarding order," I corrected. "And you're doing an excellent job of disrupting it."
Theo laughed, the sound warm and genuine. "Well, then, let's see if we can find a little balance, shall we?"
The meeting started smoothly enough. We reviewed our notes from the last session, finalizing the structure for the reading showcase and assigning tasks. But as we moved into logistics, our differing approaches began to clash.
"I still think we should include some modern works," Theo said, leaning back in his chair. "It'll help draw in a younger crowd."
"The classics are timeless," I countered. "They have universal appeal."
"Do they, though?" Theo asked, raising an eyebrow. "Because I'm pretty sure most people's eyes glaze over the second they hear the words Moby-Dick."
I bristled, narrowing my eyes. "That's because people don't give the classics a chance anymore. They're foundational. Important."
"And I'm not saying we shouldn't include them," Theo said, his tone calm but firm. "But if we only cater to what you think people should like, we're missing the point. This event is about bringing people in, not scaring them off."
His words stung, not because they were harsh, but because they were true.
"I'm not trying to scare anyone off," I said quietly, looking down at my notebook.
Theo leaned forward, his voice softening. "I know you're not. But sometimes, it's okay to meet people where they are. You don't have to carry all of this on your own, Evelyn."
The sincerity in his tone caught me off guard. For a moment, I didn't know what to say.
"You're a lot less annoying when you're being reasonable," I said finally, the faintest hint of a smile tugging at my lips.
Theo chuckled, leaning back in his chair. "Don't get used to it."
As we wrapped up, I noticed him glance at the tote bag slung over my chair. "You always carry that thing around like it's full of secrets," he said, nodding toward it.
"Maybe it is," I said, raising an eyebrow.
Theo leaned forward, his grin returning. "Now I'm intrigued. What's in there? Spellbooks? A guide to world domination?"
"Not that it's any of your business," I said, standing, "but it's mostly board meeting notes and backup pens."
"Sounds thrilling," he teased, standing as well.
"Some of us have real responsibilities," I shot back, adjusting the strap of my bag.
Theo held the door open for me as we left the library. "This went well," he said, his tone lighter than usual.
"Surprisingly," I admitted.
He gave me a mock-serious look. "Careful, librarian. If you keep complimenting me, I might start thinking you enjoy working with me."
"I wouldn't go that far," I said, rolling my eyes. But as I walked away, I couldn't help smiling.
Back at my desk, I settled into the familiar quiet of the library. The stillness felt different this time—less like a weight and more like a pause. I glanced at the old photograph tucked into the corner of my computer screen. My grandmother stood in front of the library on its grand opening day, her face lit with pride. She'd passed her love of books on to me, and I'd spent my life trying to honor that legacy.
But maybe Theo was right. Maybe I didn't have to do it alone.