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Chapter 7 - Chapter 7: Into the Darkness

The air in the small, abandoned building was stale, the only sound the occasional creak of the floorboards under their weight. Outside, the world had become an endless stretch of ruin—broken cities, empty streets, and an ever-present danger lurking in the shadows. It had been months since the world had ended, months since everything they once knew had collapsed under the weight of the outbreak. Now, they were just trying to survive, one day at a time.

Alex sat by the corner of the room, his back against the cold, cracked wall. He stared at the dying embers of the fire in front of him, the warm orange glow barely enough to cut through the darkness of the room. His mind was restless, filled with thoughts of what had come before and what was still to come. There was no telling how long they could keep running, how long they could stay one step ahead of the infected and the other dangers that lurked around every corner.

Sam, who had been quiet for most of the evening, stood by the window, his eyes scanning the empty streets outside. His posture was rigid, as if he was waiting for something—or someone—to appear. Lena was sitting near the fire, her arms wrapped tightly around her knees, lost in thought. She had been distant, her once-bold demeanor now replaced by an unsettling quiet. Jack, as usual, was pacing, unable to sit still for long. He muttered to himself, his mind constantly turning over their next move.

"We can't keep staying here," Alex said, breaking the silence that had settled over them. His voice was low, but it carried an edge of determination. "This place is a dead end. We need to move out, find more supplies, and get out of this city."

Lena looked up from the fire, her gaze meeting his. "Where will we go? What if the next place is worse?"

"We can't keep waiting for something better to show up," Alex replied. "We're all just wasting time here. We need to find food, weapons, shelter—whatever we can. We have to keep pushing forward."

"He's right," Sam said, turning away from the window. His voice was rough, as though it hadn't been used in too long. "The longer we stay in one place, the more vulnerable we become. We don't know how long we have before the infected start closing in on this spot. We move, or we die."

Jack stopped pacing, his eyes flashing with a mix of frustration and exhaustion. "But what if we're just walking into a trap? What if the next place we go is already taken by those... those people who aren't even human anymore?"

"They're all dead, Jack," Sam said firmly. "We're the only ones left. It's just us now."

Alex glanced at Lena. She hadn't spoken much since they had made camp for the night, and there was something in her eyes—something that told him she wasn't ready to move on. But they didn't have a choice. They couldn't afford to waste time.

"We have to keep going," Alex insisted. "If we stop now, we won't survive. We've made it this far, and we'll make it further. We can't let fear control us."

Lena stood slowly, her movements deliberate, as though she was measuring each step. She took a deep breath and walked over to the window, standing beside Sam. For a moment, the two of them were silent, just looking out into the void.

"I'm not sure I'm ready for this," Lena said softly. "I'm not sure I'm ready to keep going."

Alex rose from the floor and walked over to her. "None of us are ready. But we have to keep moving, Lena. We have to survive."

She didn't answer, but she nodded slowly, as though understanding the truth in his words. They all had to survive. That was the only thing that mattered anymore.

"Alright," Lena said quietly, turning away from the window. "We'll keep moving. But where do we go? We don't even know where the infected are anymore. The maps are useless, the streets are empty..."

"We go west," Sam said, his voice sure. "I've heard rumors of a safe zone. It's a long shot, but it's our best bet. We move out in the morning. At dawn."

"Yeah, sure. Another damn rumor," Jack grumbled. "We've heard a lot of those, and they've all turned out to be nothing."

"This time's different," Sam insisted. "I've seen survivors head in that direction before. If we don't try, we're just sitting ducks here."

Alex was already gathering his things. "We leave at first light. We don't wait around any longer. Get some rest while you can."

The group gathered their gear in silence, the weight of their decision hanging in the air. No one spoke, but they all knew the stakes. If the rumors about the safe zone were true, it could be their last chance. If they didn't make it, it wouldn't be the infected that killed them—it would be their own doubt and hesitation.

The room was quiet, save for the low murmurs of the group gathering their belongings. The weight of their decision sat heavily on their shoulders. Sam and Jack were already packing up the few supplies they had, while Lena sat, staring at the small pack by her feet, her fingers absentmindedly tracing the worn straps. Alex watched her, trying to make sense of the conflict in her eyes.

"We leave at dawn," Sam said as he adjusted his backpack, his eyes sweeping over the group. He looked like he was ready to move, his energy matched only by his single-minded focus on the task ahead. He had always been like that—determined, relentless, but it didn't stop Alex from feeling a lingering sense of uncertainty. There was no plan. Just rumors and hope.

Lena stood up, her eyes flicking between Alex and Sam, as if trying to find an anchor in the sea of decisions. She walked towards the door, hesitated for a moment, then stepped outside. The others followed her with their eyes but said nothing, knowing the need for space was a luxury that didn't exist anymore.

Alex glanced over at Jack, who had become eerily still, his face hard and unreadable. "We're really going, huh?" Jack's voice was flat, but Alex could hear the quiet panic behind it. Jack had always been the joker, the one who kept things light when everything else seemed too heavy, but this world had worn that part of him down. They all had.

"Yeah," Alex said quietly, his voice almost lost in the thick air. "It's our only chance."

"Hope we're not walking straight into another trap," Jack muttered, adjusting his gear.

Lena returned, her face as hard as stone, but her eyes betrayed the exhaustion that hadn't left her for weeks. "We leave when we're ready," she said, her tone colder than usual, but Alex could sense the undercurrent of fear that tugged at her words. "I'm not saying I'm not on board, but I don't know if we're prepared. This could be another disaster waiting to happen."

"We're never prepared," Sam said, his voice firm as he met her gaze. "But we adapt. We survive."

Lena's mouth tightened into a thin line, but she said nothing more. There was nothing left to say. They all knew the risks. They had known for months, maybe even longer. Every day was a fight to survive, and every step forward felt like they were walking closer to the edge of some unfathomable cliff.

Alex stepped toward the small table, his fingers brushing over the few remnants of food they had left. Canned beans. A few pieces of jerky. He let out a breath. "We can't stay here long. We need to leave by sunrise. The infected are drawn to places like this. The longer we stay, the more likely we are to attract them."

Sam nodded in agreement, casting a quick look at the windows. "Once we leave, we don't stop unless we find somewhere secure. We keep moving, no matter how far."

The thought of not stopping unsettled Alex. It felt like they were running a race with no finish line. They hadn't stopped in weeks, and the world outside felt more hostile with each passing day. But there was no alternative. Running had become their only constant.

With the decision made, the group moved quietly to the back room of the building to get some rest. Each of them lay down, their eyes wide open in the pitch black, hearing only the creaking of the old structure and the occasional wind that howled outside. No one slept well, but they had no choice. Tomorrow was another day, and with it came the unknown. They would face it together, whether they were ready or not.

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The first light of dawn crept in through the cracked windows, casting long, thin shadows on the floor. Alex woke to the sound of soft rustling as the others began to stir. Sam was already up, his face impassive as always, checking his weapons. Lena moved quietly, the faint sound of her breathing filling the silence. Jack, still half asleep, grumbled something under his breath, but there was no time for rest. They had a long journey ahead.

"We're moving out," Sam said, his voice cutting through the stillness. "We've got a long way to go. Stay sharp."

As they gathered their belongings, Alex couldn't shake the feeling that something wasn't right. There was an underlying tension in the air, a sense that danger was always lurking just around the corner. But they had no choice but to press forward. The choice to stay was a death sentence, and none of them were ready to accept that.

They made their way out of the building, careful to avoid making any noise that would attract the infected. The streets were eerily quiet, as if the city itself had become a ghost town. Buildings stood like hollow monuments to a world that once was, their windows broken, doors ajar, and the remnants of life scattered in the streets. There were no cars, no signs of movement—just the remnants of what had been.

The group moved quickly, eyes constantly scanning their surroundings, every footstep a potential death sentence. Sam led the way, his senses alert to every creak and groan of the building structures. He didn't say much, but Alex knew he was always watching, always calculating the risks.

They reached the outskirts of the city as the sun began to rise, casting a soft, golden light over the ruins. The landscape ahead of them was barren, with only distant patches of overgrown fields and broken highways. It seemed so peaceful in its desolation, yet Alex knew better. Peace was an illusion in this world.

"We keep heading west," Sam said, his voice low and firm. "Stick together, and we make it to the compound. If it's still there, it'll be our best shot."

Lena stayed close to Alex, her pace slow, as though she were unsure of her surroundings. Her eyes darted around, looking for any sign of life, any movement in the distance. The tension in her body was palpable, and Alex knew she was doing everything she could to hold herself together. The fear of the unknown was something they all shared, but Lena seemed to carry it differently. It weighed on her, sometimes more than it did on the others.

The journey took them through a patchwork of ruins, broken roads, and abandoned vehicles. Every now and then, the wind would carry with it the scent of death—the unmistakable stench of decay. The infected had a way of leaving their mark on the world, even if they didn't always show themselves.

By midday, they found shelter in a small, half-collapsed structure. They stopped to rest, knowing they needed to conserve their energy. As they settled inside, Lena and Jack kept watch while Alex and Sam searched for supplies. It was always the same—scavenging through ruins, hoping to find something useful, praying that they wouldn't encounter the infected.

As the afternoon wore on, the sense of unease grew. The air was thick with the scent of danger. It wasn't just the infected they had to worry about anymore—it was the other survivors. Desperation made people do terrible things, and Alex knew that they would have to be careful. It wasn't just the world outside that had turned savage. It was the people too.

Lena was the first to spot the movement. From the corner of the building, she caught sight of something—a figure in the distance, moving between the rubble. Her breath caught in her throat as she signaled to the others. Sam immediately crouched low, his eyes narrowed as he scanned the area.

"We're not alone," Lena whispered.

The figure in the distance seemed to move erratically, pausing behind piles of debris, only to reappear moments later. It was too far away to identify, but the unmistakable feeling of danger began to rise in Alex's chest. His instincts kicked in, urging caution.

"Everyone, stay low," Sam commanded, his voice barely a whisper. He looked at Alex, his face hard and calculating. "We need to see who this is before making a move."

Lena crouched down beside Alex, her breath shallow, her eyes never leaving the figure. She was tense, her body coiled like a spring, ready to react. Jack, on the other hand, was already moving to a vantage point, trying to get a better look.

Alex slowly reached for his backpack, pulling out the old, rusty knife he had scavenged a few days ago. It wasn't much, but it was better than nothing. He slid it into the waistband of his pants, his hand brushing against the handle, and he felt a grim sense of resolve settle over him. This was their reality now—surviving was more than just about food and shelter. It was about being prepared for whatever came next.

Sam raised his hand, signaling for the group to hold their position. He was methodical, his gaze fixed on the figure as it moved closer. Every step was calculated, as if Sam was mentally mapping out the situation, weighing their options.

"Do you think it's one of them?" Jack asked, his voice barely audible, though his tone hinted at a mixture of curiosity and dread.

"It's too early to tell," Sam replied, his eyes still trained on the figure. "But we need to be ready for anything."

Alex shifted slightly, trying to make himself as invisible as possible behind a crumbling brick wall. He could feel the pulse of tension in the air, thick and heavy. His heart raced, not from fear, but from the anticipation of what might happen next. They couldn't afford to be careless. They couldn't afford another mistake.

The figure finally came into clearer view, emerging from behind a collapsed building. It was a man, dressed in ragged clothes, with unkempt hair and a weary gait. He carried a large bag slung over his shoulder, and Alex could see the unmistakable outline of a rifle sticking out. But there was something else in the man's movements—a hesitance, an uncertainty. It wasn't the confident stride of someone who was in control.

"That's not one of them," Lena whispered, her voice barely audible. "He's human."

Alex nodded, but he didn't let his guard down. Human or infected, anyone they encountered could be a threat.

"We approach carefully," Sam ordered, his voice calm but firm. "No sudden moves."

They slowly began to move toward the man, keeping to the shadows and staying out of sight as much as possible. Alex's eyes remained fixed on him, watching for any sign of hostility, any indication that the man might pose a danger. His hands trembled slightly as he gripped his knife, but he kept them steady. If this was going to turn into a confrontation, he would be ready.

The man didn't seem to notice them at first. He was too focused on the path ahead, his gaze fixed on the broken road. But as he passed by the entrance of the building where Alex and the others were hiding, he froze, his head snapping to the side, sensing something.

"Who's there?" the man called out, his voice hoarse from disuse. His rifle shifted, as if he was preparing for a fight.

Alex's heart skipped a beat. It was too late to back out now. They were already too close, and there was no time to retreat. His eyes met Sam's, who gave him a subtle nod. It was now or never.

"Hey," Alex called, stepping out from the shadows. He held his hands up in a gesture of peace, though his heart was pounding in his chest. "We don't want any trouble."

The man's eyes narrowed, and he lowered the rifle slightly, though he didn't fully relax. "Who the hell are you?" he demanded, his voice still rough but edged with suspicion. "I haven't seen anyone else in days."

"We're just survivors," Alex said, taking a step closer but keeping his distance. "We're looking for a safe place to rest, to get supplies. We don't mean you any harm."

The man eyed him carefully, as though trying to assess whether Alex was telling the truth. It seemed like an eternity before he spoke again, his voice quieter this time.

"You're lucky I didn't shoot you on sight," he muttered, his eyes flicking to the others as they emerged from hiding. "Most people would've done the same."

"Yeah, well, we don't have time for this," Jack interjected, his voice laced with frustration. "We don't need to be wasting time on some stranger. If you're not going to help us, we'll just move on."

The man stiffened at Jack's tone but didn't react immediately. Instead, he gave a sharp nod. "Alright. Fine. I'm not looking for a fight either. But you're right about one thing—we don't have time to waste. This place is crawling with infected. You're lucky you ran into me, because the way things are going, it's getting worse out here."

Alex felt a flash of hope—just the smallest spark. Maybe, just maybe, this was the break they needed.

"What's your name?" Alex asked, trying to sound casual despite the tension that still lingered in the air.

The man hesitated for a moment before answering. "Derek. And if you've got any sense, you'll follow me. I know a place up ahead where we can rest, get something to eat. But you'll have to move fast. The infected aren't far behind."

"Lead the way," Sam said, his tone as steady as ever. "We'll follow."

Without another word, Derek turned and began to walk away, his rifle slung over his shoulder, his posture tense and alert. The group exchanged wary glances before following him, keeping close but not too close.

As they moved through the desolate streets, Alex couldn't shake the feeling that they had just stepped into a new chapter of their survival—one that was just as uncertain as the last. Every step forward brought them closer to something unknown, something they couldn't prepare for. But they had no choice. They had to keep moving, because in this world, staying still meant death.

The world outside was a wasteland, but as long as they kept their heads down and trusted their instincts, they might just make it through. Together, they were stronger than they were alone. And with Derek's guidance, they might just find a little bit of hope in the darkness.

The group moved quickly, keeping their distance from Derek but never taking their eyes off him. The weight of their situation felt heavier with each step. The promise of safety was like a distant light, flickering and elusive. They had to trust Derek, for now, but the uncertainty of it gnawed at the edges of Alex's mind.

As they walked, the distant sounds of groaning and shuffling echoed from behind, carried by the wind. Alex couldn't help but glance over his shoulder, his heart racing with every step they took. The infected were out there, lurking in the shadows, waiting for any sign of life. It was a terrifying thought, but it was the reality they faced every day.

"We need to keep moving faster," Sam said, his voice low and urgent. "If they're following us, we don't want to be caught out in the open."

Derek glanced back at them, his eyes narrowing. "You're right. We don't have much time."

The group quickened their pace, following Derek through a maze of destroyed buildings and overgrown streets. The landscape seemed to be a mirror of the world they had once known—ruins of a civilization that had crumbled, leaving only echoes in its wake. The silence was almost suffocating, broken only by the sound of their footsteps and the occasional distant growl from the infected.

Lena kept close to Alex, her hand resting on his shoulder as if to steady herself. Her breathing was shallow, her eyes darting around, scanning every corner, every alley. She was on edge, just like the rest of them. The world they had known was gone, and everything that remained was either trying to kill them or simply trying to survive.

After what felt like hours, Derek finally stopped in front of a large, overgrown building. The once grand structure now stood as a hollow shell of its former self, its windows shattered and its walls crumbling. It was hard to imagine that this place had ever been anything other than a symbol of decay.

"This is it," Derek said, turning to face them. "We'll rest here for the night. It's not much, but it'll have to do."

The group exchanged uneasy looks, but no one argued. They were exhausted, and the fear of what waited beyond the walls of this building outweighed any reservations they had about the place.

They followed Derek inside, careful not to make any noise. The interior was dark, with only slivers of light streaming through the cracks in the walls. The air was stale, and the scent of mildew and rot hung thick in the atmosphere. Despite the discomfort, it was better than being out in the open.

"We need to secure the perimeter," Sam said, already moving to check the windows and doors. "We don't know who else is out there."

Lena and Jack went to the back of the building, checking the door that led to the alleyway. They had learned the hard way that not every survivor they encountered could be trusted. There was a dangerous unpredictability to people in this new world, and it was better to be safe than sorry.

Alex set down his pack, his body sore from the long trek, and leaned against a crumbling wall. His eyes closed for a moment as he tried to steady his racing thoughts. The events of the past few weeks had blurred together, each day melding into the next. There was no longer any sense of time—only survival.

"You okay?" Lena asked, her voice soft but steady.

Alex opened his eyes and nodded, offering her a small smile. "Just tired. It's been a long day."

She looked at him, her brow furrowed. There was something in her eyes, an unspoken question. But she didn't push it. Instead, she just nodded and walked away, her footsteps light as she joined Jack in securing the back of the building.

The silence in the room grew heavy as Alex sat there, thinking. He thought about the group they had lost, the ones who hadn't made it. He thought about the countless faces he had seen, those whose lives had been snuffed out by the infected or by the cruelty of other survivors. He thought about what they were fighting for.

"We need to stick together," he muttered to himself, a mantra that had become more important with every passing day. "It's the only way we survive."

Derek appeared at his side, a wry smile tugging at his lips. "You say that like it's a choice."

Alex looked up at him, surprised by the sudden appearance. "What do you mean?"

Derek leaned against the wall beside him, his arms folded. "It's not just the infected out there," he said, his voice low. "People are getting desperate. You wouldn't believe the things I've seen—people turning on each other, killing for a can of food, for a bottle of water. We're not just fighting for survival anymore. We're fighting to keep our humanity."

Alex stared at Derek, the weight of his words sinking in. It was true. The infected were one threat, but people—people were the real danger. In the end, it wasn't the virus that had brought the world to its knees. It was the people who had lost everything and were willing to do anything to survive.

"We can't let that happen," Alex said, more to himself than to Derek. "We have to hold on to who we are, even in this hell."

Derek was quiet for a moment before he spoke again, his voice softer. "You sound like you still believe in something. That's a good thing."

Alex didn't know if he believed in anything anymore. Hope had become a luxury, something too far out of reach. But he wasn't ready to give up on it just yet. Not when he still had people to protect, not when the world had shown them that even in the darkest places, there was still a flicker of light.

They sat in silence for a while, each lost in their own thoughts. Outside, the wind howled, and the distant growls of the infected could be heard. It was a reminder that even in the relative safety of this building, they weren't truly safe. Not yet.

After some time, the others returned, having completed their work securing the building. Jack flopped down on the floor beside Alex, his face pale and tired.

"You think we're safe here?" he asked, wiping his brow.

Derek shook his head. "Nothing's safe. But it's better than being out there."

"Not by much," Sam muttered, his voice sharp. "We can't let our guard down. We need to get to the compound tomorrow. It's our only chance."

"Tomorrow," Lena echoed, sitting next to Sam. "If we make it that long."

Alex looked around at the group. They were a collection of survivors, each broken in their own way but still fighting to hold on. Tomorrow was never guaranteed, but they would keep moving forward, one day at a time.

"We'll make it," Alex said, more to convince himself than anyone else. "We'll get through this."

Sam gave him a look, his gaze hard but understanding. "We better. Because if we don't, there won't be anyone left to try."

The night was long, filled with restless murmurs and shifting shadows. The building was an unsettling place to rest, its creaking and groaning reminding Alex that even though they were safe—at least for now—nothing in this world could truly be trusted. The walls might fall apart, the floor might give way, and the roof could cave in at any moment. But for now, it was all they had.

Derek sat across from him, his rifle resting across his knees, his eyes scanning the room. It was clear he didn't sleep easily. None of them did.

Alex's eyes flickered to Lena, who was curled up against a crumbling wall, her arms wrapped tightly around her knees. Her expression was unreadable, but Alex knew her too well. She was worried—about the future, about what might come next. But she wasn't one to show weakness, not in front of anyone else. He respected that.

Jack sat close to the entrance, his legs stretched out in front of him, his eyes darting to the door every few seconds. He had a paranoid streak that could drive everyone crazy, but it kept them alive. There was something about Jack's gut instinct that made Alex trust him more than he trusted himself sometimes.

Sam was sitting by the broken window, his silhouette visible against the night sky. He hadn't spoken much since they arrived, lost in his thoughts. The way his shoulders were hunched and his jaw clenched told Alex he was calculating their next move. Sam was the planner of the group, always thinking two steps ahead, always knowing what needed to be done, even if it wasn't always the most comfortable decision.

Alex's own thoughts circled back to the compound. It was the place Derek had mentioned—a possible safe zone, a refuge from the chaos. But Alex couldn't help but feel a sense of skepticism about it. It seemed too perfect, too convenient. They had learned the hard way that places like that often turned out to be more dangerous than the ones they were trying to escape.

"I don't trust it," Alex said, breaking the silence. His voice was hoarse, the words feeling foreign as they left his mouth. He wasn't used to questioning Sam's judgment, but this was different.

Sam didn't turn to face him. He didn't need to. The tension in his posture was enough to tell Alex that he had been thinking about the same thing.

"I don't either," Sam said quietly. "But we don't have a choice. We're running low on supplies. We need to find somewhere that can give us a chance to regroup, get our bearings. And that compound... it's the only lead we've got."

Alex bit his lip, frustration mounting. He didn't want to make a mistake. The last time they had trusted someone, it had ended in bloodshed. The thought of walking straight into another trap made his skin crawl.

"Just be careful, Sam," Alex warned. "You know better than anyone how this world works. There's no such thing as safety anymore."

"I know," Sam replied, his tone resolute. "But we can't survive out here forever, Alex. We need to keep moving forward. Even if it's into the unknown."

The words echoed in Alex's mind long after Sam had said them. Into the unknown. It was a phrase they had all come to understand in different ways. The unknown had become the new normal. Every step forward was a step into darkness, and they had to make a choice: keep moving or get swallowed by it.

Alex let out a breath and ran a hand through his hair, trying to shake the unease that clung to him like a second skin. He had never been good at trusting people, especially after losing so much. But maybe Sam was right. Maybe they needed to take that risk.

"I know you're right," Alex said finally, meeting Sam's gaze. "But I just—" He broke off, unsure of how to express the fear he felt. "I don't want to make another mistake. Not after everything we've been through."

"You're not alone in this, Alex," Sam said, his voice softer now, more reassuring. "None of us are. We make our decisions together."

A brief silence passed between them, before Lena's voice broke through.

"You guys are still talking about the compound?" she asked, her voice carrying the sharp edge of skepticism. "I don't know if I trust it either."

Alex turned to look at her. She had pushed herself up to a sitting position, her eyes wary. She had a point. There was something about the whole thing that felt off, like it was all too convenient.

"We'll figure it out," Sam replied, his tone firm. "But we don't have a lot of options. We need food, we need water. And we need a place to rest that isn't going to fall apart around us."

Lena didn't respond, but the look on her face told Alex that she wasn't convinced. He understood. The idea of walking into another potential trap made him uneasy, too.

"I'll go first," Derek said suddenly, his voice cutting through the tension in the room. "Tomorrow, I'll lead the way. If the compound's a trap, I'll know. If it's not, I'll make sure we get there in one piece."

Alex eyed Derek carefully. He had grown to trust the man, but there was something about him that didn't sit entirely right. His motives were unclear.

"How can we be sure you're not leading us into danger?" Lena asked, her voice low but pointed.

Derek's expression softened. "I'm just trying to survive too, Lena. But you've got every right to be skeptical. I'd be worried if you weren't."

Alex couldn't help but wonder if this was their best chance or just another step toward something worse. But he had to trust the group. They had been through too much together to let paranoia tear them apart now.

He took a deep breath, pushing the doubts aside for the moment. They didn't have time to second-guess everything. They had to take risks, because that was the only way they could move forward.

"All right," Alex said, standing up and stretching his stiff limbs. "Tomorrow, we head out. But we stay on alert, no matter what. If anything feels off, we're not afraid to turn back."

Everyone nodded, and with that, the plan was set. The group would sleep for the rest of the night and then set out at first light, ready to face whatever awaited them. The compound, with its promises of safety and supplies, loomed in their minds like a distant hope—and a possible danger. But hope, in this world, was all they had.