The thought that Elijah could be cheating weighed heavily on my mind. I was no longer free with him as before and he didn't even notice.
I rejected eating with him countless times but he didn't raise a brow about it? What was really going on? Wasn't I enough for him? Is it because I am reserved and we don't do things that people in relationships do? I thought about what people would say if they find out that in less than 6 months, I broke up with Elijah.
I wouldn't be able to hold up my head anymore. A part of my mind still told me I might just be overthinking things. I decided to calm down and arrange my next movements.
The opportunity came one day, Elijah handed his bag to me and went to play football. I searched his bag and found his phone. My heart beating wildly and rapidly, I opened the phone.
I went to chats. There were different fingers from different women, tears started gathering up my eyes as I read the chats. They were all girls in my class. The same way he chatted with me, he chatted with them.
I saw a message pop up from a group chat, it mentioned my name. I entered the group chat and that was my worse mistake. The boys were hailing Elijah for his expertise in handling different women. They admired his skills. But all that didn't hurt what hurt me most was when I saw the comments Elijah made about me.
He said I just looked good and presentable but deep down, I am very boring. He said the other girl's he is been with are more fun than I am. I scrolled down to read the older chats and then I saw it. "The bet"
I have always been a broken girl, family has done theirs, friends did theirs too, Adrian also did his but none hurt like this.
If I had known, I would never have agreed to date Elijah in the first place. I passed his bag to someone and went home, on getting home I sent him a break up text. It was the least I could do to keep my dignity. All those voices in my head, telling me I wasn't enough, perhaps they were right. I cried myself to sleep that night.
I wondered how to face Elijah, opening the chat, he hadn't replied me but he saw the message. My heart bled over again
The wounds I thought were going to be healed by Elijah , were just worsened by him. Tears started flowing down my face again.
Soar! My mother's loud voice came through
Yes ma, I answered concealing the sorrow and tears. If my mother found out I was crying because of a relationship she would kill me. I had always been warned to never have a boyfriend.
I rushed to answer my mom, quickly wiping my tears away.
I got to school that day and Elijah didn't even try to acknowledge me. It was then everything became clear, I was just for fun. He never really liked me, sadness washed over me.
" I told you , you are better off alone" my mind whispered.
I wanted to prove everyone wrong show them that I was also fun. I opened online dating apps and matched with several people. It was amazing however I still felt empty inside.