Chapter 389
The first time I realized I had a talent for music was when I was in kindergarten.
"The song we're learning today is Butterfly~. Anyone who knows, raise your hand!"
"Me!"
"Me!"
"I see~. Then, shall we read the notes together first?"
"Sol-mimi. Fa-re-re. Do-re-mi-fa-sol-sol-sol."
"Good job~! Now, shall we sing the notes as the teacher plays them?"
There was a time when the kindergarten teacher played nursery rhymes on the piano and taught them the notes.
When the teacher played the keys slowly, some of the kids with sharp ears were able to continue speaking with difficulty, but most of them got stuck in the middle and struggled.
"Everyone did so well~! Okay, now let's change the lyrics and sing them together!"
The teacher, who realized that the children could no longer guess the key names, suggested that they sing the rest of the song with the lyrics, and when she pressed the first chord, Heo Yu-bin said something other than the lyrics.
"Low Fa......….…. It's Fa!"
"Huh? Did our Yoo-bin just guess the key name I just pressed?"
"Yes."
The kindergarten teacher, who did not think this was a coincidence, told Heo Yu-bin's parents about this fact and suggested that they conduct a more accurate test.
"Absolute pitch at this age? That is truly an incredible talent."
Heo Yu-bin unknowingly discovered his incredible talent.
Naturally, Heo Yu-bin's parents wanted their son's talent to blossom even further, so they created an environment where he could spend time with music as much as possible.
Heo Yu-bin not only had absolute pitch, but also excelled in singing.
Up until this point, singing was the joy of his life.
He always hummed songs automatically, and he could clearly see that he felt the best when he was singing.
Even after entering elementary school, Heo Yu-bin tried to develop his musical talent.
He was at an age where he started to want to show his singing to others, so he went to the talent show held at the end of the semester one after another.
After seeing that, his second-grade homeroom teacher felt that Heo Yu-bin's talent was extraordinary and started recommending him as a school representative for places like the children's song contest in the province.
Then, around the time he was in the fourth grade of elementary school, he started to get contacted by agencies looking for exceptional young sprouts, and Heo Yu-bin's time at school gradually became shorter.
"Hey, Yu-bin! Let's go to Jun-seong's birthday party together after we finish today!"
"Ah, ah, I'm sorry.......... I have to go to practice right away today......…."
"Is it impossible to miss that one day?"
"If I don't go, I'll get in trouble with my teacher and mom. I'm sorry."
There were days when he had to take vocal lessons right after class, and he had less time to play with other kids.
He couldn't enjoy his after-school days like a normal elementary school student.
It was a very busy schedule, but Heo Yu-bin didn't feel tired at all.
Because singing was what he liked the most, and being able to do it without any desire was happiness itself.
He was a little worried every time his friends called him to play, but Heo Yu-bin followed his parents' orders without any complaints.
However, Heo Yu-bin's classmates gradually began to change their minds.
"Hyun-seok! Let's go to the PC room today."
"Okay! Wait a minute, ask Yu-bin too."
"Hey, don't ask."
"Huh, huh? Shouldn't you still ask him to go together?"
"Hey, he always says he's busy with practice, so why are you asking him? Has he ever come when I called him recently?"
"No.........."
Always calling to play, but he says he's busy.
Even though they're both elementary school students, the fact that he work at a talent agency and learn to sing, which doesn't fit their age, didn't give off a good impression to their classmates.
At first, it started with just saying that there was no need to ask him to play together.
However, as these opinions gradually piled up, at some point, the public opinion that 'let's not ask him to play together' changed to 'let's just ignore him.'
"Why bother if he won't come anyway?"
"Is he really that good? I don't know."
"He acts like he's a lot better than us just because he sings a little better than us. He always says he's going somewhere after school."
"Let's just stop talking about Heo Yu-bin."
4th grade of elementary school. In other words, as each person passes the age of 10, their personality becomes more solid, they are greatly influenced by their classmates, and they become more jealous and envious.
Ordinary students generally had no ill feelings or aversion to Heo Yu-bin's musical talent, which was different from others.
However, there are definitely people like this in school.
The malicious personalities who can't stand to see others excel and be recognized by others.
They looked at Heo Yu-bin's actions with a very unpleasant gaze, and in a corner of their hearts, they were even jealous and envious of Heo Yu-bin, who naturally received attention from others.
"Our beautiful river~ in the mountains."
"Wow~. Yu-bin is really good!"
"Hahahahaha!"
"Okay, guys, let's praise after the song is over~."
"Yu-bin is cool~!"
"Celebrities are different after all~."
"Yu-bin will get 100 points anyway~?"
Even when evaluating music class performance.
"Thinking of mom back home, like clouds.........."
"Wow, when Yu-bin reads poetry, it's like a song, so it's so nice to listen to~!"
"That's right. The teacher thinks so too~. Our Yu-bin has a really pretty voice when he speaks."
"Pfft."
"Wah~ Uwek."
"Hey, hey. They can hear you. Be quiet."
Even when reading the text during Korean class.
"Hey, the broadcasting room is showing Heo Yu-bin again."
"What's so great about re-singing the school song?"
"Hey, don't you really hate to see it?"
"Wah~."
"What bad luck! Wah~."
Even when the representative sang the school song in the broadcasting room, the children's one-sided ignorance continued.
In particular, at some point, those who crossed the threshold chose even harsher words and even jeered at places where Heo Yu-bin was not visible.
It's said that children's hearts are the most pure.
However, since they are blank sheets of paper that have not been dyed with anything, once a certain emotion starts to sprout, it can't help but become even more scary.
The way he always goes off somewhere without playing with his friends.
The sight of his teachers' one-sided love and praise.
The jealousy they had toward Heo Yu-bin suddenly turned into a joke, causing even greater emotional wounds to Heo Yu-bin.
The school teachers also didn't take active measures.
Because in the presence of the teacher, it sounded like the kids were praising Heo Yu-bin's singing or admiring her voice.
In fact, it was a kind of mockery.
At some point, the perpetrators also found the joke of 'ignoring Heo Yu-bin' funny, so they couldn't control it anymore.
It was too difficult for the 4th graders in elementary school to realize that those words disguised as jokes were affecting Heo Yu-bin in the form of verbal abuse.
That's why all of these things stabbed Heo Yu-bin's delicate heart like a knife.
4th graders in elementary school. An age group greatly influenced by their classmates and the classroom atmosphere.
Heo Yu-bin couldn't stand the neglect from his peers that he experienced for the first time in his life.
What would happen if a child who had only received praise and love since childhood experienced subtle and continuous bullying?
"...Mom. I don't want to show off my talents this time."
He would become discouraged.
He would instinctively shrink back.
He would be unable to act the way he wanted to because he would constantly be aware of the reactions of those around him.
He would avoid singing in places with a lot of people.
Heo Yu-bin also knew this in his heart.
As time passed, he would feel like he was not getting along with his classmates and was becoming an outsider.
Then, he heard harsh words directed at him and realized for sure.
He was truly alone.
Heo Yu-bin's parents thought that this state of their son would disappear after he graduated from elementary school and entered middle school.
As he grows older and matures, and lives in a different environment, won't his original personality return?
However, this was a misjudgment.
Childhood memories have a huge impact on the formation of a person's personality.
Starting in the 4th grade of elementary school, Heo Yu-bin gradually wanted to be alone more and more.
Even when he went to middle school, he didn't try to make friends.
Whenever he tried to talk to his classmates, bad memories from elementary school would automatically come to mind.
He felt that he would be looked down on at any moment, and even if he became close to them now, he would eventually not be able to play with them later, and the situation from elementary school would repeat itself.
Because of these thoughts, Heo Yu-bin gradually became more passive.
He didn't stop singing.
Until now, music was the only thing that made him feel alive.
However, as he spent more and more time with music, his isolation from the outside world rapidly progressed.
And because of this change in personality, Heo Yu-bin voluntarily left his first agency.
To become an idol, everyone has to work together, but he thought he couldn't endure that process.
When he left his first agency and was afraid of becoming an idol, a CEO of a planning company who had known about Heo Yu-bin's talent for a long time took him there.
It's okay if you don't become an idol.
There are so many solo artists these days, so come here and do the music you want to do comfortably.
Heo Yu-bin, who had built his second nest like that, suddenly had this thought one day.
Heo Yu-bin wasn't always this alone.
He definitely liked showing off to others and going out.
Where did it all go wrong?
Yes.
He had the same thought at that time.
Why did it become like this?
Heo Yu-bin, who realized that all of this had made his personality extremely timid, confided his worries to the CEO of the agency that had supported him.
Upon hearing this, the CEO suggested to Heo Yu-bin, "How about trying out for a survival show?"
It could be an extremely difficult environment.
However, it is hard to find a place where you can interact with as many different people as a survival show.
The CEO thought that this was a great opportunity to change Heo Yu-bin's changed personality a little.
Of course, it wasn't the best way.
How would someone who has lived so introvertedly for years adapt to a survival show?
The CEO talked to Heo Yu-bin several times and counseled him, and in the end, Heo Yu-bin made his own decision.
Now is the time for a change, and he will try to make that change himself.
That's how Heo Yu-bin decided to participate in
As he met the wonderful people he is grateful to be working with, he gradually lost his timid personality and returned to his old self.
I thought I was happier than ever making music..........
I never thought I would feel this trauma from the composition I loved so much.
The world is so funny.
I knew better than anyone that I had to rely on the members.
But what can I do when my mouth won't open when I try to talk?
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'This can't go on like this. Why are you trying to go back to the old days when you've done so well up until now?'
Heo Yu-bin shook his head back and forth, free from old memories.
His wide eyes stared at the screen of his work laptop.
A good idea.
A concept that could differentiate it from the existing Seleste album.
And yet, a genre that blends well with the members..........
Everything is chaotic.
It's hard to just sit like this.
I don't even know how much time has passed.
In a corner of my heart, I just think that I worried my hyungs again.
But I can't go back.
Even if I talk about this unsolvable situation here, in the end, it was me who had to solve this problem.
I'll solve it somehow. Somehow.
Heo Yu-bin closed his eyes for a moment.
The bright laptop light disappeared from his vision and darkness came.
Let's go back to the beginning and think about it.
The weak me of the past that I recalled earlier.
The youth that was confused, scared, and cried a lot.
If I go back and slowly retrace all the paths, won't things that I haven't caught up on appear?
[Characteristic, 'Corner Genius Producer' is in the process of blossoming.]
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