The moment I step in the room where we're supposed to have the meeting, I scan around only to miss his face.
Seems they are all here except for him.
"Where is your master?" I ask really annoyed, am not really clear with the reason why am annoyed right now.
They don't say anything , looking at me like am a wolf who is about to tear them apart. "Seems he is still in slumber land hah." I find myself giving my words an unbelievable smirk . He even dare be late when he knows he has a meeting!
Just as am about to say pour out my frustrations and anger , the door flies open and he enters breathing heavily.
"I am so sorr..."
I cut him off, "Your case is a serious one , wait for me in my office!" Unbelievably, he turns around and leaves without saying anything, that is so not like him.
He really had fun yesterday, didn't he? He even had time to dye his hair purple! Purple... I have nothing to think.
And the way he is dressing... An oversize black side pocket trouser with an oversize t-shirt, snickers with an unzipped white sweater. Well.. a very great office outfit it is.
I turn to the ladies, "I don't have any doubt that You know me very well that I don't talk much and I don't think twice , let what you did , not repeat again! You are dismissed!" They stand up fast looking relieved, I know they expected the worst from this meeting . Thanking and being sorry like I need it.
I walk back to my office, before I even open the door for myself, he opens it, it's like he has just been standing next to the door listening to my footsteps.
" Am sorry! Am so sorry sir , I wasn't thinking, I knew it was wrong of me to do what I did but I still did it , it's not like I don't respect the rules and regulations of this company , that is not so true , if you want to know that am not lying then remember when you told me to wait for you in your office , I acted fearfully and didn't say anything back , that's because I didn't want those girls to know that we're friends and we talk friendly to each other, if I did that they might have thought that you... "
" Stop! Just stop talking!" What a peacock!
"You are making so much noise in my ears , friends? We are not friends! One last thoughtless manners and am going to throw you out of this company!" Trust me , I don't mean that.
"You should know that there are consequences for what you did."
"Yes I know but not now please, am supposed to meet with..."
I cut him . "That is not my problem!"
"I can't be late , I really promised never again to waste their time, I promise the minute the meeting ends , I'll be here, we just have to check out the venue , let me go then when I come back you can punish me in every way possible, am even willing to keep you company tonight when you work until the time you will be leaving the company."
Ha.. he's joking, right?
"And your brain tells you that, that is a punishment?" I ask trying to suppress a laugh.
" Isn't it ? I mean, at that time I should be home, but I'll sacrifice it to stay with you, or maybe I should just go home and then you can punish me tomorrow with whatever you want because am sure we will finish the meeting late hours."
"Miss to come back here today and you'll regret it the rest of your pathetic life."
His phone vibrates and he answers it smiling. "Yo! Bro... oh You're already at the gate? Just a minute then.. yeah cool." He hangs up .
"I have to go , see you later!"
And just like that, he's gone , he's really enjoying this , isn't he? I can't believe I didn't scold him even a bit! What has he done to me? Am being taken under his control every minute that passes.
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Seconds became minutes , minutes into hours and he's no where to be seen! It's 9 pm , since morning and he posted a photo of him with other two men in a pub .
Suddenly a message pops up on my phone , a picture of him and those men attached to it , in this photo they are not in the pub , 'I can't make it back to the company today because the meeting has ended late than I expected , see.. we're still at the venue doing some arrangements '
..So the venue is the club!?
Why am I like this with him anyway?! It's not like I want him to come back so that I can punish him , I just want him to be here, like I've missed him or something... hah very funny Adams , why would you miss that brat in the first place? The only person you've ever missed and you'll always miss is your brother!' I tell myself.
■●□ The next day,,
He said he's gonna come today but the day is already gone again without his presence, am very sure he is having fun after the wedding he has been planning , obviously with girls, thank heavens that wedding is over , now he won't have to go out again.
" Sir, you called for me?"
"Yes, I wanted to tell you that do not give Mr. Wilson another task which will involve him leaving the company , he can work on something else that will keep him indoors, am very sure you have realised that he is stubborn and when he have something to take him out like.. meeting the clients, he take it as an advantage and he doesn't come back, he gets time to mess around during work hours!"
"But sir he did a great job , the wedding he was standing for is all over the internet, I think even if he messes around he does a good job , besides he had already booked another wedding that is next on the list." Mrs. Henderson says angering me somehow.
"Do I have to repeat what I've just said?" I ask her.
"No sir , am.. am sorry." She says going out, she was the one who didn't want to work with that stubborn headed, but now they've already become friends and he's her favourite?
Uhg! I think am going crazy, when was the last time I thought about work? All I've been thinking about is Julian julian julian , he is spending much time in my head.
What does this even mean? Have I maybe.. no ! Impossible..
Tomorrow is a weekend and I don't think I can wait till monday to talk to him, or to see him. But do I have a choice?
Seriously , what's this new feeling? I've only known him for like two months now and I feel attached to him already? If I were gay I would have said am in love but am not, so what's this?
But come to think of it.. I've never dated because I never had time to think about love, I've been working since I was young even when I was still a student , I've never thought about my preferences.
Something happened years ago which might make me say maybe am gay but I was so young back then, that doesn't count!
But all in all I can't be gay , I don't think my parents will be able to take that , they haven't even recovered well due to the loss of my older brother, besides , they've been pressuring me to marry so that I get them grandchildren , so what will happen if they hear that am gay?!
I don't know what to think! Ever since my brother passed away in an accident, so many years ago ,, but still vivid in our brain and in our hearts , this is the first time am feeling happy to have someone around me , am feeling so much jealous when Julian goes out and have fun with other people, maybe I really loved it when he bothered me .
Okay there! I've confessed how I really feel, but what it is and what to do is what I don't know.
All my life I've never felt like this , I've been struggling to keep this company going , I've been struggling with it since I was young after my brother passed away because my mom hasn't recovered from the incident which has made her very sick this days , she's not supposed to encounter any stress, otherwise it'll knock her off .
While my dad is old and weak now, he can't work effectively, he used most of his youth life on working, he married my mom when he was older , and that's why now he is in that state. Am guessing they are forcing me to marry now so that I don't end up like him .
Anyway,,
I won't think about this again, I'll do my work like I've always done , like he is not in this company at all .
I decide to go home because sitting here is useless.