With a start I'd stop my eyes from slamming shut, once more I'd force clarity again into my mind. Groaning as I pushed my leaden body into the bathroom seeing my glasses catch light from the mirrors reflection my dark blonde hair greasy as if not showered for days my acme flared as well.
"Just a few more hours it'll just forget about me." I'd murmur to myself as I jolted as I splashed more cold water onto my face hating the way it coldly seeped into my pores as the air caught to it.
Just a few more hours I'd have to wait I kept repeating the motto. my mind knowing the nightmare spell won't just gloss over me but I still held hope in it as if my desires would override it's choice.
I'd look at myself in the mirror a long time zoning out into microsleeps as pure will allowed me to stay up for nearly 2 days without any rest constantly paranoid but not preparing or training any skills to help me out of a mix of lethargicism and hopelessness.
The 17 year old would slowly shamble out of the bathroom into his disheveled room, his heart bearing the tax of near lethal amounts of energy drinks that kept it flowing.
Almost randomly I'd falter just a moment and would pass out in exertion, my body giving no warning as I plummet what feels like thousands of feet into sleep.
With a jolt I'd panic immediately in the dark sub space of what seems to be the nightmare spell setting up I'd see a sleeping king on his throne surrounded by advisors turning into a horrific monster the castle he ruled over swamping with monsters now in my vision as I felt some clarity impart on me.
I'd stop being a impartial observer after a few moments I'd find myself coming to consciousness cowered in a corner before I'd slowly sprawl out not looking so fetal anymore now.
"Damn it" I'd voice out loud annoyed at myself and at the spell.